Watch us decay, watch us as we forget who we were
When we were younger, we had real bright futures,
Yeah, we were gonna grow up to be doctors and lawyers, something like that
But we sat outside too long, held hands and watched it collapse.

She said 'The Earth has a lot of nerve, to fall apart on us like this."
We didn't know we were to blame, so we only let it happen
Spent the summer with no hope left to our name,
Left the winter with enough coffee and liquor to **** anyone's brain

The walls closed in around us,
Where the hell were we supposed to go?
We have a lot to be okay with now, don't you think?

I've always found your epic tales of great essence and good taste
Surely, you can disregard my prayers,
and have no one question my faith
While your Prophets ascend and descend
Like waiters serving humanity its placebo dose of salvation

Water into wine, moon splitting into two,
cheap magic tricks inside
Nothing is revealed as deep rooted anxieties remain
I've always found your humanlike contradictions ever so humbling
But why must I pray five times a day,
shake my head against some wall
Or have your son die for my sins?
Mere motions by hearts with pseudo devotion

Insomnia has a name, too
Little truths reflected at the bottom of teacups
Gathered in caffeine particles
Stroked by last night
Glimpse of glistening white teeth
Particular to those who drink coffee with a straw!

My God, Allah, Jehovah, (or in any other order)
You, witnessing my struggle
Caffeinated and rushed
As I slump to slumber
Face brushing the cushions
My prayers are lacking, I complain

O father, I can't go on, no longer!
Spare me the afterlife tragedies
And your abusive anger
For insomnia has a name
An eternal sleep, tales of woes
A distress call inviting you, my unwanted anxiety

It's 3am and I'm awake for the second time.
Is it fair how some people just cruise through life?
What is this dispirited feeling -am I being punished?
I go to bed tired and I wake up tired, overwhelmed with lethargy.
Life happens in slow motion with a sense of hopelessness -
with Red Bull, ***** and caffeine being my only source of comfort.
How long is this going to last?

(An experimental piece)

Dark coffee
overdrive
Give it to me
hot
or
ice cold
with
cream
or
pure
midnight black
reality it seems
to speed by
it's so fast
I don't even have to
try
I am
stimulated
excited
trembling
brave and ready
but even
coffee
pales
to what
you do to me
when you wear that dress

Won't you come here love?
I want your lips pressed against mine;
I want you to be the
first sweet thing I taste.
The dose of caffeine
I desperately need upon the rising sun,
the jolt to get me through my day.
The one thing that proves to me;
I don't really need coffee.
-JRM