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Lois Jairam Apr 23
i miss you badly

though we’re just friends
for the music plays
it’s you who i remember
and without you — empty
the song echoes — loudly
aching, and gasping for
— you
i wish just a minute of a presence
so i could say my day’s complete
Sanu Apr 23
Of all the faces in the crowd,
mine always finds yours.
Like gravity,
like a tide returning to shore—
without reason,
without choice.

I never meant
to love like this.
Never thought
a single presence
could fill so much silence.

But your name lives
in the corners of every thought,
in the warmth I reach for
when the world feels too far.
And I ask—
why you?
Why always you?

I’ve tried to turn away,
to name this something else—
but even my lies
carry your shape.

So let me stay here,
in the ache,
in the wanting,
in the love
I would give anything not to feel.

Because no matter how far I walk—
I end up at your door,
again,
and again,
and again.

For every remnant of me is but a shadow of you,
and only you.
maybe i lay in the dirt because it’s closer to everything i’ve ever lost. grief is such a terrible thing. i don’t mind choking on it.
lone-pine-poetry
i am stuck inside this body. and it feels all wrong. tears sting my eyes every time i look in the mirror. the face in the reflection isn’t showing my authentic self. but god, a whole lifetime of burying myself in the dirt and i can’t seem to stop choking on it.

the roots have tangled around my body, holding me lifeless in limbo. it’s my fault for letting it condition me into believing i am not meant for anything other than soil. i must have the strength to break free, i can see the light glowing. but i am too scared to touch it after rotting in the darkness for a lifetime.

but god i just want to break free, to be rid of the worms eating away at me. i want to feel the sun on my skin. i want to know myself when i am not covered in dirt. it’s just so hard to dig myself out of it when i am the one that dug it deeper than it had ever been before. i am tired. my muscles ache.

will i ever be able to look in the mirror and see a man staring back at me? the musculature, peace in my eyes, and their perceptions correct? dirt under my fingernails proving the fight it took to break free?

i hate what i see because it is not correct. what went wrong? why was i born in the wrong body? why is this war raging inside me? why can’t i just accept it? why do i feel like sometimes i would rather just roll over in the dirt and rot?

i know there is still time but it’s not moving fast enough. i am drowning inside this body. if i could just turn adam’s rib into my own. but i fall victim to the idea i’ll always just be made from a man’s rib without ever having the body it came from. a rib is not enough. i need to be the whole creation.
lone-pine-poetry
She hurts herself, it's all she knows                                                            ­                                                                                              ­                                                   
the pain inside grows & grows                                                            ­           
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It runs too deep from head to toe                                                              ­      
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How do you stop the wind that blows?                                                           ­ 
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Self-inflicted wounds, no relief in sight                                                            ­                                                                 ­                                           
Light the fuse on the dynamite                                                         ­                                                                 ­                                  
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She scars herself, but can't release the knife                                                            ­                                                
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Can't see the sun, it's always night                                                            ­                                           
 She cries & cradles her legs with her arms                             
                
Knows the enemy who does the most harm                                                      
                                                                ­                                                          You'd think that would set off alarms                                                           ­   
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Can't someone save her with their charms?                                                          ­                                                      
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  She has never known the feeling of love                                          
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Noone has held her high enough                                                           ­ 
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Is there some way she can rise above                                                            ­                                                                 ­                                                                 ­                                
  The self-destruction she's proof of
I wrote this in 2010, after a serious breakdown
Debbie Apr 3
Her skin was smooth like butter cream.  
Luscious entry to his dream.  
Begging, pleading to be tasted.  
To be pasted,
all over the walls of his thoughts.  
Her heart's city of inhibition crumbles and falls
Her black lined eyes, alive and iridescent with haunting desire.
With a slow ache and burn like torches of fire.  
His breath through the soft dark.
Was a gentle gale into her farthest parts.
His whispers ferociously and sweetly
swarm her heart.
Lips taste like destiny, remembering eternity.
I combined two poems to create this one.
Hex Mar 23
My heart may ache, but so does bone,
A weight too deep, a pain unknown.
Not just sorrow, my body knows,
It wilts, it bends, it breaks, it shows.
kn Mar 21
I’ve known some peace, but not this kind—
The kind that quiets heart and mind.
You didn’t speak in grand displays,
You showed your love in steady ways.

You never tried to fix the ache,
Just stayed through every small heartbreak.
And somehow in your calm and truth,
I found a softer kind of proof.

It wasn’t sparks or skies so blue—
It was the way you simply knew.
No need for signs or something new...
It was, it is,
it’s always you.
Adam Torch Mar 19
As long as you're here,
as long as this works in its own way,
I'll keep taking
the hits,
the sips,
the bites.

Because you're the kind of substance
that makes me want to write,
contemplate life,
and feel the ache.
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