Everything in my line of sight goes out of focus
Tired, but not sleepy
Just zoned out
Just tuned... out.

… and I can’t help but wonder how freeing it felt to fly.

The words slipped out-
"I don’t want this anymore"
Had I blinked,
I wouldn’t have said it.

And just like that,
they took shape,
sharp as thorns,
wilting his smile
as they struck.

And just like that,
I stood alone,
Had I blinked,
he wouldn't be gone.

You are my goddess of the storm,
I beg you for your might.
I praise your heavenly form,
I need you every night.

The rhythm of our conversation
Makes the beats of my heart a wreck.
My soul can feel your vibration,
My hands crave your neck.

I can see you in the smoke,
I can hear you in the rain.
Like a priest, your pleasure I invoke,
And like a doctor, I remove your pain.

i am like a star
distant and dying
a long-healing scar
hardly ever at peace
i see past mistakes
it's emergency. call police!

i swear i thought that i had control
a moment flew by and i ******* it all
i couldn't get rid of those violent words
they broke me. they stroke me
they cut me like swords

u played unfair
still i was your saviour
are you ever sick of your two-faced behaviour?
u left me empty, used, confused
a storm was approaching
u were amused

why would u play sinless?
u can’t hide reality
can you lose your pride when it comes to morality?
the only way out for u was confession
since you’ve never cared i chose isolation

i tried to escape - i got out of breath
it seemed i was closer than ever to death
my mind's peaceful places are gone
skies collapse
it's motionless creature's relapse

it’s my new era of same old mistakes
why strangers shout to me, "whatever it takes" ?
mirrors exult
but i am overwhelmed
my carefree era came to an end

i couldn’t see clearly. i was disordered
still i had to take another step forward
soft lullaby
shortness of breath
weird. i'm one day closer to death

i gave it a shot. i played my part
i buried a feeling that tore at my heart
in silence i stood through the pain and the treason
broken and bruised
yet i know there’s a reason

i tried to keep my head above water
still felt uneasy. a failure daughter
guess i saw dreams being taken to slaughter
no wrong path exists
(should’ve known to be stronger)

forgive me my weakness
i’ve stumbled. i’ve bled
forgive all the chaos that spins in my head
expect me to change, let the past fall away
i'll shatter the chains that have led me astray

i strive to fathom the nature of pain
a question that circles and echos in vain
this season has shattered me
left me undone
but still i could find a reason to run

innocent wind lures me into the wild
a place from my dreams
where i slowly bleed out
i wanna be gone to the most remote forest
that's where for sure i will be my calmest