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Sk Abdul Aziz Jun 2015
My mind is a prisoner to a heart out of control
You can execute me but u can’t **** my soul
If loving u is a crime –I’m happy to commit it everyday
My feelings for u won’t change whether u choose to leave or stay
Ever since I met u,no one else is worth thinkin’ about
All I wanna do is just scream and shout
You came along and spoke so sweetly
It just changed everything….u took my heart completely.
Since I’ve been bitten by ur love bug
My blood tastes like some kinda’ intoxicating drug
I don’t know what the future holds in store for us
The path of love is ruthless and dangerous
At times it’s frustrating…u feel anger and disgust
Am not a big fan of luck……my line is “in ourselves  we trust”
I have never met anyone like u…….
And that is the reason I like u
The more people I meet, I realize dat I want to be with u even more
Man,I’m goin’ crazy…My brain’s  takin’ a battering….it’s gettin’ sore.
I wish u’d  fight with me till my dying day
Just don’t let me get away
Coz’ I can’t figure out what’s wrong with me
May be this is d way things r supposed to be
I just need to talk to u on the phone
U  are the only one who transports me to my peace zone.
Beneath your hair lies my paradise of thoughts
I'm only half a body without ur embrace
Your eyes are deep enough for me to want to swim in them
Your luscious lips are reason enough for me to keep staring at you
There's something about u that I can't resist
When I look into ur eyes they say to me that....Purity still exists
For me u r d only treasure dats valuable
Wish u’d feel d same……How I wish!!!
Jun 2015 · 1.1k
Deathwish
Sk Abdul Aziz Jun 2015
I was a loner when i was born
I will be a loner when i'm gone
The good,the bad and the ugly....the highs and lows of life....
....i've seen it all
There were times when i wished i were dead
And then there were times when i had a ball
I've never had no expectations...coz whenever i've had one i've lost it all
Isolation's been my best friend
One misery in my life followed by another...that's been the trend
I once looked at the stars..
...How they seemed to shine so bright!!!...
....It's like they were making love to the universe
Out in the dark....in the open sky
Some in a cluster...
While some spread so very far
As far as my sight went..right up to the distant horizon
.....Beautiful assemblage of lights
Just looking at them made me high...
I guess we r all looking for that one particular face(the star of our life)..somewhere out among the stars.
Alas!!!... i don't have this luxury with me
SSHHH!!!!.........can you hear it??....
.....The serene silence of Death
..the bitter taste...the elixir that frees you from the chaos and confusion of life
I sometimes want it so bad....
Truth and falsity....hope and regret...they all find peace in death
As my body grows old with the advent of time
And my soul is but aching...
Life has reduced me to a caricature
...All i wish for is to go to that place of eternal sleep
...and for Death to engulf me in it's fury-filled grasp.
Jun 2015 · 519
In search of myself
Sk Abdul Aziz Jun 2015
I'm a dreamer......I dream the unreal
Reality for me is quite surreal
I am not pragmatic
Just at times a bit sarcastic
Hatred is annoying
Love is pacifying
Would be suffice.....
.....to say dat I value sacrifice
At times feel fed up of livin' in this domain of enchantment
Would like to run away and live in solitary confinement
At times am paranoid by hustle and bustle of the city
The condition of the village folks fills my heart with pity
The everyday routine of life is just so mundane
The 11 to 6 stuff feels kinda' insane......
Wanna escape from life just like an escapist
Fear is something we can't run from.....sooner or later we gotta face it
I ain't gonna appear in the books of history
Might as well vanish off the planet like a mystery
Have I lost my clarity of thoughts?
Life seems blank....can't seem to connect the dots
I'm not a bad guy.....just at times suffer fom frustration
Need a shoulder to rest my head....just need some motivation
I just wanna be heard.....don't need my name up in lights
Am a calm guy........never really get into fights
I feel as if i'm stuck in a tricky maze
Gotta clear my mind....seems to in a state of haze
At times i'm confused and dazed
The beauty of girls just leaves me amazed
I rap about love......rap about hate....
You can't manipulate me.....can't use me as a bait....
Superstition is nothin' more than a fallacy
Loyalty nowadays is quite a rarity
The path to glory is always filled with resistance
In the end it's the experience dat matters and not the journey's distance
I used to have an idea of where I stand
But now the idea's slipped right out of my hands
I don't who I am and where i'm going
The current of life is guiding my boat....i'm simply rowing
I'm done with bein' a ***** and sheddin' tears.....
It's time to be brave and conquer my fears
Gotta re-ignite my spirit....gotta keep the fire burnin'
No more lookin' back....no more turnin'
I need some time.....need some space......
Can't live no more within this crazy human race...
Wanna embark upon a path of rediscovery
Wanna improve my life and dispel off my misery
At times the thought of isolation scares me....
It strips me off my sense of morals and bares me
But when I give it a deep thought I realize...."Isolation's been my inspiration."
I gotta leave...gotta go....
There's nothin' here for me no more....
I gotta be free.......I gotta be...
.....Somewhere that I can just be me.
Jun 2015 · 271
Matters of the heart
Sk Abdul Aziz Jun 2015
She waited with bated breath that night
Stood at the window with a candle in her hand
Hoping that today would be different…..
For a change he would notice her

He did not come that night,
He said he was caught in work.
Came early next morning,
But soon left without a word

She stood again at the window,again another night
With a ray of hope in her heart
He came and did not speak a word
Left early next morning

And still here she was,waiting on another night
Now with a sense of pain and frustration in her heart
Hoping against hope for a different reaction from him
He didn’t come home that night……..

She didn’t expect him the following night
He came home early
She did not speak a word
He was confused and upset
Asked her d reason for her silence
She merely said….”these r matters of the heart which r beyond ur powers of understanding.”

And yet again here she was waiting on another night
With an uncontrollable burning passion in her heart..
...And a rage that threatened to consume her
He did come home that night
And gave in to her wild ecstasy
Left early next morning……without saying a word.
Jun 2015 · 335
Freeflow
Sk Abdul Aziz Jun 2015
Floating images
A submerged memory
Constrained thoughts
Emotions running deep
A secret exposed
A kiss shared with that someone special
Planning vengeance
Seeking love
The first drop of rain falling upon ur skin....trickling down ur body....almost teasing u
The powerful voice of an opera singer
The bitter taste of hatred
The sweetness of sympathy
A clear conscience
A feeling of guilt
Feeling ashamed
Feeling proud
The fight left within u when ur down and out
Ur aging physicality
Ur aching soul
The first gift u ever received
The first scolding u ever got
Ur ultimated moment of glory
Cracks in ur armour
Signs of desperation
Learning to accept rejection
Taking responsibility
Taking ur issues head on
Feeling proud of ur life
Knowing ur limitations
Fighting for ur rights
Buckling down under pressure
Creating ur own identity among a crowd of over 7 billion
Fading away into darkness
Shining like a bright star
Smiling away at ur problems
Shedding tears of joy
Cherishing those fantastic memories
Deleting those awful ones
Living ur dreams
Sacrificing ur hopes
Falling to pieces
Rising like a phoenix from the ashes
Partying all night
Coming home sober
Fighting till the very end
Quitting at the first sign of failure
From being a talker to a doer
From being a listener to a speaker
From an ordinary citizen to a leader
From a lover to a husband
From a husband to a father
Learning to give
Having an argument
Trying to reconcile the next day
Taking the credit for ur success
Being brave enough to admit ur mistakes and take responsibility for ur failures
A day to remember
A day to forget
Keep calm and combat the problems
Jun 2015 · 321
Thoughts Let Loose
Sk Abdul Aziz Jun 2015
Hope rises like a bubble from a bubble-bath
Torture feels like hell....feels like Almighty's wrath
Memories fade away like d winter leaves
And the saddest part is dat d bitter ones r hard to eliminate from d mind
While d fond ones seem to last short.....
At times d good things in life seem like a mirage
They just keep on deceiving us.......
Love is so beautiful;makes u feel so very connected
Hatred feels like a deadly virus dat seems to take over u...if u allow it....
Life seems so precious....yet it's so momentary
Every breath u take feels so relieving....and u say to urself---"Thank u GOD.I've just made it to d next day."
Death feels so relaxing.....kinda' seems to rescue u from all ur troubles....
The sight of moving clouds feel like d most amazing spectacle
The meowing of a cat sounds like sweet music to d ears
The touch of a woman makes d heart beat faster
Expectations feel like hot-air balloons.....they just keep on rising....
Music seems to relax ur mind ......
At times i feel like i'm tryin' to swim in dis huge ocean called life.......
I'm strugglin'....almost feel like i'm about to drown...
But i don't give up...i don't quit....i keep on fightin'......
We try to refrain from sinning....but more often than not give in to temptation.....
We feel sad....we feel upset....
We feel we deserve more from our lives....than what we get......
Friendship is one of the greatest gifts dat life offers us
While Loneliness is the worst enemy it gives us
Courage lies not in being brave
But in conquering your greatest fears
The voice of a woman is like sweet honey
Her smile can light up a stadium
Beneath her lovely hair lies my paradise of thoughts
She is special........u don't need to be a nerd to figure dat out....
At times my thoughts seem to get so very constipated.....
It's like my whole brain is blocked.....thoughts refuse to enter in it....
Yet I write......
I write crap....I scribble....
Just d sight of my pen movin' across d page from left to right provides me with a certain level of assurance 'bout myself...........
Then slowly and gradually d words start to flow.....
At first a bit slow and unsure....just like a little kid's first steps......
Then steady like a teenager.....
And finally as confident as a man......
Jun 2015 · 279
Messed-up thoughts
Sk Abdul Aziz Jun 2015
My mind's flooded with thoughts
My heart's racing at the rate of knots
The sub-conscious is bombarded by a barrage of tricky questions
Memories of the past come and haunt me every now and then
I don't know where to end and where to begin
People change like the seasons
Though I couldn't ever quite figure out the reasons
Love nowadays is pretty akin to money
Comes and goes at every alternate moment
Anger for me is momentary......
I usually keep it dormant
I don't intend to be a role model
I can never be one
I never quite enjoyed the winters
Always like the sun
Girls r special.....they seem to exude serenity and innocence
We boys can be handsome but they r beautiful in the true sense
Fame's good....fame's crazy
U let it get the better of you and u stop seeing clearly....everything seems hazy
Love's beautiful.....takes u in a different zone.....
....You're in a world which is completely ur own
Temptation's a necessity.....to some extent unavoidable
Hatred is a harsh reality......it's inconsolable
I wonder if we ever reveal our true side
It's like we mask our emotions and tend to hide
How often do u breathe the name of ur saviour in ur hour of distress?
How patient r u during moments of stress?
When the going gets tough and the path to success seems rough......
.........Have u ever thought of giving up?
We live in an age of media hype
The girls just seem to ignore me....tell me..."I ain't their type."
Am tired of livin' in isolation
My love wherever u r....just come to me.....
Am tired of writin poems and love songs....
I ain't a saint....but ain't a criminal either......have done more rights than wrongs......
......or am at least tryin'.....
I was never an obnoxious guy.....
To be good and humble...is somethin' i try.....
.......to do every single day of my ilfe.....
Nothin substantial in life comes easy.....
U gotta struggle....gotta strive...
And then with patience u shall survive.....
I wanna embark on a long journey...
Wanna dive into the depths of life....
Sk Abdul Aziz Jun 2015
At first the clouds just went by....
....The sound of thunder punctuated the eerie silence..
...But nothing so far...
...False Alarm i thought
And then one group just exploded
Yeah....It's pouring all right
Sitting near the closed window pane..sipping the cup of tea
My mind has wandered off to some distant memories
Memories which i cherish and detest as well.......memories of....
.....You dazzled me and captured my heart
What are you??...An illusion, a reality or just a pleasant projection of my imagination??
Your tears shine like diamonds
Your smile lights up the sky
Who are u..o, significant one??
Why do you bother about an insignificant creature like me??
Through the depths of ur eyes i've seen the days gone by..the good,the bad and the ugly
You mock me and yet u inspire me
You provide me with both pleasure and pain
You read me like an open book
And yet i barely know you
You are one bitter-sweet piece of history
And quite a conundrum u were!!!
My heart is now but an unfurnished room...weeping like fool over an unfulfilled love
Now you see...i've nowhere to go...
Got nothin' save for that poor empty heart
I don't wish to be strangled by life no more
So please come and take me away to the promised land of eternal death
I don't wish to suffer no more....
....Just promise me that you will be there to watch me go through my final pain
Sk Abdul Aziz Jun 2015
Often in my sleep i ponder
Where does my restless mind wander?
I'm walking through the timeline of my life
It's just me alone….the emptiness seems to cut like a knife
I tell myself--'look how far you've come'
No...don't stop..you've got to keep going..no matter how much might it feel  cumbersome
And after you've walked a while...take a moment
Reflect upon ur mistakes,repent and then for some time become dormant
Wake up....the light's on...it's on you
You will be tested...be brave,be true
Often the zephyr of sadness has caused me to sob and whine
No more of that...It's now time for some sunshine
The days feel like years...and a year feels like a millennium
It's a lone battle i'm fighting...the only warrior in the colosseum
My morals and principles is all that I have left with me
Wide empty spaces and a bit of scattered hope is all I see
I see no beginning…there seems to be no end..just an infinite path
I’m no connoisseur of life…I’m just a struggler like you…
Fighting through the obstacles…surging from underneath the vast ocean…..
…..trying desperately to reach the surface and breathe the essence of life
The more i go upwards the more I seem to be getting a grasp of life and its purpose
Perhaps this is how it is meant to be….

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