When you lose someone, It's hard.
It doesn't feel real at first.
It feels like you're in a movie.
Your breath gets faster...
You start feeling dizzy.
You keep telling yourself to same thing...
Over
And
Over
Again
Your mind keeps screaming...
NO!
You feel the pain wash over you.
It's like a wave.
It swallows you whole and drags you away.
Away from safety as it drags you down.
You feel like you're drowning in your emotions.
Like you can’t breath.
And if you try to scream...
No one will hear a thing.
You feel like collapsing...
And you do,
You collapse inside.
Your heart hurts...
You feel pain you have never felt before.
You don't know what to do.
STOP!
You shout..
But you can’t.
The pain just keeps coming.
Like a steady waterfall.
Your emotions drown you once again...
You can't do anything about it.
You just have to wait and let it pass.
It pulls at you.
It follows you and attacks when you least expect it...
You don't know what to do.
I know this feeling because...
Because this is how I felt..
When
I
Lost
Myself.

Chaos around
Catastrophe within
You are dreaming the cage we are living in
I do not tell a soul
In solitude stand
Fearing they won't understand