We communicated more in silence than we ever did with words
She spoke with her eyes
I conversed via my heart
Right then I realized that this was the start of something special....

A great future doesn't require a great past.

Some days I rise
Somedays I fall
But I try not to give up or lose hope
I fight back and once again stand tall
It's not easy though..at times I feel so helpless and frustrated
But I somehow try and keep myself motivated
At times I suffer
Sometimes I cry
But I don't question why?
I just take each day as it comes
I take the blows
Witness life's various shows
I try and smile..work hard and aim for the sky
May be someday I'll reach that high
I know I won't always succeed
But I try and make sure there is no lack of effort on my part
For I'm okay with failing
But I'm not okay with not trying

I've lost all my hair
I've lost all my teeth
I've lost half of my vision
I've lost my family
I've lost my job
I've lost all my friends
Last month i lost the only companion i had-my dear cat 'Mindy'
I'm stuck in a wheelchair now
The big empty house
It's dark rooms..
..they all haunt me now
..the loneliness just eats me up
All the good memories that i had
Have now become distant dreams
My heart hurts
My soul aches
I cry buckets
And yet week after week
Month after month
Year after year
I keep surviving
I keep fighting
'Coz the only thing i haven't lost is my will to keep on living

We might be separated by miles of space
But everytime i close my eyes, i only see your face
Our time zones are different...the distance is vast
But i'm sure we'll make it through...for our love is meant to last
My room feels empty without you
But your aroma still lingers on
I can feel you all around me
It's like you were never gone
It's been two years
Just a few months more
I can't wait to hold you in my arms again
Without you my heart's been so sore
Be whatever you want to be
You achieving your dreams is all i want to see
I'll always support you in whatever you do
Just keep loving and supporting me too

Every man has a woman inside of him and vice-versa...sometimes it just takes a while to discover this.

Isn't that what people do when they get dumped?...obsess over their exes,retracing the steps of their relationship,trying to decipher the clues that led to the relationship's unraveling.They pine for them.It takes time for them to recover from this jolt and move on.They strategize ways to accidentally run into their exes..or avoid them like the plague.
Either way there's a lot of strategizing involved.

-Megan Kearns

Fear not 'coz you've almost reached your destination;relax and smile... you've conquered and come this far;you've proved  others wrong and done the impossible;you've made urself proud;u've proved that u've still got it.Nobody had given u a chance but you mustered up d courage,dug out ur resources and surprised one and all including urself.What u feel at this point of time is truly indescribable.In other words it's sheer bliss.You never doubted urself.;u never lost hope;u were confident in d face of adversity.You showed dat courage is not 'bout being brave....it's 'bout accepting ur fears and conquering 'em;it's 'bout accepting ur flaws and working on 'em;it's 'bout taking all d negativity around you and turning it into something positive.

You belong to dat elite group of individuals who never gives up and dat is what sets u apart from d majority.You deserve my respect.You inspire me to do greater things,to scale greater heights.You motivate me like no one else does.You fill my heart with this uncontrollable burning desire to succeed.I don't want to be u and yet i want to become someone like u.There is this strange attraction i feel towards u.It's weird and at times feels completely inexplicable.It's not that i love you but....i don't know what it is about you that intrigues me.My list of faults and mistakes is endless but i'm not a hypocrite or a ******.To achieve even half of what u've achieved is quite a mouth-watering prospect and it's certainly a challenge worth accepting.

I don't know who u are.We are not related by blood and neither do we know each other.Yet i feel this strong connection with u.When i look at you; when i listen to u speak,i feel so much at peace.You don't judge me like the others do.The colour of my skin or my physicality doesn't bother u.You're patient with me.You don't just understand me; u feel me.You are the one constant thought dat occupies my mind and i have a feelin' dat you ain't got any intentions of leavin'.

Sometimes it is within the chaos itself where you find the answers....sometimes it takes a turmoil to give you a sense of clarity...sometimes it is amongst the ruins where you find beauty...and all of this baffles you...and you wonder-'how is this even possible?'
Quite often you'll notice that the situations that are adverse or disadvantageous actually give you an insight like never before...'coz they not only reveal to you the reality of people around you...but by the way you handle these situations...they also tell you a lot about yourself.

Be with someone who loves you for what you are
Be with someone who makes you want to be a better person
Be with someone who takes care of you not because it is his duty but because he wants to
Be with someone who fills your soul with positivity
Be with someone who helps you get through the tough times
Be with someone who cheers you up when you are sad
Be with someone who makes you feel confident even in the face of adversity
Be with someone who makes every nerve in your body feel alive
Be with someone who understands you even without you having to say anything
Be with someone with whom you can share anything you want
Be with someone whom you wanna wake up with
Be with someone who makes you feel important
And most importantly be with someone who never gives up on you

In life you will come across these dark days
But don't be scared..
It is just a passing phase
It will test your resolve
In a solution of self-doubts it will try to make you dissolve
You gotta be strong
And prove your problems wrong
These dark days will make you wanna lose hope
But you've got to hang on to the rope
..of faith,hope and belief
'Coz that is what will help you get through that challenging time
For losing these three attributes and giving up is truly a crime
Remember after winter..there's always spring
So don't let any obstacle stop you...
...fight it out and keep doing your thing

''If someone really wants you, nothing will keep them away, but if they don't want you, nothing will make them stay!''

It's basic human nature
We crave for things we can't have
We desire for things that we know will destroy us
And yet we do everything we can to try and obtain those things
This particular trait of humans has always baffled me
This insatiable appetite for self-destruction
May be we seem to derive some sort of pleasure from this
Or may be it's like an addiction
And we can't just can't seem to help it
For instance consider this--
You know you can't trust someone
You know that the person will cheat on you at every opportunity
He has done that in the past
And yet you keep holding on to him
'Coz a part of your heart keeps hoping that he will love you and stay loyal to you
Or it could be another case
You both know the relationship isn't going anywhere
You've both made efforts and it still hasn't worked out
And yet you keep dragging it
Hoping that things will change
Only that they never do

Thank you Almighty for providing us with aunts and grandmas....life would be so very incomplete without them.

I personally can't imagine my life without them.I wouldn't be even half of the person i am today without their undying love,support and encouragement.They are who made my childhood enjoyable.My nights wouldn't end without their stories and my tongue wouldn't feel good without tasting their food.

A big thank you to both my maternal aunt and maternal grandma.I've had some of the best memories of my life at my aunt's and grandma's place.They along with my mom are the holy trinity of my life.Whatever little goodness i have in my heart is because of them.I am nothing without them.I consider myself very lucky to have such wonderful persons in my life.They along with my mom have not just had a positive influence upon me...they've shaped me into the person i'm today.

I have an issue with history..why does it only remember the first man and why does it celebrate only the victors? ...the men who followed the first man worked equally hard and the defeated deserve some respect as well.

When forming an opinion about a person, it is important that you take your time...people are seldom what they seem..no one reveals their true self in the beginning...it is only with the passage of time that you get to see a person's real colour.

I never celebrate my birthday
Personally i never really got the concept of birthdays
Dressing up in good clothes
Cutting a cake
Having a party
Going out with friends
And celebrating a year of being alive
It all just feels a bit weird to me

Each year when the day arrives,i just tell myself-"Congratulations...you've just made it to another year...you've had your highs and your lows...you've done some good things and some not so good things...try and improve yourself in every aspect and make the next year even better."

Love means complete acceptance of a person....this means accepting both the goodness as well as the bad qualities of that person...these two qualities make up a person and are inseparable..you can't love the goodness and absolutely hate the bad part...then that can't be love...love doesn't have any terms or conditions.

I tried
I failed

I tried again
I failed again

I stopped trying
I have definitely failed

There is no shame in failing as there is in not trying.When you are going through a constant phase of failure..people around you(sometimes even your near and dear ones) will tell you to quit...don't listen to them...work towards what you want to achieve and no matter how long it takes... **Never Quit

I sometimes wonder as to what will i be remembered for?
What do i wish to be remembered for?(Mostly good things...how selfish of me!)
Will i actually ever be remembered by anyone?(i hope by a few)
Is it really that important that someone remembers me?(Hard to answer this)
Questions like these often travel through my mind
Say for instance if someone were to remember me....
I wonder how he would do that?
Would i be remembered as a sincere person?
As a decent son?
As a good friend?
Or a decent anything?
Or may be someone who identified himself more with a pen and paper rather than speaking?
Or may be someone who dreamed a lot?
Someone who bore a lot of stuff silently?
Someone who never could make friends as such 'coz he was always very quite?
I wonder how my memories would make people feel?
Would they evoke happiness?
Or may be pride?
Or would they generate sadness?
Or sympathy?
Or disappointment?
I'm no saint
I have commited my share of sins in this world
So i don't crave to be remembered as a very good person or some role model
No...i don't deserve that tag
I guess i would mostly want to be remembered as someone who was the best he could be(or at least tried) and who tried to motivate others in whatever way he could
The one thing i don't want to be ever remembered as is a quitter(i have never been one and i hope it stays that way till my death)
That would definitely put my dead soul to shame
No way can i handle that
So....Here's to the memories i have created and i hope to keep creating till my last breath(and hopefully some of them will be worth remembering.)

Why we as a couple didn't work?..will always remain to me a bit of a mystery
We explored anatomy
We understood each other's psyche
But never could build no chemistry
No wonder now we are history
I thought we were perhaps meant for each other
Destined to be together
I guess destiny didn't see us that way
After a year or so
We have gone our separate ways
Our paths don't cross that much now
But each and everytime they do...
...it hurts
'Coz i keep pondering over what could've been
You know...sometimes i wish that i was the director of my life and could've written each and every scene
**** it!...at times life is just so mean

My heart was a barren land
Devoid of any nourishment
Untouched by love
Thirsty for a healing touch
It had withered away
It was in a really bad state
I had lost all hope
To be honest i had completely given up
Then you came
And along with you came the rain
And my heart was changed forever
Flowers started blossoming on a land where earlier nothing grew
The land was painted with green
The birds sang
The heavens rejoiced
It was a miracle
And now after so many years of your residing it
Love thrives in it
My heart is now full of life
A hustling and bustling city of positivity
I have never been more happier

Sometimes all it takes is a special someone to come into your life and enrich it like never before.

You've stolen my heart
You've stolen my peace of mind
You've taken over thoughts
You've embedded your existence deep into my soul
Your love has painted its vibrant colours all over the canvas of my heart
The taste of your lips has merged with mine
And created a magical flavour
Your intoxicating fragrance has spread its roots all over my senses
Your charm has made its way to every nerve in my body
The softness of your skin has registered itself with every pore in my skin
Your sweet voice has spread itself to every nerve in my ears
Your image keeps lingering in my mind all the time
You've become a habit now
A way of life
A daily routine
My eyes only want to see you
My skin only wants to feel you
My ears only want to hear you
My lips only want to taste you
My heart only beats for you
You reside within me now
I can feel you in every inch of my body,mind and soul
Our existences have now truly interwined
....Till death do us part

There's something so very liberating and soul-satisfying about redemption
A chance to make ammends
A chance to eliminate the ghosts of the past
Life doesn't give you a lot of those
So whenever you get one
Make full use of it

My motto in life is pretty simple...if i can't put a smile on someone's face..then i'll try and make sure that i'm not the reason for someone's tears...'coz the guilt would be too much for me to take and i don't want to go to my grave carrying that guilt.

If you can't make me a part of your life
Then please make me a part of your daily prayers
At least that way i'll have the consolation
That you think of me everyday

Although i had just met her
But from the moment i saw her
And later when i interacted with her
I knew i'd never meet anyone like her ever again
She was one of a kind...
...full of life
....a positive attitude towards life
....very helpful and kind in nature
...always with a smile on her face
....and mentally very strong
She didn't just capture my eyes,heart and mind
She took over my soul
With her i was having the best time of my life
For the first time i had actually met this guy named 'happiness'
It was all going well
And then one fine day
She just vanished
Left without a trace
I looked for her in every single place i could
But i just never saw her again
She left such a strong impression upon me that i don't think i'll ever forget her
And till this very day she resides in every part of my existence
I miss her really bad
She taught me to live life in the real sense
Life doesn't feel right without her
I wish she'd come back to me
Without her my heart feels like this huge vacant space of nothingness
There is such a big hole in my soul
I don't feel like living
But i don't wish to die without seeing her again

I don't want to be someone's carnal need
I long to be someone's soul desire
Someone who loves and accepts every bit of me
And sets my soul on fire
Someone who genuinely cares for me
And wants to be with me
Someone who is willing to see things
The way i see
Someone who makes an effort to listen to me and understand me
Someone who makes me forget my troubles
Someone who makes me feel like i matter
Someone who is willing to walk with me till the end of time
And stand by through every thick and thin
I don't know if i ever will find such a person
But i hope to someday

The lights have gone out
Darkness has descended
It's pouring outside
The shrieks of lightning can be heard every now and then
We both are drenched
Our clothes are off
We lay down on the bed
Our naked bodies viewing each other
I wrap us in sheets
I can't help staring at you
You look so seductive
We start kissing
At first slowly
And then fiercely like untamed beasts
Lips biting
Tongue in
Tongue out
I hold you tightly in my arms
And start exploring you
Your neck
Your collarbone
Your *******
Your tummy
Your back
Your jewel
Your thighs
Your feet
I don't leave an inch
Your smooth porcelain like skin
Your intoxicating smell
Is driving me nuts
My arousal is going out of control
I then start to enter you
I begin with a slow pace
And then as the decibel of your moans increase
I start to ****** your pleasure walls with greater ferocity
And when it finally ends
I love the look of satisfaction on your face
And as the moonlight shines upon our naked sweaty bodies
I say to myself-
'Moments like these are pure magic
And i want to live these moments with you every single day of my life
Who needs those **** electric lights?
The moonlight is enough to shine light upon our lives'

Your love is like the sun
It scorches me in the summers
But it's an absolute lifesaver during the winters
It's demanding, challenging, at times kinda' rude and yet it's also kind, compassionate, enriching and full of warmth

Unlearning something you have learnt or detaching yourself from something or some belief you have grown up with is one of the most challenging things in life. It takes both time and effort and a tremendous amount of willpower as well.

Never shut out hope from your life...'coz when you shut out hope you basically shut out life.. Life is hope and hope is life.. They are interdependent...they need each other...one can't exist without the other.

Anger is an emotion which is natural and perhaps sometimes necessary but if unchecked it can cause irrepairable damage to your soul..you need to know as to when to display it and when to curb it.

When you want to be with somebody even in your dreams
Know that your heart is no longer just yours
It has become a captive to the charms of someone special
Wake up and open your eyes
You've been bitten by the love bug!
It's an amazing feeling isn't it?
A little confusing at first
It takes you a little time to realize what's going on
You meet and interact with someone and after a while a part of your brain and heart keeps telling you that you want to meet this person again
Whenever you see or talk to this person..
..you feel different
..it's a feeling you feel only when being with this person
..your heart starts singing a tune you've never heard before
..you just feel super good being around that person
..you heart blushes at the mere thought of that person
..your mind always wanders to the thought of that person
You don't plan for this to happen
It just happens.....
And once it does
You just start viewing life from a different perspective alltogether
And what an awesome feeling it is when that love is reciprocated!

Love just has this incredible power to uplift your spirit and arouse your soul
It beautifies your heart and soothes your senses
It adds meaning to your life
Love...an emotion which makes our life in this harsh world somewhat liveable

In my own way...
...i love
...i despair
...i succeed
...i fail
...i fight
...i crave
...i sin
...i suffer
...i admire
...i despise
...i feel
And I celebrate a hopeless and boring life...
...i ponder about a life not lived
...dreams not fulfilled
...hopes broken
...opportunities not taken
I could have done so much better
But I just couldn't do it
I'm alive now and may not be in the very next moment
And if I don't witness the next sunrise
I will still celebrate my somewhat unsuccessful existence
And I will always be grateful for all the things I've gotten in my life...
...Maybe I was a misfit or simply misunderstood
...But God knows I tried...
...and in the end that's all that matters

Silence is golden
But not when you're in love
If you love someone express it to that person
If you're having some issues with your lover,speak to him or her and try and resolve it
Keeping your feelings of love for someone
Or your issues with your lover
Suppressed within you
Won't do you any good
It will only give you a sense of regret
So express yourself
Even if your proposal of love is rejected
Or your issues with your lover don't get resolved
Then so be it
At least you will be clear to yourself
You will have the mental satisfaction that you tried

The desert hadn't witnessed rain for ages
The camels,the bedouins,every grain of sand
...they no longer hoped for any miracle
However there was something different about today
As i was making my way across the vast dunes of sand
I could feel a certain amount of excitement in the air
I could see the skies were bringing their 'A' game on
Dark and black...
...that's the look they had
It seemed as if after ages the skies had finally woken up
And decided that today wasn't going to be just another day in the desert
Today was going to be different
Today was going to be special
Then i saw the lightning
This was followed by shrieks of thunder
And finally the skies poured their heart out
And as the first drop kissed the desert
I could feel every single grain of sand dancing with joy
The desert hadn't tasted such happiness for many years
Today i had become a part of something special
Prior to this experience i had never believed in miracles
Today as i experienced the most magnificent miracle ever
I couldn't help but think to myself-
'Sometimes miracles do occur.'

When i think about you
My thoughts seem to have a proper sense of purpose and direction
They feel much more organized and beautiful
Rest of the times they just seem scattered all around
You had once asked me as to what i like about you
It's hard to pinpoint what i like about you in particular
Truth be told...
...it's a little bit of everything
I love your child-like smile
Those beautiful deep blue eyes..
..almost like the sea
I love your smell..
..it's intoxicating
I love your sweet voice
I like tasting your lips
I love holding you in my arms
I love the things you say to cheer me up when i feel low
I love how you motivate me to keep improving myself as a person
I love how you make me smile just with your illuminating presence
I love your long locks
I like playing with them
Running my fingers through them
I love your sense of calmness
I love your incredible mental strength
I love your demeanour..
..so relaxed,so quiet and yet expressive
And above all i enjoy our companionship
You're a blessing in my life
And i thoroughly and sincerely cherish you
Thank you for being a part of my existence
You provide it with a significant meaning

The heart is somewhat like a sunflower...when it receives warmth it flourishes...in it's absence it withers away.

Trust,commitment and communication are the three pillars of a relationship.

Trust is like paper..once crumpled it can never be perfect again.So never break it.It's very hard for a relationship to sustain itself once trust issues start creeping in.
Commitment is crucial.It is important that you are committed to the relationship and from time to time keep showing this to your partner.
Communication is often undervalued.It is of paramount importance and lack of it is often one of the major reasons for relationships falling out.Whenever you have an issue or there is something that is bothering you..talk it out with your partner..don't keep it concealed within you..he should know what you feel about him and the relationship.

It's the beginning of summer
And with it the beginning of many new memories and experiences
Winter has had its share of those
But they are dead and buried now
Some were beautiful...
Some grotesque....
Spring was pretty quiet and lowkey
I'm hoping monsoon really gets the ball rolling...
Last year a bit of a lull as compared to the year before..
I'm hoping this year(if I can make it till the end)..gives me a surplus..
Perhaps a change of relationship status
Or may be a promotion at work
Or it could be good health
Or just freaking peace of mind... That'll do just fine...

No matter how many times the waves crash against the shore
They're never quite satisfied..
...they want more
They never take a break
Always on the move
Both with the sun and the moon
They really do groove
Sometimes i imagine myself to be that wave
For ages now I have been crashing against the rocks and the sand
I don't know what exactly i'm looking for
I just keep flowing
I just keep moving
Perhaps i'm trying to find a purpose for my life
A meaning
A sense of direction
But after many a to and fro journeys from the sea to the shore
I've realized that it's a futile exercise
So now i've adopted the stance of a lake
I just lay still and let life take its own course
I don't have no big goals no more
I just have one simple goal...
...i want to be happy
...i want to be free
...free from all expectations
...free from all connections
...free from my ego
...free from my anger
...i want to be closer to my inner-self
...Frankly i'm exhausted
...my soul is looking for some elusive moments of rest
...i'm dying for a healing touch
...i just want to close my eyes and go into a deep sleep
...could someone just stroke my hair and sing me a lullaby please?
...of late i'm really missing my infant years
...those were the best times man
...i would just rest my head on my mother's lap and not care about nothing else

I was earlier a non-believer
And then she came into my life
And transformed me into a whole-hearted lover
Maybe i couldn't resist her charms
But boy she makes my soul feel so ecstatic whenever i'm with her
It's hard not to be blown away by her incredible presence
My heart feels so very lonely in her absence
And then when we meet again
It's like getting to know her all over again
She is one of a kind
And she is the one who rules over my heart and mind
I never thought i'd ever find love
Perhaps this was an arrangement made by the heavens above!

While you have no control over the quantity of your life
The quality of your life is in your hands

It's just like yesterday
The dark clouds are hovering
But the rains just don't arrive
It's been like this for many days now
The rains it seems have forgotten about my village
They don't remember me no more
Earlier they'd pay me a visit regularly
Falling with such magnificence and grace
Creating a harmony so beautiful
So surreal
So inspiring
They'd meet the rivers and ponds
Play with the wind
Caress the grass
Fill the trees with joy
Fill the birds with such energy
Kiss the earth with such incredible passion
They'd fall on my terrace with such vigour
I'd bathe in it
I'd dance in it
I'd taste every bit of it's glory
It was such a soul satisfier
They'd fall on my window panes...
...writing messages of love and hope
...messages of faith and belief
They'd travel many a miles just to come and meet me
Alas!...they don't come here anymore
It's all a thing of the past now
And i just can't seem to fathom this
How could it make me a stranger in an instant???
My village is burning
My soul is yearning
Each and everyday i'm praying
Dear rain...please pay my village a visit
It needs you
I need you
You mean everything to me
I need to feel you on my skin
I need to be touched by you
My soul is but a barren land without you
So please come and meet me

Lost in the glitz and glamour of life
I often crave for the simplicity and serenity of death
At times life gets so unbearable
And i wish i was struck by amnesia
And this was all a fading memory
The pain refuses to subside
The chaos of life just gets to me
The burden of expectations is tightening it's noose around my neck
And each and every day i can feel myself falling into an abyss of despair
All my dreams have lost their way
My lover has long gone away
I'm lost
I'm confused
No one cares about me
Hope seems to have deserted me
My life is nothing more than a forced mechanical process now
And so everyday i crave for death
I've been begging him to take me in his world
I've been requesting him to give me just that one hug
And i'm pretty sure that one of these days he will answer in the affirmative
And end my pain once and for all

I can see myself dying
But that's not the sad part
The scary part is that i don't see anyone beside my death-bed during my final moments
I don't see anyone missing me
Remembering me
Or even turning up at my burial...
...which makes me ask myself
Who was i living for so many years?
Why was i living?
How did i survive for so many years?
What was the purpose of my existence?
Did i actually ever live?
Who am i?
What is my identity?
What have i done?
I'm trying real hard to find an answer to all of these powerful questions
But all i'm coming up with is a big blank
And slowly but surely i'm learning about the non-existence of my existence
I must confess that to me this is quite a rude reminder of my insipid life
I had such high hopes from life
Where did all those fancy and delightful dreams disappear?
Those so-called friends,well-wishers and lovers..where are they?
So all this while the carrot that was dangling in front of me..never actually existed
This is really hard to take
Life...you are so unfair
What did i ever do to **** you off?

You start with something small
Something pure
Something promising
You have zero expectations
You're not sure how far you'll go
All you have is a flame of hope in your heart
And a burning desire to succeed
You give it your all
You leave no stone unturned
You keep working every single day
You endure every hardship with a strong heart
And then when you finally get your first taste of success
It just feels so incredible
Gradually this thing that you started grows into something big
Something beautiful
Something that exceeds all your expectations
At that moment life just feels so surreal
You ask yourself-
'Is this for real?'
'Is this actually happening to me?'
It's hard to put in words what you feel at that point of time
A feeling of elation
A feeling of pride
A feeling of satisfaction
A sense of achievement
Your dreams have finally turned into reality!!!
It took a while
But it was worth the wait wasn't it?...
...i guess all good things take time

Don't waste your time trying to win over someone's approval or love who's not worth it.A person who hardly cares about you...his opinion about you shouldn't matter to you...what's important here is what you think of yourself and whether you love yourself or not.