Everyday the new stuff is here
And I'm loosing myself in fear!
Can't see myself anywhere,
been tormented with none of my share.
Its beyond me, can't help myself
What they shoved to my face
I cannot repair.

In all this disarray
the fragments I'm loosing of myself.
Everybody keeps on pushing forward,
but it drags behind me, in the back!
Sometimes what you cling to most
Is the one to hurt you most!

The whole world finds it easy
Am I the only one suffering?

When I say, you, I mean him.
When I say, him, I don't mean you.
Got it?

You are nothing, but the past now.
You are nothing, but a memory fleeting.
You are nothing, but everything deleting.

When I say, love, I mean him.
When I say, him, I mean love.
Don't you get it?

You aren't in the picture anymore.
You aren't in my life anymore.

You're everything, but relevant.
You're everything, but present.
Can't you see?

You aren't welcome here anymore.

When I say, poem, I mean him.
When I say, him, I mean poem.

Now this one, this one right here, is about you.

I love you,
But I can't go back.

And when I say, back, I mean back to you.

The crunching of the leaves

Rustling of the pines

our laughter

Calm

Happy

A chipmunk

Screams

Demanding the inner connection of the Universe working thru the Holy Spirit of God...I beg to command and make justice for this Internal War; we live in...I want to see and explore my most inner intimate self to allow to work thru me to form an Angel I beheld...I form this poem of deep thoughts to bring you well, a message of peace prosperity to behold enlightened thru the chambers of my heart brain and soul...I want to tell you that Life is good to my inner health of confess to God himself... am just another sinner who needs some help...Oh Lord I said forgive me for my wickedness and treacherous thoughts I held...because I have become a very angry and deep sadness I am demanded to hold...within my soul there roams a Diabolic voice that hates my Inner self...because am a Child Of God, I confess Jesus is my Shepherd and my Lord beyond words I can tell. Thank You God for the Gifts you given me...I thank thee for my friends, home, good health, resilience against devils and misguided angelic creatures who have come to ****, steal and destroy. Father in Heaven I ask of thee to allow me to stand as a strong warrior of Light to fight till the day I die for my Lord who has given me Life, Love and Well being. Thank you Lord!!! You are good all the time. This is truly how I feel I will never leave thy House of Holiness and Love that you have provided for me. My Life is good my life is well and am trying every day to do what is right my Lord you know my heart and I will never dishonor thy House. Amen!!!

I bow my knees and lower my head to thy presence thank you God for what you have blessed me with and all that you have given me. I surrender to thy spirit of love&peace.

God is my Fortress God is my shield the word shall be my sword.

Amen.

I want my mummy back.