I am not an apology
started June 9th, 2021
I wanted this poem
to be a song declaring
that I am not an apology
but I am not there yet
I feel like something born then broken
spending my life apologizing
for not being able to fix myself
for not being what people wanted
Trying to stave off danger and hurt
I hurl apologies at the world
and the people in it.
I am sorry for being me.
.
.
.
One day
I want to stand here
in all my broken glory
for the world to see
and not apologize.
It is painful writing, editing and posting. I do it, because I want to be enough. I am enough. These words are what I face the world with.