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Oct 2015 · 1.2k
Meeting myself
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
I once sat on a paperboat and travelled back to my childhood
Along the way i saw so many memories playing out on big screens
I also met myself there
And to be honest i couldn't recognize him...
...shy,timid and innocent
This person seemed like a complete stranger to me
I was completely taken aback
He greeted me by saying hello
I greeted him back
He then asked me as to how i was doing
I replied that i was doing just fine
Then he just stared at me and said-"look at you...all grown up and not naive no more.You've lost your innocence...haven't you?..You've been corrupted."
I then asked him if he ever felt like visiting me
And he replied strongly-"hell no...i'm havin' the best time of my life...why would i wanna visit you?"
I then asked him-"but don't you wanna see how your future looks like?"
"Nope" he replied
"I just take care of the present so that i can create a memorable past"
I returned back
His words stuck like glue to my brain
I realized that if i handle with care the present the future will sort itself out
Oct 2015 · 248
The path of love
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
When in love be prepared to go through hell
'Coz it is through the challenging path of hell that you will have to make your way to heaven
It's not gonna be easy
It never is
You will need loads of patience..
..and an unlimited reserve of willpower
There will be times when you will have self-doubts
There will times when your faith will be shaken
The more closer you reach the more rougher the tides will get
But you gotta be strong
You gotta weather the storm
You have to fight out
You have to be prepared to put your hands into the flame
You have to give yourself a chance
And then if you finally make it you will have truly achieved something major in your life
I'm not saying that you'll come out of it totally unscathed
But even if you can make it out of hell with some minor injuries..then that too would be quite somethig
After all love is something worth taking a few blows for
Oct 2015 · 236
War
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
War
There was chaos and destruction all around
People running around and scampering for cover
The sound of bombs puncuated the air
This was followed by the painful sound of tears
Bodies here
Bodies there
Grief and sorrow everywhere
Families destroyed,torn and tattered
Among the debris and rubble a family somehow survived
The little boy was bleeding red
The little boy was feeling scared
He asked his mother-"mom why are missiles being fired at our home?
What wrong have we done?
What is our fault?"
His mom said-"the fault my son is of the times we live in
We live in the most power-hungry and heartless era of mankind
And they are firing missiles 'coz they don't fear Almighty
'Coz human lives don't mean nothing to them."
It's so sad and disheartening that war has become such a common thing today
I never imagined that the degredation of mankind would be so rapid
When will this insanity end?
How many more lives will be taken?
How many more childhoods will be destroyed?
How many more dreams will be shattered?
How many?
Dear GOD...please help the weak and the oppressed
Please give their families the strength and courage to go through these tough times
Please take them under your refuge
And please give them justice
The horrors of war cannot be expressed through words...only he who has gone through the trauma and the pain will truly understand it.As an outsider i can only try to recapture those horrifying moments.
Oct 2015 · 276
First kiss
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
Beautiful moonlit night
Not a patch of cloud in the sky
Constellations were the only audience
Sandy beach
The serene sound of the waves crashing against the shore
Little bonfire
I pulled you closer towards me
Our hearts were racing
I moved your hair which was fluttering across your face
I cupped your face in my hands
And there we shared our first kiss
It was the most magical moment of my life...
...one i will cherish forever
Oct 2015 · 399
Small candle
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
Small candle burning bright
Small candle emitting light
Small candle putting up a fight..
...against the strong zephyr intent on killing it
It's shaking
It's trembling
But still doesn't stop burning
Sometimes when i look at a burning candle i'm taken back to those old days...
...Days when our love used to burn proudly like that
Alas we couldn't give the rough winds much of a fight
And the flame was extinguished forever
Now all that remains are the distant memories of a glorious past which we shared together
Oct 2015 · 307
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Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
Falling for you was the best mistake i've ever committed
And i have absolutely no intentions of rectifying it
No one increases my heart rate like you do
And i intend to keep it that way
My heart only feels for you
My mind only thinks of you
My eyes only want to see you
And my arms only want to hold you
Oct 2015 · 174
Us
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
Us
The other day you asked me about us
Let me tell you...
You need a broad shoulder and a passionate person...that's me
I need a strong mind and a warm heart...that's you
You complete me
I complement you
I'm your favourite painter
You're the inspiration for my painting
I'm your favourite writer
You're the inspiration for my thoughts
I'm the sugar in your tea
You're the icing on my cake
I'm your daily sun
You're the moon in my night sky
I'm your favourite bed
You're my favourite pillow
I'm your favourite underwear
You're my favourite shirt
And finally let me tell you that any man could drown in your beautiful eyes and get lost in your magnificent hair
I feel so very lucky to have you in my life
With you around i can even see the funny side of adversity
Thank you for staying with me
And bearing with me!
Oct 2015 · 255
Life as i see it
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
Life is the deepest ocean you will ever encounter
And no matter how much you try you will never reach the bottom
Even when you think you have you will find that you are actually pretty far off
I've tried many times in vain to dive into the depths of life
I've tried in vain to understand it's meaning
I've tried in vain to comprehend its purpose
Along the way you will mostly come across three types of people-
Some actual friends
Some pretending to be friends
And some enemies
The third kind are the best..
...'coz they are upfront regarding their feelings about you
The one guaranteed thing in life-
Everyone will have an opinion about you
Some good
Some bad
Never take either of the two very seriously
The most important thing-
Even when you think your life is at an all-time low and there is no hope
Truth is there is always hope
If you believe and work hard then life will always give you that second chance to dispel your misery and rectify the situation
So never give up
Don't listen to negativity
Keep working
Keep trying
Someday your efforts will make you proud
Oct 2015 · 292
Freestyle 2
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
Magic light
Starry night
The constellations tonight
Are shining so very bright
Blurry eyes
The more i age..
..i don't seem to get no wise
Love never met me..i mostly got despise
Broken dreams
Fearful shrieks and screams
That's what my life has been
Happy and fulfilling days..very rarely have i seen
I live in a land which is steeped in traditions
And more often than not those traditions seem to suffer from contradictions
I'm usually referred to as obese
Oh please!
Yeah i love chocolates and cheese
Yeah i ******* love to eat
So what?..i ain't no cheat
Don't judge me coz you don't know nothin' about me
You can't see things the way i see
Everybody got their own set of baggages
And i ain't no exception
Life's always been cold to me...
...so i never expected no warm reception
I have never quite been a believer in fate
When i need it the most..it always arrives late
Money never interested me...
...neither did fortune and fame
Family & friends is what matter...
...everything else is just lame
Politics *****
And politicians even more
Very few of them work
Most merely roar
Society is the biggest pretender
It preaches in the disguise of a bartender
I cherish everyday i live
I have nothing save for prayers and blessings to give
As long as my mind is racing
And the heart is pacing
I'll keep thinking
I'll keep writing
I'll keep exploring
Oct 2015 · 296
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Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
A cool breeze on a hot day
Sunshine on those chilly mornings
White patches of clouds across an azure sky
Falling rain on a barren land
A dying man's love song
A kid's first step
New leaves on a tree
The fragrance of blooming flowers
An astrounaut's first space experience
Jupiter's magnificent ring
A kitten's first cry
A snow-covered mountain cap
An assemblage of stars across the night sky
A bird's first flight
Missing pieces of a complex puzzle
These are a few of things you remind me of...
You are the source which powers my constellation of thoughts
Always keep inspiring me
Always be my guiding force
Its hard to imagine life without you
Oct 2015 · 160
Lesson
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
You gave me a reason to live
Little did i know that you'd be the one who would execute my soul
My world came crashing down
The ground slipped off my feet
And i was all but up in flames
I guess i just never saw it coming
The lesson i learnt was that no matter how assured you might be of something
No matter how much confidence and trust you might have in someone
Never take nothing for granted
The unexpected is like a vicious and sly snake
It can strike you anytime
Oct 2015 · 182
Swapping places
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
Sometimes i think how wonderful it would be
If i were you
And you were me
You were always the hottest girl of the class
You could get any guy you wanted
You were always the centre of attraction
Me...i was always the nerd
Thick glasses,no fashion sense
Books were my lovers
Boys wanted nothing more than friendship from me
Now if i were you..i could go the prom...
..The one thing i had always longed for
I'd be invited to parties i never got to go
My dad always said-"getting a degree is more important than getting a boyfriend."
But i never really agreed with that
I guess just like every other girl a part of me always hoped that someday a charming prince would sweep me off my feet and whisk me away on his magnificent horse
I know i'm being naive
Wishful thinking really
But even if for a day it were possible to trade places with you
I'd do it without thinking for a moment
Oct 2015 · 158
Over you
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
Loving you wasn't worth the effort
Hating someone isn't in my nature
And thinking about you isn't worth the time
So i've decided that i won't even waste an inch of my mind over you
It's not gonna be easy
But i'm ready to move on
'Coz i know for sure that life has better things in store for me
Oct 2015 · 201
Memories of you
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
I sometimes feel confused
Should i hate you for leaving me?
Or should i hate you for loving me in the first place?
Its been almost a year now
And i still can't get over you
You were the first person for whom my heart skipped a beat
You aroused every sense of my body in a way i'd never experienced before
You gave my soul the most powerful ******* it had ever experienced
I thought you completed my life
Where did we go wrong?
Where did i lack?
You just left without saying a word..
Never even gave no reason
Why did you have do this?
You made me feel like a queen
And then just discarded me like an old and defective item
You gave me some of the best moments of my life
And unfortunately also some of its worst
Now i'm left with nothing save for your memories
And no matter how hard i try i just can't forget you
It hurts so bad
They say time heals everything
Well that don't seem to be the case here
Slowly but surely i'm falling into a deep abyss of uncertainty and depression
Why did we have to meet?
Why did we have to fall in love?
Why???
Oct 2015 · 142
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Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
I don't want someone who will shower me with gifts
Neither do i want someone who takes me places
Material aspects of life are like dust
I just need a shoulder to lean on
I need someone who is patient enough to listen to me
I just need someone to cuddle me on those cold nights
I just need someone who will be there to catch my tears
I just need someone who will help me walk through every fear
I just need someone who motivates me when i'm falling weak
I just need someone with whom i can share almost everything
I just need someone with whom i don't have to think before speaking
I just need someone who respects me for the person i am inside...
I just need someone who takes care of me and lets me take care of him
I just need someone who gives me a reason to fall in love with him every single day of my life
I just need someone who makes me smile like no one has ever done before
I just need someone in whose arms i wouldn't mind dying
People tell me that i'm naive to expect all the above qualities in a person...
But i'm hopeful that someday i will meet someone who will sweep me off my feet and make me feel like a million bucks
The path of love is never easy
There are plenty of ups and downs
The journey is a challenging one
But sometimes if you are lucky enough along the path you meet someone special who makes the journey worthwhile
I don't know if i'll ever find someone
But the thing is that i've been married to optimism for many years now
So remaining hopeful is the only way i feel and think
Oct 2015 · 779
Resurrection of Love
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
Our souls have been barren for far too long
What doesn't **** you only makes you strong
So have faith my love
This is just a passing phase
I know it seems as tricky as a complicated maze
But believe me….
Our souls will be drenched in love again
I know sometimes love can get tough
And we feel like we have nowhere to go
Just surrender yourself to me and let your feelings flow
Material things don’t matter to me really…
…they never did
I only want you my love,whom I value dearly
I've not given up on us
I still hold confidence and trust
Life has put us through many hells
Now it will do what is just
Light shall dispel the dark
And we will re-discover our missing spark
Broken hearts shall meet again
The indifferent clouds shall weep again
The distant sun will shine again
Like a phoenix from the ashes….our love will rise again
Oct 2015 · 516
A humble plea to GOD
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
Dear GOD,
I just have this one last wish before i'm gone
Please help me give my mother the happiness she deserves...
...the happiness she deserved but never got
Help me give my mom some of the best times of her life
Help me serve my mom to the best of my abilities
She has always been my pillar of strength and support
She is my best friend..
..my confidante
..my guide
..my philosopher
..my true critic
..my ultimate hero
The sacrifices that she's made for me..i can never forget that
And yet there have been times when i haven't been quite as greatful as i should have
At times i've mispoken to her..
..misbehaved with her
And i will always regret that
I wish i could've turned back time and changed that
I've seen my mom fight for me
I've seen her suffer for me
I've seen her pray her heart out for me
I'm deeply indebted to my mom
And no matter how much i do i can never repay her
Mom...i've never told told you this but today i want to tell you that i'm deeply ashamed and sorry for all the wrongs i've ever done to you
You're blessings have brought me this far in life
So GOD...
As i humbly bow down before you with a sense of remorse and repentance in my heart
I beg before you
Please keep my mother safe and healthy
Please cure her ailment
Please fill her life with unlimited joy
Please transfer all her sufferings unto me
She has suffered enough
I can't see her unhappy even for a moment
Please GOD...
...listen to this humble plea of mine.
Oct 2015 · 405
Conversation with fate
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
I once met fate and asked him-"so what does my future look like?"
He said-"one of the following
Either you're destined for good things...
...or your doomed for greater things."
And so i said to myself-"so either way i'm ******."
I'm kinda' confused here
Tragedy,loneliness,isolation..these have been my friends
I've never had no good things ever come my way
So i don't really how to handle them
This is new territory for me
I'm apprehensive and yet excited
So now i wait with bated breath for this new friend named 'happiness' to pay me a visit
I hope he stays long
I've so many questions i wanna ask him
I hope he bears with me
Oct 2015 · 160
Poetry and me
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
I'm not that good at poetry
'Coz i got no sense of rythm or rhyme
I simply write my heart out
Is that a crime?
Punctuations,stanzas,italics and all other such nuances never made no sense to me...
...i never really got that stuff
For me...poetry is all about gathering your thoughts and expressing them in the best words you can find...
...that is of the essence to me
I share a pretty personal connect with my poems
They constantly motivate me and keep reminding me of what i'm capable of
There are many times when i wish i was the character of my poems
One of these days i feel like my brain is gonna explode...
...and i'm gonna lose all my poetic juices
And i'll be sitting up in my bed...
...crying my heart out
And there'll be no one to catch my tears...
Oct 2015 · 178
You & me
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
I sometimes feel we are like darkness     and light
We are incomplete without each other
And yet we can't co-exist
We sometimes cross paths
We sometimes interact
We sometimes merge
We sometimes blend in one another's world
But truth be told...
...we are worlds apart
And yet we are each other's weakness
Your presence motivates my existence and vice-versa
We quarrel over trivial matters
We can't ever agree on anything
Our story is like a messed-up movie
Even hope is apprehensive of redeeming our story
And yet somehow amongst all the chaos we've made it this far...
...this fills me with hope
And so a part of me still believes that we can make it work
We might not make a good team
The important thing is we're still a team...
...and in the end that is what counts
I don't know whether we're right for each other
All i know is that i'm crazy about you
You rule over my thoughts
I breathe you every single second of my life
You give a proper definition to my life
Don't think about the future
Just walk with me
Here's to us.....
Oct 2015 · 157
Dreams & us
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
If one were paid for dreaming
Then i would'nt have had to work a single day in life
There is no sweet escape as a dream
There are no boundaries here
Nothing is wrong or right
Nothing is off limits
There are no rules here
As your mind wanders through every nook and corner of your imagination
You just feel this incredible surge of energy
Its hard to describe the feeling
Probably something close to sheer bliss
As long as you see it...you don't think about nothing else
Your focus is on your dream
And then when you finally wake up and are pushed back to the harsh world of reality
You feel this sense of dejection and helplessness
You long to see the dream again
And wish it were to come true someday(no matter how distant it might seem)
We humans share an interesting relationship with our dreams
Some motivate us
Some scare us
Some propel us ahead
Some hold us back
But for as long as we are in the world of dreams
It just gives you these incredible moments...
Moments that your life might never give you
Oct 2015 · 2.4k
Unexpressed Feelings
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
I don't know why but whenever i look at you...
I'm speechless
Simply dumbfounded
There are so many things i wanna tell you...
...things i've never told no one
The way i feel for you..i've never felt that for no one
But each and every time i muster up some courage...
...one look at you and that's it
I simply forget what i wanted to say to you
I start to stammer
I get tongue-tied
The words simply refuse to flow
I must admit though that i can't completely be blamed for this
After all you are the most beautiful distraction i've ever seen
You are like H2O...
No other drink can substitite you
I need you
Your beautiful long hair
Those red-painted lips of yours
Those intriguing deep blue eyes
That seductive stare that you give me
Your sweet voice
Your intoxicating fragrance
They all are tempting and teasing me to the core
Tonight i want to rip my heart out for you
Tonight i wanna do ***** things to you
I've waited for an eternity
I can't wait any longer
Tonight i wanna tell you that i'm yours
You are the only one who makes me smile
You are the only one who makes me blush
You are the only one who makes my heart skip a beat
You are the only one who arouses my body,soul and mind
Oct 2015 · 285
Lovestricken
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
My love you are both my source of strength and as well as weakness
You bring out the child in me
Ocassionally you also awaken the monster within me

My love you are weird in the most beautiful ways
You can make me smile even in the most trying circumstances
And you can hurt me when i least expect it

My love you are like an intoxicating drug
Too much of you is harmful
And too little of you doesn't serve my purpose

My love you are the best problem i've ever faced in my life
And i ain't got any intentions of solving you
I simply want to prolong you till death whisks me away....
Oct 2015 · 474
Sexed-up feelings
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
As you trace the outlines of my belly with your fingers        
I'm but lost in your embrace
Your warm breath upon me            
And shower of kisses on my tummy and back is driving me to an uncontrollable ecstasy
As your lips hold mine
I've completely surrendered myself to you
As your strong hands caress my *******
My soul can't help but let out moans of pleasure
As you slip between my thighs
And take me to that place of sheer satisfaction
I try to hold on to the sheets
Your powerful thrusts are driving me crazy
My mind is blown with sensations i've never felt before
My body is shuddering under the impact of your intense love-making
My hair is all messed up
Our hearts are racing
And as i lay on your chest...
...our sweat-smeared bodies touching against one another
And as i look into your eyes..
...for the first time i feel wanted
I have a confession to make...
...'i've never been loved like this'
I never felt such raw passion
You've truly made this a night to remember
Oct 2015 · 328
The Hurt
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
You told me you love me
Then why did you leave me?
And now after all these years
You've come back to retrieve me
Did i never mean nothing to you?
How could i fall for your tricks...it's something i will always rue
I should've known from the start
You were merely playing with my heart
You toyed with my emotions
You insulted my devotion
I gave my soul to you
But you just decimated it
Love was always a game to you
I wish when you do fall in love...someone does the same to you
You know one can never remain happy by hurting someone
I hope someday you feel the hurt and realize what it feels like
Oct 2015 · 307
No Way Back
Sk Abdul Aziz Oct 2015
"The great use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it"-William James

Caught between reality and fantasy
Torn between war and peace
Stuck between light and darkness
Attacked by love and hatred
Blinded by ambition and ego
I've been stuck in this unbeatable maze for quite a while a now
It's like i'm roaming around in a never ending circle
Fear is overtaking my senses
The walls are all closing in
And i'm running out of options
An explosion of emotions is looming large
Should i be pessimistic or should i hope against hope?
It's hard to keep living in a bubble of isolation
There are these times when u can't take it no more and just wanna break out and experience everything around you
I'm not afraid of death
It's the painful and lonely life that scares me
Betrayal has been a part of my existence ever since I can remember….
Lovers, friends..family…..no one spared me
Sometimes when I look up at the night sky… the stars seem to call out to me
I can hear them telling me—‘You’ve got no place down there…come up here…there’s plenty of room’
I had always dreamt that my life would change
That for a change I would matter to someone
But Alas!....some dreams just never take off
And now as I wait with patience to meet Death
I wonder….will Death give me that elusive peace I’ve been looking for?
But then again this is Death…..
…..No negotiations are possible here
It’s heartless
It will pay me a visit whenever it wants to
I’m now just a traveller on his final journey
There is no fixed destination
I will go wherever the flow of life takes me
I have no dreams
I have no hopes
I have no expectations
I wasn't an obnoxious creature
I never hurt people on purpose
I am just someone who somehow got lost in the chaos and violence of Life
I've gone way too far now
The quicksand of Life has engulfed me
There’s no way back now………..
No way back……….
Sep 2015 · 312
Significance of 'you'
Sk Abdul Aziz Sep 2015
Buried under a burden of expectations
You were the only source of comfort I've had
Ridiculed by society
You were the only support I've had
Weakened by hatred
You were the only source of strength I've had
Neglected by Family
You were the only resting place I've had
Threatened by Life
You were the only refuge I've had
You were the mirror of my soul
I've seen the world through your eyes
You've seen me at my best
You've seen me at my worst
You've seen me at my strongest
You've seen me at my weakest
I've seen you without make-up..without clothes
I love your smell…..
……..The shape of your lips
……..The size of your nose
……..Your black hair
I've watched you fight for me against the world
It feels like we've known each other for an eternity
Before i met you i was murdered by sorrow and loneliness.....
.......each and every day of my life
Don’t ever leave my side
‘Coz if you do my whole world will come crashing down
And will burn like an eternal flame
You are what keeps the old ticker running
Without you I will find it impossible to have a reason to live
“Till death do us part”……………..
Sk Abdul Aziz Sep 2015
Lightning strikes
Inside my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love why don't you say so?
If you want more love why don't you say so?

Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain, pain, pain..

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love why don't you say so?
If you want more love why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me is to see how far I fall?
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me but I can't break through it all.

It's a heart... heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and Ambien
You're talking **** again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak, heartbreak.

It's heartbreak warfare
It's heartbreak warfare
It's heartbreak warfare
Love this song.
Sep 2015 · 204
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Sk Abdul Aziz Sep 2015
The sun was setting in the background
The birds were returning to their abode
And there i was on top a hill with my lover by my side
It was the most breathtaking view i had ever seen
The sun was merging with the distant horizon
It was as if the sun and the horizon were one now
I thought to myself...
....Tomorrow a new sun will rise
And bring with it a new sense of hope
Bur right now this was a magical moment
Darkness was descending
The fireflies chose to give us company
And then as i held my lover's hand and gazed into her eyes
I forgot all my pains...
I was lost in a world of hope
A world of serenity
A world of sheer beauty
Soon the constellations were watching us from above
Spread all across the sky....they were like an audience in a theatre
...Waiting to witness magic
And i thought to myself that at this very moment even if death were to arrive
It would be the most beautiful death ever........
Sep 2015 · 422
Spirit
Sk Abdul Aziz Sep 2015
Broken Heart
Broken Bones
Abandoned by Hope
Dispelled by Life
Surrounded by Hatred
Gravely Misunderstood
Married to Isolation
Friends with the Dark
But spirit still intact
How long can you last??
Ultimately your spirit's gonna break...
No....it's not...
..And you know why??
...Coz it's the only thing i have..
..And i'm not giving up the only thing i have..
...No matter what
Sep 2015 · 257
Lost
Sk Abdul Aziz Sep 2015
As i fade away into the darkness
And slip through the depths of time
I vividly remember your face
Shining like a star
Those memories of you and me keep swimming in the ocean of my thoughts
You truly stood out
The touch of your soft skin
Your childlike smile
The sparkle in your eyes
I remember it all
I still wonder... did our love never ever mean anything to you??
I look up to the sky and tell him...
....Take me with you to that place of uncertainty
The place where death and life meet and get lost
Release me from all connections
Free me from all attachments
I'm now in a constant sate of free fall
Your love was limitless
But your hatred knew no boundaries
I'm not sure if i love you for making me feel wanted
Or i hate you for leaving me deserted and stranded just when our love was about to reach greater heights
You and i--what potential we had
We could've experienced so much more
You just left without a trace
No warnings...nothing
And here i am in the middle of the desert of life...
...Trying to gather the pieces of my broken heart
If only the heart could be mended like a toy
....If only things could've been different
....If only
I'm now but a traveller with no sense of purpose or direction
I'm now truly lost.....
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Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
"Love isn't a distraction.Life as we know is complicated....love just adds another dimension to it.I'm not getting into the debate of whether love is a blessing or a burden.Love is exciting,challenging,demanding,furious and intoxicating...some accept it with open arms...some have reservations about it.....some take time to embrace it...some hope to reach that elusive zone of bliss and calm thru this medium...while some are destroyed by it...whatever it is...one thing's for sure....when you are going thru this process of love you learn so much..you experience something you never thought you would ever experience....you display emotions and feelings you never even thought you were capable of having in the first place.At times it works like a rejuvenating tonic for your soul which has taken far too much battering.It's such a beautiful conundrum that you wish you were fortunate enough to be given an opportunity to experience it.I mean....at the end of the day..a morning of togetherness is far better than a night of loneliness."
Aug 2015 · 278
Memento
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
Lets go for a drive tonight
Lets forget the world for now
And live in the moment
I don't know what the future holds for us(i wish i did!!!)
But i know this....you are the only woman with whom i feel safe
You are the only one who makes me feel strong
You are the only one i can think with whom i wanna spend my life with
So what do you say?
Wanna take a chance with this lunatic guy who’s crazy about you??
I can't promise you a starry life
All i can i give you is myself in totality
If your answer is in the negative
Then plz don't hate me
Think of me as a wonderful little chapter of your life
And then just destroy me
Bit by bit
Piece by piece
Until all that's left of me is a distant memory
And then keep that memory as a memento
Aug 2015 · 1.6k
'My immortal' by Evanescence
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
You still have all of me, me.....me
Just an awesome song!!!
Aug 2015 · 481
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Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
My heart is a prisoner of your charm
My soul has been for long been your captive
Even death will not free it
Your image is deeply imprinted in my imagination
Even amnesia can't smudge it
From the moment I first laid my eyes on you
I knew you were no ordinary girl
The light of your eyes
The radiance of your face
The softness of your skin
The fiery passion that you exhibit
Your beautiful smile
It all creates a certain sense of mischief in my heart
It’s as if my mind temporarily stops working
And I just want to listen to my heart
You shine so very brightly in my eyes….
That it puts all other women in the shade
You are the one for me
My only true friend
My only true critic
My only partner
You are my sun
You are my moon
You are my world
You are my universe
You are what makes my life worth living
With you around it’s so easy to bear any hardship
Aug 2015 · 294
Random Thoughts 4
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
Over the past few days there's this rage that has been boiling inside of me….a rage against all my doubters,a rage against all the haters,a rage that seems to consume the major portion of my mind.There is nothing wrong  in letting off a little steam every now and then…I feel its important to do this…makes you feel lighter.Relationships are complicated and humans in general are a complex species.It’s hard to understand or predict them...with other animals you get a fairly certain idea of what they might do in particular situation.With humans you just never know what’s coming.

Our very existence is defined by the things we say and more importantly the things we do.Actions don’t just speak louder than words…they create an impact so powerful that can be felt for generations to come.A life might perish but the memory(whether good or bad) of that person lives on forever.So it ‘s important to try and make an effort to make a difference in someone’s life,to try and do some good work before your time is up and whenever life does give you that rare second chance do make it full use of it coz’ those are like lottery tickets…you never know when you’ll get lucky.

A wee bit of insanity is important to survive this chaotic and messed-up world.There's a thin line between being too nice or meek and trying to be aggressive...it's kinda' hard to balance the two out.You be too nice and people will trample over you...you get too aggressive and you will labelled as a monster.Truth is there is a monster in each and everyone of us.In some it's very dormant while some have awakened it unintentionally.The trick here is that you need to be in control of the monster and not the other way around."
Aug 2015 · 232
Random Thoughts 3
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
If only money grew on trees....
Love was available at the grocery store
And success was available at your favourite candy store
Man...it would've been so wonderful
But then come to think of it...it wouldn't have been life in its truest sense .....would it??
Aug 2015 · 211
Sea of Grief
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
I'm drowning in a sea of grief
I'm trying desperately to reach the surface
But i simply can't
Have exhausted all my options
I was a never a good swimmer when it came to an ocean of sorrow
My mind has stopped working
My heart's been bruised and battered
No one seems to care about me
Or even try to understand me
The pain is just killing me
It just keeps on increasing
I need someone to help me get thru this torrid time
If only i had someone on whose shoulders i could've rested my head...
......And cried my lungs out
God..i know i haven't done anything to be in your good books
But plz God....will you help me??
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools," said I, "You do not know.
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you.
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming.
And the sign said, "The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls
And whispered in the sounds of silence."
Lyrically, one of the best songs in my opinion.
Aug 2015 · 270
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Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
With dreams in my eyes
And a sense of hope in my mind
I’ve set out on a long and arduous journey
Don’t know where the roads will take me
The fragrance of my homeland brings tears to my eyes
It s a lonely path I’m walking
The sun is setting in the distant horizon
Darkness has descended
The moon has never looked more beautiful
The stars seem so bright today
I stop at a motel for the night
Feels weird to be sleeping alone
Loneliness comes and visits me every night
Holding me coldly till morning light
Your words still resound in my mind
Your image keeps flashing in my mind
.....On those warm sunny days
Under the sun
On those sun-kissed beaches
When our sand-smeared bodies touched against each other
It was nothing but sheer ecstasy
Or those rainy days??
When we were under one umbrella
Holding each other tightly
You remember that time??
The time when loved ruled our hearts and minds
The time when I was your favourite garment and pillow
We promised each other that the world belonged to us
Don’t know as to what will happen to those promises
We might or might not live to see a new sun
But tell you what…the moments that we spent together will never be forgotten by either of us
If we were to meet someday in the future
It will truly be my good fortune
In the meantime I just have one request….please remember me for the right reasons
And  when i come back for you
Just take my hand and run away with me
Don’t think...
It’s a short life we have
So..Live it with me
Aug 2015 · 192
Letter to.......
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
Dear Anonymous--
                               "It's been a while since we've communicated...it's not that i've forgotten about you.In fact of late my mind's been preoccupied with ur thoughts.It's the winter of my life and the leaves have indeed fallen.In my mind i've been to all the places i wish to travel...the beauty of those destinations has enthralled me..but there's nothing quite captivating as your endearing smile,your infectious charm and illuminating presence.Every good and bad thing that u've ever said to me still keeps resonating in my mind.I am truly touched by your selflessness..it is something i can only dream of achieving.Tell me something...is it that easy to remain humble and selfless in this chaotic world...where almost everyone is a narcissist in some way or the other.How do you manage to do it??...Don't u have any personal desires??..have u never felt greed,lust or jealousy??I remember you had once told me that life is all about balancing the two worlds..ur personal one and the one outside and doing what's best for both of 'em....I'll admit that the first part is somewhat manageable but the second one is quite a task.There's never a moment of indecision in ur life...while i sometimes fail to take the smallest ones.It's weird but sometimes i feel more connected to you than to anyone i've ever felt...it's like u know what i'm made of and have tasted every single ingredient of my soul.There have been times when i've treated you bad but you've never really been upset with me...Why??...does the concept of forgive and forget come so easy to you??We both know we ain't got much time left with us...so let's undertake a journey together and discover the best and worst in us...these special moments that we share and live together will stay on forever,etched in the 'pleasant' section of our minds."
Aug 2015 · 363
Gratitude
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
Tell me darling...have you ever thought as to why we've been together for so many years now?
What clicked between us?
Why i became us and vice-versa?
I have sometimes thought about it..
....And have come to the conclusion that there is no standard procedure of formula for love
It just happens
Two person click together and just wanna be together
Love doesn't require manifestation all the time
It merely demands commitment and honesty
And today as we celebrate our tenth anniversary of togetherness
And dance under the beautiful moonlit night
I can't help but be thankful to God for providing me with an angel like you
You came into my life at a very turbulent time
And helped me steady myself
You made me believe for the first time in my life that i actually had a future to look forward to
You've truly enriched and enhanced my life
You've filled the empty canvas of my life with the most beautiful colours
You breathed life into me
Your sweet innocent charm and childish like smile always made me feel positive
You've helped me forget my ugly past,revel in the beautiful present and have given me an optimistic future
Thank you my love for being there with me thru every thick and thin
....Thru every step of the way
With you by my side...i can face any battle life puts me thru
My love....i love you,i admire you...i respect you
I can't do enough to express my gratitude to you
I promise to be by your side till the end of time
Till death do us part............
Aug 2015 · 160
Random Thoughts 2
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
I have a thousand reasons to love you
But i can't find a single reason to hate you or dislike you or be with upset or angry with you
And believe me....i've tried really hard to find that one reason
Aug 2015 · 393
The Unknown Connection
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
Fear not 'coz you've almost reached your destination;relax and smile... you've conquered and come this far;you've proved  others wrong and done the impossible;you've made urself proud;u've proved that u've still got it.Nobody had given u a chance but you mustered up d courage,dug out ur resources and surprised one and all including urself.What u feel at this point of time is truly indescribable.In other words it's sheer bliss.You never doubted urself.;u never lost hope;u were confident in d face of adversity.You showed dat courage is not 'bout being brave....it's 'bout accepting ur fears and conquering 'em;it's 'bout accepting ur flaws and working on 'em;it's 'bout taking all d negativity around you and turning it into something positive.

You belong to dat elite group of individuals who never gives up and dat is what sets u apart from d majority.You deserve my respect.You inspire me to do greater things,to scale greater heights.You motivate me like no one else does.You fill my heart with this uncontrollable burning desire to succeed.I don't want to be u and yet i want to become someone like u.There is this strange attraction i feel towards u.It's weird and at times feels completely inexplicable.It's not that i love you but....i don't know what it is about you that intrigues me.My list of faults and mistakes is endless but i'm not a hypocrite or a ******.To achieve even half of what u've achieved is quite a mouth-watering prospect and it's certainly a challenge worth accepting.

I don't know who u are.We are not related by blood and neither do we know each other.Yet i feel this strong connection with u.When i look at you; when i listen to u speak,i feel so much at peace.You don't judge me like the others do.The colour of my skin or my physicality doesn't bother u.You're patient with me.You don't just understand me; u feel me.You are the one constant thought dat occupies my mind and i have a feelin' dat you ain't got any intentions of leavin'.
Aug 2015 · 180
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Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
You are the most beautiful dream i've ever had
You are the most incredible person i've ever met
It's been months since we've seen each other
But the taste of your lips still lingers in my tongue
You have pretty much made your own place,both in my mind and heart
I was an empty vase of sorrow
And then you came and filled it with the most beautiful flowers of happiness and joy
I've tried so hard to decode you
But have failed each time
You on the other hand read me like an open book
Do i really give away that much?
Truth is you've given me the best years of my life
I'm just a shy and humble creature deeply indebted to you
Thank you for always being there for me
Thank you for putting up with my insanity
Thank you for always being the way you've been
Thank you for believing in me
Thank you for giving me hope
Thank you for giving me a new lease of life
Thank you for everything
Aug 2015 · 262
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Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
Loneliness had always been my friend
It had always been a part of me
Isolation had been my strength
And to be fair...isolation did have its perks
But then you came and messed it up in the most beautiful manner imaginable
Now i can't picture a moment of my life without you by my side
I guess this the impact that love creates...
...Makes one feel both strong and weak at the same time
Strong coz you have the assurance of having someone by your side
And weak coz you are afraid of losing that person
Love indeed is quite the complex puzzle....
It is question which has no proper answer
Why does anyone love someone??
What does anyone love in someone??...
........And so and so forth......
Aug 2015 · 751
'Daughters' by John Mayer
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Just love the lyrics....so thought of sharing it.
Aug 2015 · 245
If i had you
Sk Abdul Aziz Aug 2015
If i had your eyes ....
The world would've seemed so different
If i had your ears
The world would've sounded so much better
If i had your feet
I would've covered every inch of the planet
If i had your voice
I would've shouted out my love for you
Truth is.......
....If i had you in my life, i wouldn't have needed the world
Jul 2015 · 290
Dear life
Sk Abdul Aziz Jul 2015
Dear life...if you can't provide me with the answers or some clues...then plz don't pose such tricky questions in front of me....I mean sometimes you don't even give me sufficient time to think about the previous question and you are already shooting the next one.I have tried to please you,conquer you.ace you....but just haven't been able to crack the code....what is about you??...what do you want??..The longer these questions remain unanswered the closer i'm going towards insanity...i guess either i'll figure you out or go insane..or may be death might come to my rescue someday.
Jul 2015 · 480
Space love
Sk Abdul Aziz Jul 2015
I’m leaving earth
The space-shuttle is magnificent
Travelling to the far off distant galaxy
I've now entered an unknown territory
This is the truly the most magnificent view i've ever seen
Is this a dream??
All around there is this feeling of immense vastness
Planets and constellations dominate the area
My eyes are almost blinded by the contrasting light and darkness
When i look at the stars, i think as to how feeble i am
As a child I used to look outta my window and gaze at the stars in the night sky
And now here I was….watching them up close
This is where I always wanted to be
A magical land of light and dark
A place where no one knows me
A place where I have no lovers or mourners
A place where time just seems to float
A place where no one judges me
A place where I’m in sync with myself
I ‘ve lost track of time
Don’t know how many days it’s been since I’ve been away
I’ve had some of my best moments here
Wish i can die here
'Coz that would be one beautiful death
Dear space...please engulf me in your vastness
I’m done with earth
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