You make me so happy...

I'm secluded
in my own
darkness, and
all I can do is
reach for the
light that I
know I'll
never reach.

My world
is slowly
falling
apart.
Someone
please
save me,
because I
can't save
myself.

I need a hero, that will hold me every night that I can't sleep - when the nightmares are too strong for me to fight.

I need a hero, that will hold me every night that I can sleep - when life is so overwhelming and difficult that all I can do to battle against it, is leave and retreat into my mind's darkness.

I live a different life every time I open a book.

I try and try
to change my
inevitable doom;
but it's all
for naught.

I try and try
to keep loving,
but the passion
soon leaves and
I'm left loveless.

I try, I swear, I try,
to hold onto my love,
but soon I find myself
growing bored of them.

I've gone through a lot
of them: the good, the sweet,
the bad, the funny, the shy,
the smart - many!

But soon I find myself
growing so, so bored
of them. I never cheat,
never flirt, never do
anything bad that could
break the relationship.

But then there's the catch -
be the good girl, but in return,
become unloving; never
fall in love, no matter how
hard you try to love.

I try, I honestly do,
but when I'm in a
relationship, a month or
so later, I find myself
bored and frustrated with
the poor victim.

I'm just a heartbreaker who
kills her victims on the inside.

I don't mean to, but I do.

I just can't love.

Why,

Why am I so loveless?