Hello my name is Anorexia
I will make you an obsessive freak
You will hate yourself
I will make you hungry and weak

I will turn your meat to bones
You will lose excessive weight
You must be super skinny
Food you must hate

Skinny is perfect
So your diet is strict
You live struggling
Because you are an addict

Do not eat breakfast
The scale numbers matter
Do not eat lunch
Do not get fatter

I promise to make you beautiful
I am your best friend
I will make you so skinny
Even if your life might end

Dreaming of walking model thin
Unaware she's bones and skin

She lives in a damaged brain
Drowned from her vomiting pain

Her insecurity torn up her mind
Left her bulimic and mentally blind

Always hugging her toilet beside
Half dead from purging her soul inside

Crying because her ugly reflection
She won't give up until she's perfection

I envy those who can eat without conscience
I long for the infamous day when "things will get better"
I strive for an impossibility that I can feel within my reach
I expend the necessary energy to achieve a negative net
My mind rattles with number and limits
Counting the minutes 'til my next meal
Portion control and restrictions
Fighting the urges of binges
They say I'm just skin and bones
But what I see is all I'll know

she
          stands in front of the mirror
          hands shaking
          her reflection
is
          not defined as 'beautiful'
          her standards are too high
          she has
an
          eating disorder
          she thinks she's fine
          but she's not
          soon an
angel
          will come
          to take her away
          an angel with beauty
that
          astounds even God
          just like 'her'
          only whole
          she
doesn't
          see the pain she causes herself or others
          she wants to be beautiful
          she doesn't
need
          all this pain and suffering
          to keep her demons away
          she needs
wings
          and a prayer
          what she needs
          she doesn't get.
To
          be happy
          she needs to be somewhere else
          she needs to
fly.

she's behind every smile
saying "this is what it takes"
she's behind every smile
both real and fakes

she holds my hand
when my mind becomes weak
she holds my hand
telling me not to eat

i'm tied to Ana
by the lies i've listened to
i'm tied to Ana
there's nothing i can do

i fade away piece by piece
as Ana watches on
i fade away piece by piece
soon it won't be long

maybe i'm addicted
to the lies Ana shares
maybe i'm addicted
maybe only Ana cares

can't let her go
i only wish i could
can't let her go
heaven knows i should.

everybody feels insecure
some people
just do a better job of hiding it

**(c.m.h)

she stands here
with her back against the wall
she helps me lock my door
when i'm crouched on all four

it's just a diet
keep it quiet
my problems lay in numbers
medical language wont help me here

leave it alone
i'll do this on my own
dont tell me it's dangerous
cuase i'm allready painless

**(c.m.h)

would you believe me if i said you are pretty?
would you believe me if i said you are worth it?
would you believe me if i told you i care ?
would you believe me if i said it will be ok?

would you believe me if i said im confident in myself?
would you believe me if i said that i'm ok ?
would you believe me if i said i don't need help?
would you believe me if i said everything is fine?

*(c.m.h)