As I trace your lips,
I find the lifeline of my life...

I couldn't seem to let you leave.
So I buried you beneath
Silky, white sheets.

You said you adored red.
So I painted them
With every part of you.

I gave you everything
But, I've become afraid.
See it's been awhile
Since my lover kissed me,
Or rolled out of bed.

*I may have killed him,
I think he's dead.

I'm faced with an issue
For which I do not need a tissue
It's a little complicated
Makes me feel intoxicated

I have some life choices
But I need to follow the right voices
I wish I could just stand back
Autopilot through the right track

Three main choices have arisen
All three I can envision
For one I need self confidence
At the loss of my moral conscience

Or I can keep my heart and adore
But have a life that I bore
Be laid back and loving, never to explore
But would I trade this for the loss of my core

Or I can just stay this way
The way I am today and everyday
My brain and heart stuck in a conundrum
I wish the answer would just come

All I can do is roll the dice
And hope luck is ever so nice
Picks for me one which is right
I shall think on this one overnight

you're the difference in between of
what i think and what i say
you're the only one who's capable
to take my breath away
you're the shadow i remember
in the nights i stay awake
you're the last remaining victim
of the promises you make
you're the arrogant admirer
of your own self-righteous good
you're the shallow little dreamer
drowning in your lifeless blood
you're the hopeless overthinker
who can't hold a conversation
you're the absence in the thought
behind your insecure frustration
you're the joke behind the laughter
you're the end and yet the start
you're the one who i chase after
you're the thief who stole my heart.

You're the one they adore.

I'm not one to admire another human that is such a trend as I never understood the concept of attention.

But the image of you standing there , hair falling into your beautiful green eyes that resembled the fresh cut grass in spring and your top teeth sunken into your bottom lip , trying to stop the trembling but never got it under control .

I wasn't until I was kissing your blood stained knuckles did realise I for a change followed the crowd .

I adored you and you I .

I will be forever great full for the time we spent together.

But like the say , curiosty killed the cat.

I hope you like your choices.

I'm not so sure about mine.

they told me i could find out
how you feel about me
by the way you kiss me.

you kissed with all your strength
yet at the same time gentle
you kissed with passion and with rage
you kissed me all-consuming.

i could've judged by those
so many kisses
that i meant the world to you
and that you ******* adored me

oh! was i such a fool!
it turns out you could kiss me
like i was everything
and at the same time i meant
**N O T H I N G

what if what is isn't true
what if I'm not true
       because every path I go always brings me back to you
what if I'm a part of you
       something that got lost years ago, now found
       a lonely person, walking alone, waiting
what if I adore you too much
       adore you, your life, your shame, your kindness
       adore all the little things you do
       things no one understands,
       only you
       and me.