sometime love its told like a joke with a bad punchline
but would would rather be punched to the deepest black and blue
then get a ***** in the heart but the ***** in my heart was you

In that pregnant moment
just before you said
that you are leaving for ever,
did you care,
to look deep in to my eyes
as you loved to do each time
you took leave, that made us
feel so near, just a heart beat away
though how far one is from the other.
How could I see your face
when it is reflected like a
flickering beam of dying light
in the drops of tears in my eyes
that were about to roll down,
--the last tribute to a love taken
a turn none foreseen,
like the course of a river after
copious rains in the mountains.

Conor Oberst said
"I want a lover I don't have to love.
I want a girl who's too sad to give a ****."
And I'm sorry I think it's romantic
to be that girl.
I'm sorry I'm so bad at changing.
I'm sorry I can't love you more.
I have to leave, because the outcome of us is always this:
broken phones, empty bottles,
and endless drives at four am
when we both aren't taking
because we can't talk without screaming.

I'm sorry I'm too sad to give a ****.
I always told you I hated beginnings because beginnings have an end.
You're the most beautiful thing to ever happen to me.
This is the end.
I'm sorry.

I didn't know that when love ended
the aftershock
Would be worse
than the initial explosion
I didn't realize that hate
would be your only response
to an empty bed
"How could you leave me"
Yelled with daggers and lies
And all manor of venom
It was decided,
at some inner war council I'm sure
That any possibility of friendship
Would be collateral damage
" - the ***** must die"

I walked unaware into an ambush
I should have seen coming
I thought love
would be like the cockroach
The last to survive
Suddenly I'm your worst enemy
You never question the relevancy
Of how your current behavior
Matched your past behavior
And maybe that's why
We ended only to finish
With the decimation of
Us

When I pull you close
The space between us
Is just moving elsewhere
And your arms around me
Will not cease to
Silently push me out there
So that the air that once connected  
Me to you will now
Surround my skin with empty
Remembrance of yours
And choke me with the thought that
You won’t let me to
Embrace the man that you
And I both know I love

We
were kings
in the realm
of distorted things
Indulging in unmitigated lust that it brings.

She
was queen
A pillar
of strength incarnate
busy pillaging the futures of lesser beings.

The moments I lied
the dreams
the spies
tongues untied
The kingdom crumbled.

Walls I built
Accounts
the cries
threats of love
and roots upended.

Spirals speak before they're worded.
Now the future is in the rear-view.

regardless of the cheating
lies
betrayal
and pain
it's like everywhere i go i see your name

i know we are the perfect couple
i know we are meant to be
i know you are the girl for my life
as i read these prays i pray that you become my wife

right now i'm sad because this separation is just killing me
it's killing you even worse
cause i know you love me
bus as a girl i know you wanna party
have fun
and have ***

those the main reasons why you don't answer my texts
a lot of people told me i can do better
at first i didn't listen now i think it's true
cause there's someone out here who is need of a man
a man who'll be there love them
care for them support them
and where ever that one special girl is
i just want you to know that i'll find you one day
and when that day comes
just know that the rest our life's will be a happy ending
as long as a long happiness forever