Sitting all alone in my basement
With less than an hour til 2015

Lying to myself by making
Resolutions

Still, I tell myself
I will be a better person

What.
*******.
*******.

things you said to me while drunk

1. I remember all of our moments.
2. I'm very…generous.
3. I guess we'll have to wait and see.
4. It's our first time.
5. We're going to my room.
6. You aren't drunk enough.
7. Good night, Sam.



things I said to you while drunk**
1. Come over.
2. I'm not trying to ****** you.
3. I guess we will…
4. I was just trying to be nice.
5. It doesn't matter.
6. You have a problem.
7. I think I miss you.

little bumps
occasional texts
inside jokes
subtle sparks
tiny smiles
sudden kisses

and then

nothing

those crinkles in your eyes
when you smile
or laugh uncontrollably

that knowing look
when you turn to check
to see if i'm having fun

these times when it's just us
and i love it
but i don't know what you think

this little bubble between us
of almost closeness
that i wish i could burst

Dry comfort this,
That losing reads bitterly against
Both our tongues.

Devotion was  a moment
When I loved you for existing,
For breath and sleep and talk.

It exists, still.
Somewhere deep away from you,
Or it will revive and burn
Just watching you sit.

A lovely night.
Perched on porch rails,
Beautiful in half-light is my man.
Come crickets: Spell and spill a symphony
As I watch him,
Living in a glow which is not mine,
No, never; Earth is not so generous
With me.