I broke last night.
I put on my boxing gloves and beat myself up.
I laid in bed and cried.
I prayed to God I would die last night.
I even wrote a goodbye letter to my family and ex-girlfriend.
But I'm still here.
I guess God has a reason for that,
Although I don't know what it is.
I just wish that plan involved the love of my life.
Why can't I just die already?

No*, you do not love me.
I only love *you.

the connection we had
the beauty we saw in stars during
the night of making love to one another
your body reaches my mindset on cloud nine
every inch of you is impeccable
thinking of how you got me
wrapped 'round your little finger
would be the sweetest mind trip
i'd have to explore
feeling so nostalgic right now
cause the type of moon that's crawling in the sky is your favourite
and it reminds me of your beauty
the perfection of your seduction
the infatuation of your intoxication
the earth itself appreciates your presence
endulging the blue scent that is your soul
peaceful, truthful .. glorious source of energy
your voice haunting my thoughts
losing myself to the melody
my heart plays when you find
comfort in my hands
and let me slide into your thighs
where my emotional senses are retraced
as i continue to embrace the edges of your temple
i recall your perfect imperfections.

Trying to reach you,
But you are too far away...
How do I say I love you when you are
Thousands of miles away?
How do I truly express my love for you
Without it being warped by the screened words?

I'm sorry I'm not worth it.
I thought...
I hoped this would be a fairy tale.

You, the prince. Everyone loves you.
Me, the peasant girl who has always loved you from afar.
One day, my fairy godmother takes me to the ball,
And we dance the night away,
Me falling deeper for you,
You loving me...
A wondurous dream,
The prince falls for the peasant.

But I guess not all fairy tales end with a happily ever after...
And it was all just too fantastical, too good to be true...
Just know that it may have never been real,
It may have just been a story,
But I still love you.