Sleep.. within thoughts.. with your memories of the day.. share your dreams with others... golden sand will be on the wooden floors of the dream chamber.. light blue flame will burn as u enter.. all the others here are dreaming also.. pour your emotions and get drunk off their souls.. one night we will all fly together. . Toward the 12th star above libra. Above and beyond reality. .

On my way back the sun was starting to run away around to the otherside of this blue blaze among the stars..

I had gone for one of my walks down this old country road where I live..  

The new early evening was brisk and quite cool.. My dog walked right beside me..  For any of you with writers block this is a well known remedy for such illness..  

The skies had about 4 clouds that were fading fast..  The runaway setting sun painted the sky a beautiful deep orange mixed in with atmoshere purples..  

The long road back look even more majestic under this orange and purple sky paint..  

This is how I know there are spirits and ghost that follow me about on these walks..  I truly think they are feeding and wispering to me ghostly and spiritual words for the poems and stories I write..

There is but one cloud left.. And then it happens..  It begins to rain.. Very very light rain it was.. Mixing in the rain and the setting sun was a visual I cannot begin to describe.. Although it fell lightly the rain was large enough to capture the oranges and purples that now filled in the reflecting water droplets of the sky..

I get it..  And I thank these ghost and spirits for such a beautiful visual.. Ill see you all again soon.. Or at least you will see me "smiles"

It seem wicked and unnatural..
Something from another realm..
Yet the music it played was coming from me..
So I knew I was somewhat of the source..

I could feel it wanting my thoughts..
I could feel it becoming happy..
Darkness was smiling..
Darkness was alive also..

With any light I cast this shadow..
It plays for me music of darkness..
Notes and melodies of the shade..
I yearned to play the music inside of me for so long it awoke this musical blackness..

I became friends with it..
I gave it more and more everyday..
And at the right angle I could cast more and more shadows adding more instruments of umbra to my songs..

The best songs come from the shadows cast from candlelight..
The natural flame creates the darkess of shadows..
One is standing in front of me now playing the violin..
And another behind me playing the guitar..
While I sing the lyrics to this music of darkness..

Pale light, cold and dreamless, she becomes my umbra...
Her beautiful obscurity tells me she is real..
Pedals of gloom bloom among this dark flower..
They shelter me from such pale light..
The darkest of colors fill in her body..
Her shade keeps me warm..
As the pale light grows brighter she becomes a penumbra to this false sun above..
She sees in my eyes that I welcome her eternal dusk..

Behind her all the stars fell..
the sky was full of wishes..
but all i wanted was her..
everyone one else can have the wishes..

What I can give u is simple love. I won't let go. This sun will then only burn for u and I. I can wonder about your face. I can smile at the thought of ur smile. Even if I am blazing through the cosmos I still cannot find any form of beauty that comes even close to your naked body.. oh that view makes my heart skip beats and makes me forget to breathe for a moment in your absolute beauty. I thank you always and my soul wispers to yours that I am in love with all of you......... and forever will be..

understanding is beautiful..
i can say that i have always been confused..
trying to understand is the hard part
but at least i tried..
and trying is understanding in a sense i guess.
wow! thats all that needed to be done!
i get it now!

i was content..
content in not knowing it all..
because if i knew it all then there truly is nothing..

i wrote a song about her..
simply her that did not exist at the time..
she never really changes when i sing the song to her..
she is there inside of my mind..
a specter a shadow of a woman..
a girl with faces i have seen in the pass somewhere..
and yet i sing to here somewhere..
somewhere she hears my song in her dreams like i hear them in mine..

land of eternal light..
she walks with me into the glow meadows..
i tell her to close her eyes..
i run down the hill and bring her a shadelion..
we both make a wish and blow the dusk pedals into the shine..

I flow into her as she flows onto me..
Our eyes and souls connect time and time again..
Until the embrace of the absolute nexus is tapped on both sides..
where explosions of emotions and shadows become one..
together we go, together the arrival..
where our spirals become one intertwined and spin out of control creating colors seen by closed eyes!

They danced around me. Tornados made of light. The spirals of shine spun the darkness away. Everywhere I walked they followed.. in the forgotten sky I create a vortex made of dreams. This is my return back home. But I truly do not want to leave.

Thoughts gathered on my walk in the woods.. I was typing in key words on my phone so that I can later write about what thoughts came to me while out walking..

It was getting a bit cloudly so I took the creek path home.. But before I was able to hit the path I saw her in the water.. At least what look to be like a woman waring a strange silver suit..

She was slender and seem to be very beautiful.. She held out a small orb in front of her and if by magic it seem to turn into some form of container.. She then scooped up some water and held it over her head.. 3 metal circles then spun around her and lit up very brightly spinning faster and faster with no sound..

A very bright flash then occured and they were all gone.. I suppose I have something to write about now! wow!!!!!!!!

the sky was out of place in this night sky.. it was as if this night was not real.. but it was.. there was a feeling of leaving always.. as if the night was saying goodbye to me every second i was in it.. it was quite enchanting being here.. things were not in their right place.. pictures on the walls were alive.. even the luster of the stars in the sky spoke of flase beautiful magic.. almost as if a child drew them upon the shadowy blanket dark sky..

A lone cloud passes by and takes me with it.. for a moment i am above this night.. i see my old street where i grew up.. i see my brother pulling me in our red wagon.. fireflies gather around us.. the baby pine trees begin to dance in the wind.. the night starts to feel fresh again.. the air taste so good..

i am back to my first home.. i go inside my first room.. and go straight to my old toy box.. the wonders i see.. all of my old toys light up my memories.. the room grows dark and my old night light glows upon me.. once i was afraid of the shadows there.. now i see them and become one with them.. shadows of the soul.. I awake from a dream of my past.. I see clear my memory shell and how it pieces together..

" once you reach that state of peace and balance you will shine forth your light." Sol..

Amid the chaos and darkness running about this end, I found such a peace and balance through despair.. Although I knew it the end I decided in my soul that I would not let this darkness take away all that I love.. They stood behind me and trusted me with their lives.. I knew this in my heart and soul and could feel them holding on through me.. It was at this point the light came from me! So so bright it was, but it did not hurt your eyes at all.. It shined forth like a beam of hope cutting through this darkness and making it bleed light.. And there for a moment I remembered a promise I made to her that I would always be there for them and never let anything happen to them, And for that short short moment my light cast her image.. I can almost see her.. It was then the blast of hope created the new day.. It was then the sun shined down once again.. through you, I am me..

The beginning of this darkness has taken place..
I have learned that this world will be under such a veil for the next 3 years.. We have been preparing for such an event.

We have been talking to eachother in the darkness, we have been feeling for eachother in the darkness.. We still sit at the table and eat together in the darkness..

Voices are heard and conversations continue within the infinite shadow.. We continue to live on despite not having any form of light.. and through it all I have begun to see a beauty in darkness itself..

The beauty is that my dreams are now in darkness.. I hear your laugh, I can feel your hope.. I can see the light coming soon when you speak to me with your words of joy..

When there was light I really could not see how beautiful you truly were.. And now that there is no light I find inside a beauty unmatched by any shine or luster.. Because even in darkness your beautiful..

I run under the fall sun, warm and kind it was, made the dead leaves sparkle with color..

But this is how it begins, The leap, the jump, the opening of an unseen door without color..

Suppose the world and time can be bent by simply thinking without thoughts that are the memory of color..

In doing so I run into the unseen door and begin to see that there is a plain without color..

Where there is no reflection of any sort, no kind of emotion, just the seconds that die as they pass leaving behind no color..

This is the place where one can take back the seconds by the rememberence of color..

Although a mere reflection to our eyes, color is truly the source of where life is given in meaning due to splash that is color..

But today I made the mistake of not remembering what this flower sang to my eyes with its color..

I gave to it the color red when in true remembernce it was blue thus giving it a false color..

I then returned to a chaos where colors were mixed and out of place, where the waters were remembered as yellow instead of deep blue, where the sun was green that shined down on this yellow world simply because I forgot this colorless flower's color..

As I walked into the chamber of dreams the lines on both of my hands lit up.. I then heard a voice..  

" Welcome, please stand here and please open your hands and shine the light above.."

There were stars everywhere.. The light from my hands lit up a constellation..  

After doing so 11 others walk on out from the dakrness and did the same..

Seems to me as if i was the final piece they needed for their star puzzle..

And then at the center of the dream chamber a strange looking being was looking up at the completed star puzzle..  Although its face showed no emotion I knew it was very happy..  I awoke from the dream.. But was it truly a dream?

Second light leaving
Again the dream where I look to the sky and see them..
Dream summer night while I sleep in the winter..
Someone new is with me all the time in these dreams..
They walk outside with me and look to the stars..

At first they can't see what I see..
Its like looking at one star and seeing another to the left of it hidden..
I then point to the area in the sky and yet again there they are..
A fleet of stars leaves together by groups of 5..

They sparkle and shine and boom they are gone..
Then the next 5 come up and repeat this goodbye..
I wonder where they go?
Why are stars are leaving?

This is the second light leaving in my dreams..
Afterwards there are ghoslty sky jellyfish that fill the skies..
They set the new stars in place for us to look at..
New stars where the old ones once shined..

There you are little night-time ghost..
Sit with me..
I'll play you a song tonite..
But only if you sing along ok..
Sing me your story..


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Down­ by the silver creek..
Little ghost cries..
Shadow of Jesus..
With lightfilled eyes..

Strum me your music life warm soul..
Chords and melodies..
A flame of colors for you to hold..
Midnight church bell memories..

Silver creek runs through her..
Sad body left alone in the cold..
Placed there by a lost souless banisher..
Her little night-time ghost I play to and hold..

Ghostly little finger..
Light compass of evil..
Head north holy music player..
To the house of the evil false preacher..
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Our song was over.. I now know why she sings a sad song.. I make my way north to the old church of the preacher.. I play him this song and sing to him the lyrics during his midnight mass.. Heaven awaits little night-time ghost.. Justice will be served..

understand i had to reach into such darkness to vanquish such light and shine of the false angels above this beautiful rapture..

understand i had to call forth a shadow darker then the blackness the stars roll on..

understand i called forth the 2nd shadow, the shadow of a shadow..

it comes from ponds that reflect stars, its cast from false light and false shine..

today under the old sun i perform a requiem for my shadows 2nd shadow..

i am the vocals and my shadow is the violinist.. i sing and he commands the music forth..

we sing to the fallen darkness that made true light shine on through..
we have a requiem for a 2nd shadow..

goodbye my brother of the shade.....................................

My thoughts take me there.dream vessel of the soul. I stand waiting at a shore never before seen by mankind until now. An invitation is given to me through this song I listen to. The tones form a connection, a sort of dream link to my soul. Let me begin to describe this place. The ocean here glows like our planet in someone else's sky. A glowing blue blaze of wonder. I am even more prevlidged to have come on the day of rise and set. As we have one sun this place has two. There will be a rise and setting of these two suns today. At one point both suns level off in the skyline creating a day of 2 suns. The sun dragons then exchange suns. I then close my eyes as I finish this poem.

I misheard this thunder for thunder..
The clap of the sky was not true to the nature ever told by the lightning..
What I was hearing was a sound and wave that I was causing..
A sort of forgotten memory that leaves me and is gained by something higher and more willing to listen..
Something that hears thoughts and steals memories..
The claps of the sky is a memory faded..
Where this overseer takes and bulids upon...
But I can take it back..
With light..
With lightning..
As it strikes back down here on earth..
I take my memory back..
But the trick is..
How to have lightning without thunder........

my black and white........
my soul colors taken away..

dreamless space station..
orbits my empty mind..

her face, her smile..
the splash of her tears..

shadow of the moon..
sad false night moments...

white sheets as curtains...
flow and dance to the music of the cold wind..

white sunshower please bring me color..
wash away this black and white nightmare....

ill connect with your soul again..
bring my color back..

satellite eyes fall into eachother..
sunburst star shower brings my color back.......

Im blind and I still know when I am walking in the sun..
Beautiful darkness keeps me company..
So when I hear her sing I create an image of beautiful darkness that she is..
She is the lady blackness with a voice That I can feel..
The lines in my hands send pulses to my memory as I touch her face..
Pulses of a face so warm with life, I have even felt her tears and caught them and put them into my souless eyes..
Where they stare into nothing, into the blackness I make her..
My princess of shadow, My night face queen, My starless dream , I can feel us walking in the sun..

Tao nebula...
I finally have some leave time..

Its been a long time since I have been here..
I fly on through and head for the pod lookout in my ship..

I already have my bed and lunch ready there..
I open the sun hatches and there it is..

Tao is a nebula that matches your thought waves and patterns..
As I look out the nebula creates my thoughts into pictures..

Its alot like watching your dreams on a screen played back to you..
The nebula paints my thoughts among the stars..

I dream while im awake..
Its so amazing and beautiful...

Anything I think of is acting out before me..
The Tao nebula, where a dream is never far away..

The dreamcatchers were full..
I finally opened them..
I let the dreams run wild..
And share them with you..

Light stain darkness..
Rememberence of shine..
Shadow your smile..
For the light has left its mark..

It was done..
I did it..
I took everything back..
And the images started to float into my mind..
The wind swayed the grass once again..
The plants stood full of life in the soil under the rain..
And the sun shined down on my son once again..

I am sad to know that this will be the last time I will see such beauty..
From afar and up close..
From above and beyond..
But I am content that I am the one who brought such beauty back to a world engulfed by shadow..
The darkness screams at me as my light splinters it away into a shine of oblivion, into a chaos of dancing light..

I will live on prayer now and the rememberence of my son shining in the sun..
Live through them son as they will live through you..
To believe in one is to believe in all..
Even if its your mother u believe in or your brother or sister or simply a friend..
You at least know what it is to believe in something or someone..
That in itself is worth more than anything else..
I leave you this peace...

I follow them from place to place. I watch them build and build.
And when they are done I watch them do their final sweep..
They bring life to the dead dirt filled worlds. Where sand wispers and tries to remember what the water once felt like.

Most times they leave pyramids behind upon their wakes of life they seed into the dead dirt.. from there the pods grow without water as they are the water themselves.. they thrive on the dead forgotten sand..

It takes close to 5 million years for the pods to reach their ocean sizes.. once matured they open up and become the sea.. the remains of such pods are at the bottoms of these vast oceans..

the orange skies slowly shade themselves blue.. the process is quite beautiful.. the waters create storms and start to clense the dead dirt away into the seas.. from there rises the pillars of atmoshere into the orange skies above slowly filling in with dream blue blankets of life..

its at this point the final sweep is done by 2 life lancers.. they fly the new life planet and leave to the stars..

life starts anew..

Inside when closed.. no one knows.. alexanders box.. has 9 rocks.. but alexander knows a trick.. he can burn a flame without a wick.. alexander closes his box.. burn bright shine on my 9 rocks.. cell sun burn within my box.. have a view of the planets that were once my rocks.

I look to the ground and day dream of times better..
I stare into the grass and see the ants working never even looking toward me..
They continue to work and carry on..
I then look out toward the dying day..
The wind kisses my forehead first and passes through and around me..

I have seen it all.. And lost everything to it..
But there is a small flame that burns ever so..
Why it burns and why it keeps this darkness at bay is still a question I try and ask and answer myself..

In the end I suppose, The answer will be made clear to me..
On why this flame burns brightly and never seems to dim despite the chaos and the extinquishing of other flames that once burned beside mine..

I simply carry on.. Shine shadow, shine in darkness that is belief..

Brown deep, dream eyes sweet..
dark iris soul swim deep..
take me into your star..
shine forward and take me far..

pale skin sweet milk dream..
dark hair flows with moonlight gleam..
nightmare goddess sultry touch..
takes my flame with broken trust..

Storm rider rides under clear skies..
Stars smile at the sight of him..
Storm rider looks for the next storm..
Stars fade because he doesnt gaze at them..

it was...................
it was like floating away in all directions..
slowly i left for everywhere..
the grass, the air, the light, the darkness, the dirt, the sky, and the stars..
i was becoming everything beautiful about these things..
i was becoming everything beautiful with you..
it never ended.
i continued to expand beyond my imagination..
to places that life could not reach at the time..
to places beyond dreams..
i felt everyone i knew..
all at once inside this collective memory..
no one is ever truly gone..
i see that now..
even if you didn't believe, you still become a part of this..
a part of me, a part of you, a part of everything....
forever, whenever...

We were but days away of completing this strange object we were buliding for the healer of the Earth..

The Earth was already reborn again..

Its rivers fresh and clear..
Oceans clensed and blue..
Lands rich and alive..
People free of diesese..
The world singing the same song..

At last the creation was complete..
From a mountain we carved out a sort of series of shapes and arcs..
I cannot explain it..
You truly have to see it to believe it..
The healer then walked up one of the arcs and into the center..
The healer of the Earth shine brighter than our sun...
The shapes shadowed around the healer as he shined ever so..
A gate of light seem to open above the stars in the sky..
And there fell a ball of light to the healer..
The healer caught this light and held it in front of it..
The light then shaped itself into another healer..
It was his love..
At this moment I felt what he felt..
We help build a machine a sort of gate to bring his lost love back..
The gate could only be bulit by us for him..
A race had to unite and work together without conflict..
A sort of final expression to a formula to complex for us to understand..
They became colors we had never seen as they held eachother..
The entire mountain machine mankind had bulit for them begin to shine..
It then flashed and vanished all at once..
They are going home..

It was neverending..
People from all over the world worked on what will soon look like a halo in the mountain..
Teams would work off of the spec sheet that Eden 157's cpu provided..
Digging and breaking..
Carving and shaping..
It was good to see mankind work together as such..
Meanwhile the healer of the Earth stirred up the healing storms that swept across the lands..
It seem the harder we worked the harder it worked..
The healer of the Earth then went to the ocean..
A satellite captured an image of a hurricane made up of so many different colors..
The oncoming storm painted the sky with colors as lighting danced across this huge storm burning and cleaning the air..
The thunder sounded different..
It was sort of a tone or a musical note rather than just a normal thunderclap..
The Earth was truly singing..
This is her voice of return...

And so began its journey through this dying planet..
The military assigned teams to follow it everywhere..
for 2 years it walked the Earth..
It would get in lakes, rivers, fields, volcanos, forest, all forms of of land and water..
I was there when it entered Canyon Lake..
It walked in and the whole lake seem to shine in color..
It then walked back out and continued its journey..
After its 2 year journey it returned to Eden 157 and accessed the computer..
Eden 157's computer finally showed us something..
This being wanted us to create a strange object..
It had to be carved out of a mountain from its sheer size..
In return it would restore our earth..
The next thing Eden 157's cpu showed us was that the being wanted to demonstrate something for us..
It then went back outside and looked to the skies..
There was some very strange clouds that no one had ever seen buliding up..
The lightning that would arc across the sky was different colors..
The sky lit up and then a rain fail from its clouds..
The drops would hit the ground and seem to splash a green light..
As the rain fell on me I could feel it tingle my skin..
I was scared at first but then saw something amazing..
The water that ran across my face and hands left my skin feeling tight..
The scar I had on my hand was gone..
The rain itself was healing our bodies as well as the Earth itself..
A project was already underway to create this strange object for the healer of the Earth..

The doors opened slowly..
There was a darkness inside..
Eden 157 then lit up the cargo bay..
Still nothing..
The army then sent in a sentry bot to examine Eden 157..
As the sentry bot rolled up the ramp it stopped and started to scan the air..
The sentry bot then finished and started to return..
They played back what the sentry bot was analyzing..
Then it appeared to us..
The colors of this being were everchaning..
It walked on down the ramp and looked to the sky..
It seem to smile, it seem happy..
It then started to stare down at the ground..
It gathered some dirt in its hand and seem to smell it..
As it smelled the dirt many colors started to fluctuate inside it..
It the put both its hands down into the ground..
And again the colors within it seem to go wild..
It seem to be in sort of a scan mode..
As if it was doing a systems check on the Earth itself..

It was on this day Eden came back to us..
Eden was 200 machines that left earth over 150 years ago.
These machines were to find and gather information on how to restore our dying planet...
One could be seen on course to earth..
It was Eden 157..
It was set to land in South Texas on Monday Oct 10th 2150 a.d..

Oct 10th 2150a.d
The army awaited the return of Eden 157..
And there it fell from the sky..
It looked like a slow comet falling from the heavens..
Eden 157 then landed..
There was a silence among everyone..
Eden 157 went through a check cycle before opening..
2 days later Eden 157's doors had opened..

The land was made of blackness, shade, and shadow..
I spent a good 10 years here..
The overseer was a light winged figure that would shine light forth with every flutter of its wings..
Sometimes I could see its true face..
Its hair was blue and then golden all at once...
It would catch all of these sins that fell from the sky..
Lately there have been storms of them..
The light winged figure would ask me for help at times..
We would turn blackness, shade, and shadow into color, shine, and light..
We created a land, a sort of kingdom.. From darkness we molded into light..
Where a place of no sound now sang music..
I was helping to create heaven out of forgiveness..
I then relised something so very tragic..
I was no longer here..
Or should I say there..
I was gone from them..
the light winged figure was my brother and mother..
it was also God..
as i awoke in the hospital..
torn away from heaven..

i lost my colors to fate..
i lost my colors to sin..
they faded away in one day..
it was as if i lost hope..
lost belief..

this was a feeling like no other..
a sort of sad gray that washes everything away..
a sea of shades..
sad shades and shadows..
to lose belief..

but all at once it can be remembered..
the colors in this plain of gray..
a song heard from the memory of me..
played by you under the gray sun..
i can feel the tones paint me..

its like a chill..
that travels in waves across the body..
where every cell remembers the feeling..
that true feeling of belief..
because you have always done that for me..
you have always believed in me..

at one point i saw your ghost..
it was your soul..
it made me cry for but a moment..
my light brown eyes formed tear mirrors..
and i prayed that you saw your reflection in them..
even if it was just for a moment..
i still love you...

I look at one of these machines today and it sends chills down my body..
I can remember being lost.. I just wondered off as a kid chasing butterflies and fireflies in the deep woods of Alaska..
I was gone for days.. I was parched and so hungry.. My little body could not muster enough strength to scream for help anymore..

I could see and hear animals about.. I was to young to realise that the animals wanted me to eat.. They were just waiting for me to die..

It wasn't until the night came on the 4th day.. My parents called Shineday inc and requested a (Recovery unit) ST-anthony be flown in..

I was falling asleep under some brush and trees.. Not really falling asleep more like crying to sleep.. The I saw these blue eyes glowing over me.. The robot moved the brush very gently and picked me up.. I can remember him being so warm as he held me.. His steps were very silent.. We then stopped and he gave me a small metal box with my drawings on it.. It made me smile! I opened it and there were some pop tarts and water in it.. I ate them up!!! He then took me back to the cabin where my mom ran screaming to me! Even my dad was crying! He went to the (Recovery unit) ST-anthony and thank him over and over..

I am looking at one of these machines now.. I wonder if it was the one who found me that night..

The starseed was found here on earth.... on OCT 7th 1831 it was found in a lake that had dried up due to drought... No one could really tell how long it had been there..

It was like nothing anyone had ever seen.. No form of tool could open it.. No form of energy could destory it..

From what ever was inside it waitied until it was time to be born..

April 5th 1980, a scientist discovered that this starseeds markings where that of where it had been..

The dots represented star constellations.. Orion could be seen on the bottom of the starseed.. This thing has been all over the cosmos.. Seems this is its last stop here on earth..

June 20th 2013. A young boy saw something in the starseed that everyone seemed to have missed.. The dots also shaped a form of code.. If looked at from afar you could see this code to be a strain of D.N.A..

On Oct 7th 2013 a little girl named Salem was born.. Her blood matched the code of the starseed.. Today a drop of her blood will be introduced to the starseed..

Laxius log: 1215889----

This will be year 23 that i have been long adrift from an attack by an unknown enemy: I still have plenty of food and water to last another 23 years.. seems so very long ago that the attack took place: I have tried to repair my engines but to no avail: On this morning however i captured a transmission on my com-staion: the signal seem mixed at first but i was able to clear it: I then heard tones and strange voices: It was very beautiful: The tones created a sort of pattern while the voice would join in from time to time also trying to create a pattern in sync with the tones: From where ever this beautiful signal came from, I am showing that i am but 20 years away from its original orgin: Although adrift, I am still in route toward this signal: I can only wonder what sort of life could make such a beautiful beautiful signal: I do not know what to call it otherwise: But for its beauty in tones i will call it wish-dream..


Oct 7th 1969: Today I brought my son to work. I have worked for NASA for the last 10 years.. It was sort of a boring day until I took him into the research center.. I took him to one of our most powerful telescopes.. He wanted to stay there for hours just looking at the moon and stars.. He asked " Dad do you think there is life out there.?" I then took him to our transmissions building.. And I told him that we could send a signal out to space in hopes someone will hear it.. I told him we could send anything we want.. He decided to send "scarborough fair canticle" He decided on that song because that was his mom's favorite song.. I wish she was still here with us.. He then told me something very beautiful. " Dad maybe mom will hear this in heaven."

i can simply add a shadow to your light..
shell of the soul, solid and is but a vessel..

a chamber and a collection of dreams tell me something about you..
your chamber is made of thoughts and your dreams are a collection of wonders..

so i come back with an emotion..
a relic of some sort of meaning..
bound to love and hate..
guidied by hope and despair..

even the smallest of flames can send the infinite darkness running in all directions..

even if it was just for a moment..
but the darkness has always been there.. and no matter how fast light travels it was there before the light.. it has always been waiting..

So.... All you have to do is keep on shining..............

every one hundread years the great lens passes..
tonite at SR:1 we will get to see the zeal planet..
isn't it beautiful.. look how blue it is..
we know that it has only one moon..
like us it is at a perfect distance from its sun that it may be able to sustain life..
we can only see it for one day during first cycle sunrise..
the great lens passes on through the stars..
we do not know what the great lens is..
but when alligned with our power scobes we are able to see the blue planet so very far away..
the planet zeal..
i would love to visit..

zeal (Earth)

NOTE::
Last night i had a dream that i was able to dream dive..
a great concept as in the dream i was able to dive into the nightmares of others and help them overcome their fears.. and so the dream went like this as best as i can remember it..::)


Through this plain of colors was the dreams of all who were sleeping..
The blue and green colors where a symbol of calm and soothing dreams..

While the red and black were nightmares..
There where also some that were black and red that seem to spirial to no end.. This meant it was a nightmare that the dreamer could not overcome and had to battle every night they went to sleep...

I passed on through this red and black spirial as i fell into a house where there was a young boy scared to death, curled up into a ball, as he shook there on the floor in this corner of the room..

I told him don't be scared anymore.. his eyes lit up as i was a new figure in his endless streaming nightmare.. I took his hand and asked him what is wrong.. He told me that he can never get out of this house and that and evil demon ghost was hurting him.. I then felt this strange pressure inside my body as the ghost was trying to take me over..

With my lucid dream experence i knew i was in control of this demon ghost and creted an amazing shine within myself that threw the demon across the room.. it screamed as it tried again to possess my soul as i shined even brighter from within sending it crashing through the walls of this prison house creating a way out..

The young boy then pulled me outside of the house and screamed " IM FREE!!" thank you so much! many ghost then came out of the house and rushed the boy.. he then created a sun in the sky that burned the demon ghost away.. he looked to me and said thank you again..

I was then back to the plain of colors and saw that the black and red spriral had turned a deep blue color.. the little boy was at peace...

she started with the mind..
only the mind..
i could see her thoughts as she created the spirial..

from within she felt what she created..
but it was only dust and stars..
she stared at if for thousands of years and then it came to her..

with heart she then made the spirial turn..
it moved along with the beat of her heart..
she smiled and all the stars lit up..

with her eyes she saw her creation turn..
simply by feeling her waves of emotion carried the stars on a darkness ocean current.. but it was slowing and then it came to a stop.. she would turn it and turn it for yet another thousand years and then snap it came to her..

with soul she created a big bang in the center creating a soul engine..
the engine powered the spirial as it turned and turned..
she was dazzled to no end as her spirial begin to take shape...

she look to me as her galaxy was created..
i told her "welcome to your creation"
she then became a part of her galaxy, i have not seen her for the past million years, i can only wonder what she is doing there..