i was never meant to be surrounded with many people all the time
i was doing my best, made it easier for them, harder for me
and so im seeing its worth but i can live without it
and so i rot inside hoping still hoping i wont affect them

It's too **** hard just to show up
and feeling worse about the idea
just celebrating that

That if I stop,
my progress will be pulled back
hitting me to my farthest setback

As if I never tried,
Given up