#bpd poems on Hello Poetry

Mariah 8h

I hate myself
But that's okay
I'll like myself better
Another day

I don't have to hope
I know
With me
That's just how it goes

Just like a stray
I don't always show my face

Give it time
I'll be fine

I know my ways
It always pays
To give me space
It's best to let me go-
at my own pace

I'll come back if it's right
If it's worth the fight

I know my wobbly heart
Would pick it apart
Trying to find the art

If it's worth it
It will hard

And maybe if I'm lucky
It might leave a you shaped scar

#bpd #disabled #insomnia #deprecation #rage #fear #anger #regret #assured #understanding

Savannah Dream Contreras 2d

i accidentally opened your story, and i saw you have a new girlfriend

tn we are thinking abt your new gf and how, unbeknownst to me, you were already dating when i called you the night i got stood up by someone else
(i wouldn’t have called if i knew)

and how i called from a blocked number but you answered and you answered half asleep, “savannah?”
how did you know it was me?

we are also thinking about how we spent last Christmas together but it ended with us crying in each others arms because you dont want to try again and how , according to you, either way you can’t be with anyone right now even if you wanted to

and how throughout those three days, you were getting texts from her but assured me it was platonic. why did you feel the need to assure me ?

tn we are thinking about how this is the first girl you made a playlist for that doesn’t have any songs you dedicated to me first (like the last two did)

and tn i am trying to remind myself that “someone who will always come back is someone who will always leave”

#genz #bpd #love

Axton Mitchell 7d

1/3

A third of you want to
Play pretend, like Barbie and Ken.
Americas a dream house in a
Dreamland.

As if we aren’t all feeling the
Same fires or drowning in
the same
Waters.

We need you to
Pay attention too.
Ignorance may seem like
Bliss for now

A third of you want to
Stay uninformed
Negligence is a nod
To the oppressor to
Go on and push through

A third of you will see a
Third of us dead on the
Streets and try to weep.

To my Father Jake Mitchell, who always gets so upset when I write about my mother. Here's one for you boo thanks for the personality flaw.

#trauma #family #dad #daddy #issues #lgbt #ftm #bpd #personality #disporder

Mariah Apr 20

⁠☆Rainbow Stars⁠☆

Much to
my surprise
More and more
I come to find
☆Rainbow Stars⁠☆
✧ in my eyes✧
When most my life
I've lived in ⁠
✯Black and White✯

I truly am a surprisingly happy person for someone with horrendous rage issues.

#rainbow #brightside #optimistic #psychedelic #recovery #bpd #life #meaningful #evolving #healing

Ash W Apr 18

Trapped

My mind races, im lost in this funk,
Bitterness lingers, rough on my tongue.
Dry mouth, dry eyes
Look as long as you want,
You’ll never see me out of my shell.
Darkness surrounds, stay trapped in my head,
Stuck with my thoughts, my demons, and my dread.
Never felt so wrong, truth hits hard,
Miscalculations leaving me scarred.
Lock them out, keep them away,
Rid yourself of me as a problem, or hell’s dogs will play.

#bpd

Mica Light Poetry Apr 18

Tragic

I am a person.

And I will silence nothing
at the risk of losing sight of me.

Not again. Not ever.

I am a person.
And I had to earn it.

But firstly,
I had to find out on my own
that I never even learned it.

Never knew that it existed,
let alone that I deserved it.

Never knew that there was more
beyond how others would observe it.

Left to tear apart the parts of me
that weren't ******* perfect.

Believed my body and it's ***
exist to only be of service.

That in the eyes of others is
where the sum of all my worth is

...𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘴𝘵 𝘪𝘴?

Every time I showed a piece of me
my mother ******* burned it.

Or a lover would reverse it.

Weaponizing all my flaws
to take it all and ******* turn it.

Suddenly my sensitivity is
where all of the concern is.

...𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘮𝘦, 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘵?

Cause when I speak, the space it takes
can sometimes be a trigger.

They're not the point of my story,
but put their ego in the centre.

Making it about them,
when it's something so much bigger.

Cause most people just hear failure
when they're asked only to consider.

And realize that maybe
they're not a big part of the picture.

That the child inside me paints
with the pain that is within her.

Dipping her brush into
those who have dismissed her.

All who mislead or betray,
and the ones that desert her.

She covers the canvas
with the sound of sad silver.

The colour of **** glitters gold
and makes silence shimmer.

It catches the light
and the colours all kiss her

I stand strong beside her.

It took a long time to find her.

We are a person.

And I will silence nothing
at the risk of losing sight of us.

So if you say that you need
to be blunt and sarcastic
in the face of my pain,
no regard how traumatic -
it's really quite tragic.

So I need to write something drastic.

Poking at uncomfortable ideas is
kind of my thing.

XxxxX
mica light
Apr 18 2025

Not again. Not ever.

#tragic #bpd #cptsd #love #mentalhealth

Mariah Apr 17

The haze of BPD

Am I in league with Hell?
Or is that just how it feels?

Am I truly evil?
Is it my ideals?

Is it my rage alone-
That electrifies the eels?

The fear inside
It petrifies and reels

Pulls me back and forth
Conceals what's truly real

The reaction I can give a thing
Is not always how I feel

And past the stars and burning eyes
The truth can finally be realized
If it was overkill
Or if it was justified

#bpd #rage #aggression #violence #anger #frustration

Anailen Apr 15

but

im getting better
but im scared for the downfall

Feeling manic

#mania #bpd #sh #scared #melancholy

Mariah Apr 15

Kaleidoscope

"All this really is so silly.
You don't need to cry,
you're a big girl"

When really all Im hearing
Is how you think I should deal
With the world
You can't tell it's persevering
It's how I choose to heal
From the chaos its unfurled

As if it's only suffering
You've only known one part
You cannot see the peace it brings
It humbles my bleeding heart

The sun will start to reach me soon
Every time I go outside
It's radiation turns me into
Someone new and I
Will wonder why
I stayed inside my room

But just like you can't feel the warmth
If you have never felt the cold
You cannot learn to love yourself
If you choose not to see the old

The habits, the regret
The sadness, the unrest
It walks hand in hand with the
Moments at their best

The laughter, the worth
The rotting beauty of the earth
It's alive and then it dies
It cycles with intent
It doesn't bother with goodbyes
Just like the night and sky
It knows what it's death will represent

I can't ride through that meadow
Without coming out with pedals on my bike
Just like I'm never clean
I'm covered in the residue of my life

And even though I cry
It's meaning is never lost on me
It's about how hard I try
To face the worst and still believe
There will be another time
I know what all the struggle means
It isn't just a knife

The sun will shine
The rain will pour
I will certainly cry once more
In a life that's truly mine

It's not about defeat
It's not about demise
It's not about trying to compete
It's all about surprise
The shock and awe
To find yourself alive

After all we've suffered
After all we bled
To hope we can recover
That this is not the end

If one day
You finally understand
Who I was and who I am
You might know why I would cry
And possibly join in next time

On that day is hope
That you can call and tell me
If it is really all that silly
How I choose to cope

It isn't black and white to me
Can't you see
That I believe
Life is a kaleidoscope
Reds and greens of suffering
Blue tones of hope
Coloide inside
A cinemascope

The light that shines
Can be so bright
It blinds sometimes
And all I can do is cry

The suffering is the best part. It helps me see the worth.

#meaning #chaotic #misunderstood #strength #worth #soft #strong #coping #perseverance #bpd

Mariah Apr 15

Calling home

I want you to know
Why I don't call home

I wish I could express
But you'd rather I digest

You'll stop me every time
From saying what's on my mind

The worst part of that
You're happy with the fact

"No need to explain,
Just eat this cellophane!"

The silence on my end
The concert you regularly attend

The sweet sound of gone
Born from the shame you brought on

On purpose, by choice
You hate to hear my voice

You reject the things I say
You rather I decay

Didn't matter if they were true
When your perceptions skewed

No love lost
Nothing grows in frost

"Faster, faster, faster!
Die! Die! Die!

Shut up, shut up, shut up!
Don't look me in the eye!"

You suffocated me in time
Just so you could live your life
Without remaining in mine
Hoping
This time I won't survive.

#rejection #bpd #abandonment #resentment #rage #parents #failure #unspoken #neglect #hate