This path on which I've come so far,
It has neglected my condition and left me tired.
The fire within is fleeting like a dim star
As these legs move like thinned wires.
Premonitions of the precognitive sort
Project into my dearest slumbers
To lend a communicative report
Concerning the sweetest of encounters.
But that future seems so far away
And my will to move forward
May waver towards the end of days.

Yet happenstance will show me my way,
She hardly leads the lost astray.

I can plan out a lifetime based on one look,
A glance in my direction,
Though disputed,
Can prompt my imagination.

Our life would be happy,
Without harsh judgement,
You'd hold me close,
And laugh when I made the coffee wrong,
But we'd be happy.

This disputed glance,
Probably aimed at her,
Not the deeply loving girl,
Slightly to the right.

Times of pain,
Though seemingly eternal,
Eventually,
Like all things,
Come to an end.

Look into my eyes;
They still have that same spark,
I still keep trying,
Even if I feel like dying,
There will be a time,
Some time,
When I am at peace with my demons.

Though I find it hard to believe,
And others such as myself,
There may just be a future waiting there,
If you keep going,
And go meet it.

Don't forget who you are,
Because you are so much more than this pain,
You can concur it,
Maybe one day look back,
Filled with pride of what you overcame.

Please, just don't stop fighting,
Just don't give up,
There could be so much more,
If you just give it a chance.

- Jay M
April 3rd, 2019

In a place full of terror
All I can see is the darkness
Black as the raven flying in the midst of nowhere
All I want is nothing but the blinding beam of light from the sun

I hear your voice shouting my name across the mountain of shame and hatred
Where I lay stuck with my thoughts of suicide
Catastrophic wails not heard from that mountain
No one, no one is there

Can I have at least one day more
To be delightful instead of feeling distraught
To see the sunshine kissing the clouds right before the twilight
To be happy, that’s all I ask for

I am close to abandoning all hope
And entering the ****** gates of inferno
But one striking light dawned upon this destructed entity
And saved me from the ocean of despair

Until I woke from this desolation
Realizing everything was a nightmare
For life is just a cycle of bliss and woe
All you have to do is have courage and fight your deepest fears