How am I dry When years of anticipation are melting like a glacier? All I’ve ever wanted Is standing at the end of my bed With his cold hands pulling apart my thighs So why am I fighting so hard To get out of my head? When he looked into my eyes I saw guilt staring back at me. When he kissed my lips, He hated that they tasted unmistakably mine And not of his lovers. Our timings never been “okay”, I should have taken that as a sign To keep this a fantasy.
The way you lived Everyday Living in fear Of somebody seeing you loving me
Cause that alley had eyes hidden in the bricks That parking lot had lights hitting our lips And you were hushing me We were always walking on a tightrope that was too many years old I wonder where you went too when you wouldn’t show up for the 5 minutes you were supposed to
The way you lived Everyday Living in fear Of somebody seeing you loving me
Cause people were noticing me love you That school had monstrous eyes That window of your truck had my breath melting the ice It had the smell of me, my missing earring
The way I lived Everyday Living In fear that no one would see me love you
Cause I was the most prized secret Perfectly kept on tight sealed lips Losing myself in you I still remember the weight of you I still remember the first taste of you And I remember your stories of the boy you once were and I remember wishing I was born in the 70’s just so I had a chance to be chosen by you
The way I lived Everyday Living In fear that no one would see me love you
Everyday for me was like a 10 mile race I tried with everything I had to be the woman in your frame But I sunk down deep and lost the game There I was chasing you like you owed me Cause I never accepted the fact that you were bad for me
The way you lived Everyday Living in fear that somebody would see you loving me
Cause I thought you wanted longevity and I was overtaken by our chemistry I had dreams about the silly things like your jeans and the way you would smirk at me I bet you dreamt about mornings with me But all we ever had was foggy evenings I had a feeling you were going to make me blue With your name on me, a blue tattoo Instead the colors of me are a pinwheel of hues
The way I lived Everyday Living In fear that no one would know I love you
But I tell myself that art is meant for periods of time You made me into a heaven and you made me into a hell Tell me how do you get the sun to set on you All I ever have is the moon And I know that time will pass over and over but I am stained with you all over my body you lay After the 8 hour school days of staring at you I can’t unsee you
And I know I was never good at accepting But you accepted that I was a broken young And you chose to make me anew Did it **** you too? Tell me did it enlighten you? Did the first time for me overtake you?
Every day I was there
You were there
Every day I was there..
The way you lived Everyday Living In fear Of someone finding out you love me.. I’ll never relate too..
