every time it gets easier
you come back
yet no one is left but myself to clean your mess
when you leave again
without a goodbye

the damage you do to my heart is painful
it’s beautiful how after picking up my pieces
i get excited and am ready to scatter them again
when you pop out of nowhere

without a second thought
i swallow all your lies
again and again

not cool I would say
not cool

i'm surprising you in 4 days, 21 hours, and 2,938 seconds.
you have 4 days 21 hours, and 2,938 seconds to finally realize i am not who you want
or who you deserve
i have 4 days, 21 hours, and 2,938 seconds to prepare myself
for you to leave

i have 4 days, 21 hours, and 2,938 seconds to stop overthinking

you're gone and i'm done counting

Today, I found you crying on the stairs.
I asked if you were okay.
You asked me why I cared.
So I sat down beside you.
I said "I know you didn't ask for one, but you look like you could use a friend."
I asked again "what's wrong? Are you okay?"
You said "I'm fine. Just go away!"
I looked in your eyes and only saw pain and fear. So I said "we don't have to talk. But I'm not going anywhere."
You groaned and put your head in your knees.
Finally, you looked up and said "want to know what happened? Fine!
I found out my boyfriend cheated on me. When I confronted him, he said he never loved me and I needed to leave. Is that what you want to hear?!"
"No. I'm sorry that happened. Do you have any friends or family near?"
"No. And I don't have any money either."
"Alright. Before you say it,
I know you have no reason to trust me. But if you want, you can stay with me."
"Why are you being so nice to me? Why do you care?"
"Years ago, I had a friend who had gone through
a traumatic experience
and I wanted to help her.
I thought she could heal
if she talked to me about it.
I pushed her too hard
And she yelled at me.
So I yelled back.
I was angry so I left
and ignored her pleas
to come back.
Found out later she
Killed herself.
I don't know if anything would have changed if I stayed.
But I wish I didn't get angry
And walk away."

Yet again,
I come back to you.
Always.
Like a fool.

We became friend
To close friend
You cared for me
I cared for you
You liked me
I’m confused
I let you down
You’re disappointed
You push me away
You left me
I’m confused
We stopped talking
I’m confused
Months passed
I saw you
You saw me
We chatted
I have mix feelings
We met again
Chatted again
Memories flashback

I still want you back
I’m confused all along, you didn’t give me a chance to talk it out
You step in and out of my life whenever you wants.
Now I want you back will you come back?