Broken minds and bleeding wounds.
Words that can't change anything.
Saying sorry doesn't make it better.

When the past isn't dead and you
Keep suffering in your head.

Do you know what it is like to feel
Pain that hurts so much you can't breath?, because I feel it everyday.

The unforgettable wild stare in his eyes
The tenderness in his raspy voice,
His slow lingering touch melts my core
The caress of his lips on my neck,
The rising heat consumes me
He knows he has me right where he wants me,
Pushed on to the bed.
Lying naked before his wicked his smile,
One last look taken,
One last touch felt,
One last kiss tasted,
He left me lying on the bed in a heated mess.

If i could turn it off I would.
If this was an act it would be over by now.
If you were to live in my body you wouldn't last an hour.
If I could stop my mind spinning for one day I would.
If I could scream at my anxiety disorder to leave me alone, I would have done that long ago.

Born with no silver spoon.
Grew up with very little.
Made something from nothing.
Always made the best of things.

Held on to hope really tight.
Always believed there's a better tomorrow.

Been strong not by choice.
Smiled through all the pain.
Took the good with the bad.
But I wouldn't change anything.

Take me some where we can't be seen.
Where we can lock out the world.
Where I can be in your arms,
Tasting your lemon drop kiss.
****** my mind touch me with words.
Let me get lost in your eyes.
Let me live in this last moment with
You, before morning comes.
I hate the moment where we have
To say goodbye.

Writing by candle light walking
In a garden of shadows,
Living for the darkness,
Playing his temptress,
The heated touches,
The caress of his lips against mine,
Dices rolled lines crossed,
The roundness of his hips,
The deep honey coated tone of his voice.
Had me pulling his head back just
to steal a kiss.
He makes me forget about the
World outside.

Writing words in the sand
You will never see.
Watching as the waves carry
Each line away.
I wrote you a love letter
In the sand.
But the sea washed it away
Like it was a mistake.

Falling leafs and bare tree.
Long nights and tormented dreams.
Frost bitten tears.
The days come and go.
But the pain still hurts.
Death has no sound.
No scent or face.
Saying nothing.
Taking everything.
Death left me Autumn tears

His smile brought my walls down.
Craving for his touch.
Needing his kiss.
Lost in his eyes.
Feeling things words can't explain.
Desire burns like a wild fire.
Carried out on a tidel wave of emotions.
Higher than the moon.
His devine love stole my heart
His Love made me blind.

I want to fly but they won't let me.
Seen but never heard by anyone.
It's either their way or no way.
As each day and night slips by.
I die that little bit more inside.
My deep wounds never heal.
My heart is too broken to fix.

There once was a girl who
Dream big, and had her head
In thr clouds. She red all the
Fairy-tales you could name.

One warm night the girl looked
Up at the silver moon lit sky.
Wondering if fairytales were
True or just a wonderful lie.

All she ever knew was witches and
*******, Lairs and story tellers. There was
No glass slippers or fairy godmothers.
All she ever was lost and alone.

Every midnight she sits on a step.
Watching the moon and the stars.
Waiting on her prince and her happily
Ever after.

Truth told but never believed.
Underestimated because of lies told.
Unheard words lies still winning.
Couldn't trust anyone.
Now you see the lies.
Now its happening to you.
You see the truth now.
Better seen.
Than never seen at all.

Sitting under a sea of stars,
Searching the black velvet sky
For lost dreams of you
Whispers of your poems are carried
On the gentle summer breeze
Reminding me that I can only
Have you dreams
The unending nights
Your smooth moves
Hot and heavy kissed
Touches that burning my skin
The witch laugh and cackles
She takes pleasure from my pain
She listens for the sound
my heart breaking 
She places one last curse upon me
To see nothing but your eyes
In each dream I have
Now all we share is the night
like the moon and the stars
We are miles apart and I am
Left never to feel the one touch i
Crave the most.

Lips meet.
Felt desires flame burn.
Trying not to fall too deep.
Hypnotized by his eyes.
This isn't love we're addicted to lust.

My heart is empty.
My eyes are full of tears.
Nothing is ever enough.

Can't smile through the pain.
Counting to ten doesn't work.
Given everything that I have.

Always been there to help.
Never gave up on you.
Nothing really matters.

Wear a super glue smile.
Takes these magic pills
Snap out of it
Your just acting it now
Push your way through the pain
This didn't happen in my day
Fit into society's mould
Crying is weak get a grip
Pull your self together
Keep your head down
This is not how women act
Your too loud
Your too quiet
I am putting another pointless post
On Facebook so you need to wait
And they wonder why I don't open up to anyone

Now you are in heaven and we are worlds apart.

Do you miss me like I miss you?.
Do you wish we could meet one last time?.
Do you miss moments we shared?.
Do you miss the places we went?.
Do miss the summer days we had by the beach?.

It's been two years since you since you past away but the pain still hurts.

I
Am
On a road but
I don't know
Where its going.

I want
to open up to
You but I don't
Trust you.

I long to
****
The demon
In my head.

I need
to stop
Loving you
Because its
Killing me.

All I see
Now is
A black
Heart.

Night is when everything catchs me.
The worry the anxiety the fear.
That loud voice in my head, which begs Me to make it stop hurting.
Trying to heal each wound one by one.
I hate the night because that's when my terror begins.

Suffocating long days and cold nights.
I can't think I can't breath
They didn't understand that I wasn't waving I was Drowning fighting
To keep my head above the water
But still they thought i was waving
What If I just stop fighting and dream
Would be now be a good time to close
My eyes and never get up.

If I am honest....
I don't want tomorrow to come.
Because i know it will be full of
The suffocating people.

Who never listen to me.
Rubbing on anothet fake smile.
Wondering if God listens to
My cry for help.

Theres days where that I don't
Want to wake up.
Wishing I could stay in a dream.
Where I am happy and free.

Confessing my sins.
Preying for a way out.
Feeling as if there is no
Way out.

Spilling my heart onto empty
Lines trying to ease the pain.
Looking for a get out of jail
Free card.

Close to giving up because
Everytime I find happiness I lose it.
Everytime I find hope it fades.
Now I no longer know what to do.

Tonight I will prey once again.
In the hope he hears my cry for help.