Hello, queen bee. How nice of you to visit me.

I see you everyday, and everytime my words get lost on the way.

Im speechless and out of breath.
I am feeling like theres none left.

The time of I day I see you there
Is the time of I day I run out of air.

Next time I promise I'll tell you truths.
So please be patient and come back soon.

My apathetic mug leaves you the first impression.
So now I'm stuck with this depression.

Knowing I am nothing and going through hell.  
Engulfed with regret, I dwell and dwell.

If only you could see what I can truly do, maybe I could be your only truth.

So wait for me please, I'm begging you.

Keep killing me with your smile, I don't mind.

Queen bee, until next time.

Yours truly, Ivan.

Every day I see her
Dark red hair
She treats me so sweetly
Even after a cold stare

Every day I see her
Sometimes sad
I try to make her happy
Even if it turns out bad

Every day I see her
Lost in thought
I know she works hard
Even when it's naught

Every day I see her
Grinning at me
Her face so sincere
Even if she lacks Vitamin D.

Every day I see her
At lunch she sits across
I feel my heart skipping
Even though she's my boss.

Hey bro, I got your back
Through thick and thin
Won't let any harm come to him
No matter what weapons they bring
The hate can never break the bond we have
We got a connection nobody else has
Same blood flows through our veins
Same creative forces in our brains
Never give up
Strive to be your best
You have a talent you're willing to share
You've got a knack for showing you care
Even with this sibling rivalry
Nothing can change the knowledge I've gained
From watching you grow into who you are today
And we may pick fights,
It's just brotherhood gets a little rough sometimes
But I know you will achieve great things
And I can't wait to see you living your dreams
All this faith in you I have
You've inspired me to be better
I need to set examples for my younger Brother
Need to get out and try and reach these dreams
Show him if you work hard enough for it
You can make it anywhere you want
Dedication can take you beyond the stars
A little blood, sweat and tears, can take you so far
No matter where it is we are
You’ll be always shining from afar
No matter what happens I got your back
Just hope you always remember that.

©2018 Written By Benji James

The darkness of a black hole,
consuming me alive,
leaves me stripped of my senses.

Enveloping me slowly,
as I fall into the abyss,
I am nothing more than a conscious.

Even though I can't see him,
I know he's standing in the darkness,
watching me as I fall.

Among the nothingness,
I feel him deep inside,
As he moves closer to me.

As I open my eyes,
the moon shines brightly,
through my open bedroom window.

Hundreds of miles away,
he sleeps peacefully,
unaware that he is creating galaxies.

Fallow brown, like he's poured his whole soul out through the gold sieve and lies in wait to be replenished.

2. The color of the ocean. Blue, I guess, but that’s not even the half of it. All the ruggedness of the waves—forming up, breaking, and forming again like life is only the motions. Her eyes are blue, but you could hardly tell.

3. A hand-painted bowl of fresh chocolate frosting from which the most immature hands soonest get a mouthful.

4. Beautiful. Like, drop dead gorgeous. I’d dig my own grave and stick to rolling in it if she ever looked at me some type of way. Their color? I don’t know. But most of all, I dare to wonder about the bludgeoned scar between them.

5. Sturdy cobalt. Far more indicative of her steady heart than gold could ever hope to be. Still susceptible to tear, but not so easily warped by heat or stress.

6. Simply brown. No, red? It’s always been hard to tell through the fog. Truthful like the rawest earth, I’ll call her mahogany.

7. Faded blue spray paint over a slate gray wall. Forcibly muted after her years of blasting music, but there’s still that rogue twinkle to them that I pray slips through the cracks.

8. Coffee, with all the vim and vigor to make you click your heels and fall in love.

9. Unripe lime seen lazing in the shade. Not fit for a margarita just yet, but straining at the bit nonetheless.

10. Hazel, although I still don’t know what the **** that actually is. Whatever. It looks nice on her resume.

11. Green. Or were they blue? The memories of her were too wonderful, too important, that I had to let the littlest details fade away first.

12. The crystallized seafoam that made me realize I deserved to feel alive, too.

It feels different with her
Different with how she sees me
Because she... sees me,
She loves every part of me
That I want to love about myself
That I can acknowledge
As admirable traits to have
And she... admires me
And I admire her admiration
And I desire her love
She is so good
And I love every part of her
And she can't love herself
But maybe if she loves us
She can get there faster
And we try to move slowly
But my love for her,
It loves running races
And my heart races
When she moves with me
And we move with each other
And I love how we have moved since
And I loved how we moved before
But everything has led to this
Everything has led to us
And I love us
And I love every part of her
And she makes me
Feel like I am worth loving

Sinong mag-aakala
Na doon, tayo ay magkakakilala
Una kang masilayan,
Wala akong ibang naramdaman
Sa gilid ng aking mata
Ika’y aking nakikita
Halos magkatabi
Iisang upuan lamang ang pagitan.
Sinong mag-aakala na tayo ay iisa;
Iisang Diyos pinaglilingkuran, iisa ang pinaniniwalaan
Sabay umawit, nagpuri sa Panginoon
Na alam nating tapat mula noon hanggang ngayon.
Sinong mag-aakala na sa paglipas ng isang linggo
Sa dating lugar, tayo'y muling nagtagpo
Walang muwang, mga hakbang ko'y patungo pala sa'yo
Labi nati'y ngumiti nang ang mga mata natin ay nagsalubong.
Lumipas mga araw,
Ika’y akin paring natatanaw
Nakasama, nakausap, at higit na nakilala
Ikaw ay maalam,
Nabigyan ng kakayahan
Magsalita, mangusap tungkol sa katotohanan.
Sinong mag-aakala na damdamin ko’y makukuha mo
Ang aking atensyon ay hindi na maialis sa’yo
Sa bawat salitang lumalabas sa bibig mo,
Tila ang tinig mo’y nagsisilbing musika sa pandinig ko.
Sinong mag-aakala na ika'y gugustuhin ko,
Makasama sa tuwina,
Galak, tanging nadarama
Tunay nga’t ang pinagsamahan
ay hindi nasusukat,
sa kung gaano na katagal magkakilala.
Sinong mag-aakala na hanggang ngayon ikaw pa rin ay kasama ko
Sa panahon at oras na minsa'y gipit na gipit na ako
Tinuruan, nag-iba ang pagtingin ko sa mundo
Naging positibo sa lahat ng aspeto.
Sinong mag-aakala na ikaw ay aking makikilala
Landas na nagtagpo nang dahil kay Bathala
Panahon ay susulitin, hindi mamadaliin
Upang sa huli ay hindi tayo mabitin!


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