#chemicalimbalance poems

lexi 2d

I want to be happy
I really try
but my brain has a chemical imbalance
something that can never be truly fixed
I'm chemically ill
this illness isn't the kind that makes you throw up or be congested
this illness makes you sleep and lose your appetite
it makes you stay in bed with nothing to do
it makes you weak and tired and achy from staying in bed constantly.
when I am happy it's almost uncomfortable
its as if happiness just isn't for me
I find comfort in this illness in knowing that's how I'll be forever
I find comfort in the fact that it will never change.

#depression #chemicalimbalance #illness

Taylor Rogers Dec 2016

In The Belly Of A Monster; Me

I love you more than you will truly, ever know. I am stricken with so much fear. I am so scared because, truthfully admitting, I have no certainty that I obtain enough strength to defeat this "monster". I can't stop hearing this **** on a loop in my head. What if I never break myself free, what if I am trapped inside my own demise forever? It's the most frightening thing that I've ever known, I have been too afraid to be anything other than still; so, so, still.

Written by Taylor Rogers

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#monster #bipolar #setmefree #selfawareness #motionless #expressionism #beautyinwords #mentaldisordersdonotdefineus #chemicalimbalance #eyeofthebeholder

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