Mysteries are like blame,
Clues wash off in the rain
You are so splendidly
inside and out beautiful,
Catch the inflated coloured ball
and kick it back to the smalls,
You and I had a decent distraction,
though brief, it made me feel tall.
You love how I can flow and rhyme
and you sparkle like a new-born dime
Carve every tree in a park of our names
You're the one fantastically,
and so realistically,
erases reality and how I'm numb.....
I'll chase you through teasing trees
and dodge all the angry wasps and bees
Just to be in your arms breathing silently.

sea salt leaves the memories,
of child-hood fun and gentle tease,
snap-shot in such comforting breeze,
They'll always judge and create make-believe.

Eyes on sea shells , ears of roaring oceans,
the smell of stench contrasts so easily
The factory nearby took the guilt reasonably,
All it takes is an ocean and their capitalism.

They all light me up like halloween
but I'm heading for death anyway,
and the things that I have seen
have me wish for my final days.
Tumble and wish for the clicks
of her sweet giggling fingers,
My wish is for rags to burn quickly
like the magic of that one finger trick

twenty miles dark passage,
gulps of sore throat something,
Dusk cuts me up like a tv screen
that displays psychedelic vision.
Its so easy to blow and be brave
if unchained not like the depraved
And I miss that school daddy wave
and visits with friends in the country.

I woke up shaking,
and full of anxiety,
after a 2 day binge
of wine and spirits.
This time, it was different,
I didn't had my pregabalin
so I bought two bottles
of smirnoff *****
I'm going to be *******
but those thoughts
were a fish caught
and I felt terrible
for how I treated
such decent people.

I'm going out,
my way.
I disappoint,
my father
and if my mother
was still alive
She would be
destroyed
with how I
made
the innocent
cry.
I just hope,
I don't twist
anyone's
sleepy eyes
with my demons
anymore.
I'll sip the poison
slowly
and what remains
can't be undone.
Its what
destroys me the most.