Each note i play my touch gets stronger, my fingers begin to lingure on the keys longer and longer.
Your eyes capturing me as my heart grows fonder, i just let my mind wonder as i ponder.
what is love to me? do i want to capture you or let you be?
hold you tight through the night or let you go out and fight.
life gets tough and it may seem rough, but its your time to learn ive had my turn.
life can be like a knife, you can get yourself into strife
But be strong find yourself a wife
whos nice and you will see that life can be better without me
this is my time to set you free

Dark red
Trickles
Trickles down her arm
A special little secret
Known as self harm

Fiery red
Anger
Builds up deep inside
She's got to let these feelings out
But to who can she confide

Dark silver
Blade
Is the one that she trusts
The one that she turns to
When life becomes too much

Long white
Sleeves
To cover her pain
Hide her relief
Hide the cuts again

My stomach churning
Scared your returning
Cold shivers down my spine
As the blade leave a line
This time ill go through
If it turns out true
Sacrifice for another
Be a real mother
Must i stay with him
Through everything
It would be right by my child
But he or she just mild
Compared to God the judge
Im glad he doesnt hold a gruge
Ready for this am i
But emotionally i still cry
When i said i wanted a baby
I didnt mean spill your gravy
I know what lifes worth
Because i look beyound the earth
I know what is right
But i still fight
In a way i hope this is true
But deep down i still feel blue
My baby i will do all i can
I dont even have to pretend
For you i will sacrifice
My whole life

Your reflection staring right back at you
You have to wonder is what your looking at true
All the lies you may have told
All the secrets that you hold
Deep inside they hide
What you see you cant describe
Sometimes i deny that its me
Who's staring back looks so free
Is it me im looking at
Is it me who's looking fat
Somedays i dont recognise myself
Whats with my eyes and my health
The past left its footprint
When i just wanted to sprint
Things i cant forget
Things you wont get
But the past is behide us
Thats why we can trust
But trust me i wouldn't
I tried myself but couldn't
It all comes down
To when you turned around
And saw someone else
Not me or myself
Staring in my reflection
Feeling the rejection

Do you ever feel like a ***?
Like you've got no where to go?
You dont know what to do?
Why does this sound so true?
The feeling is it shame?
The result is it pain?
Do you wish for a cuddle?
Even to stand next to him in a huddle?
Has he ever said forever?
And you thought "yeah more like never"

The blades have tasted blood, and it was surely mine
The venom torments me, with memories divine
Plagued with distrust, it begins to rot my mind
Voices start to taunt, love i'll never find
Constant realization, everything was pretend
Efforts proved worthless, a failure in the end
Ashamed of having tried, hearts never mend
Now what do I do, I've lost my only friend
Hiding behind a fake face, Ive lost my usual place
Fear then takes, my body begins to shake
Love i've lost, now im paying the cost
Waiting for the right person, why am i hurtin?
I  begin to blame, wishing i wasnt in pain
I know it was me, but why does it have to be?
Im asking questions, and not getting an answer
I become a dancer, then he gets hit with cancer
Please Lord why? he isnt even a bad guy
Why cant it be i, i deserve
im the one that took the curve
He did nothing wrong, but i have all along
This is my prayer, that i suffer
This honestly couldnt get any tougher
Just as i think this, there goes that slight bliss
The little bit of light, i loose its sight
Hiding behind my face, i try to embrace
I dont even have one friend, thats when i begin to cut again
The blades enjoy as i endure, i wish i couldve just stayed pure.

For words i can not speak, my life why should i keep?
Happieness and grace have left there usual place,
Now hiding behind my face, all i feel is numb and dumb.
I love you til death shall take my last breathe, but for now i hide along with my pride.
Sorry if i ever lied,  but you treat me like dust then all i have left is "lust"
My dying heart makes us part
Eyes tightly shut, why do i miss out on love?
For my prince has not come left to wait with only one mate
A true friend not just a passing trend.
Who knows when it will be the end
But til then all i can do is pretend