I know
what its like
to want to die
so when
the chance comes
it completely terrifies me.
It makes
me want to
run the opposite way
from the end
of my story
run into
someone who cares
and who can
bring me back
to reality.
I don't want
to end my life
even when
I want my life to end.

I remember telling you

not to fall in love with me.

I warned you then,

I should have told myself the same. You touched me and I exploded,*

Its not what I want.
Its not what I need,
but god
you make it so easy.
To easy,


You beat me at my own game.

Giving a girl like me your tshirt is the best thing you can do.
Its like falling asleep with your scent suffocating my surroundings and breathing like never before.
Its like falling asleep in your arms wrapped so tightly around me with the loosest grip.
Its like falling asleep with your soft lips kissing my entire body and wanting more.

Its like falling asleep next to you
when
your
not
really
there.