I'm waiting for the crescent to glow
the sun flowing to our moon below
my tranquility when darkness falls

for Luna razored will save us all
the edge of bliss where It's bearable
there in the still I will lay at will

wait to have my destiny fulfilled
then be instilled with no god's goodwill
burn for loved ones I ruined using pills

alive, three forevers I'll be grilled
in the valley of the fallen angels
and there be killed, then have my blood spilled                                          
                                          justified
when the wet night ascends to the skies
I descend as demon with no disguise

Sixteen years ago, on this same date                                                                      ­                                                    
 I was in such a different headspace                                                        ­              
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Hopele­ss & thought that nobody cared                                                            ­    
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I convinced myself to not be scared                                                           ­     
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I gathered up all the medications                                                      ­                
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More than enough for relaxation                                                       ­                     
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Laid down on the couch like I had                                                              ­  
                                                                ­                                                           always done before when I felt bad                                                      
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I had spent so much time lately                                                  
        ­                                                                 ­                               
Planning & plotting ******* me                                                               ­ 
                                                               ­                                                 
  That night I couldn't take it anymore,                                                         ­ 
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  I had pain inside of my inner core                                                            
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I put my faith in the whole amount,                                                          ­        
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A handful of courage, I drank them down                                                    
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All of this dialogue in my head                                                             ­ 
                                                                ­                                                     
   would soon be silenced, would be dead                                                          
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But God had other plans for me                                                               ­                                                                 ­                        
                                        ­                                                                 ­       
  sent an angel and his mercy                                                            ­              
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Now I am feeling so differently,                                                     ­               
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I thank God for loving me