I wish i could express myself in front of people
The way i express myself in my diaries
You see these diaries that i keep
They aren't just pieces of paper for me
They're the air i breathe
The song i sing
The fuel that keeps me going
The food for my soul
The memories i gather
The plethora of feelings i assemble
The thoughts i pick out from my galaxy of emotions
A place where i can be myself
A place where i'm not judged by anyone
A place where i find peace

At times it's difficult for me to pen down my emotions
The pain is too much to take
And the worst part is that it refuses to subside
And still i write
Not a day goes by when i don't write something in my diary
It's a vital part of my existence
The beauty about writing in my diary is that there is no restriction
There is no rule or law
I don't have to measure my words
Or be extra careful or cautious
With people it's the other way around
I sometimes feel confused
Various questions travel through my head....
What should i say?
What should i not say?
Would this sound rude?
What if i said this?
How should i say this?
How would that person react?
It's such a challenge!

As i started to grow,i realized that writing was a far greater gift than speaking....and i'm deeply and sincerely thankful to Almighty for having given me a wee bit of the former.

The truth is almost always harsh...it's never easy to take it..sometimes i wish i was lied to..even though i might know what the reality is and how much it hurts...it's just that sometimes you need that false sense of assurance..that false sense of hope..that false sense of comfort to feel good.I feel sometimes you need to do that..lie to someone just to make the hurt feel a little less.I'm not suggesting that we become chronic liars...it's just that at times you need to be a little flexible..'coz every situation demands a different kind of action...in some cases telling the truth might be the best option or the only option..while in some cases it might be a bad idea to do so.

'A mind is like a parachute..it serves no purpose unless and until you open it.'

-Frank Zappa

Never let any doubts or fears defeat your conviction
Make those hurdles face prosecution
Always keep yourself filled with motivation
Remember...the path to success is never easy..it's always filled with occasional periods of oppression
At times you might feel a sense of depression
But don't give up..fight and pummel your problems into submission
And when you reach your goal..
...you will experience this amazing sense of pride and elation

'Isn't that what we do in this world?....try to salvage the wreckage of our disappointments,losses and broken hearts,cherish our moments of magic and glory,forging ahead and charting a new course.'

-Megan Kearns

It doesn't matter whether i live or not
You will always live in me....
In my heart
In my soul
In my mind
In every nerve in my body
In the blood that runs through my veins
You are and will always continue to be a significant and an integral part of me
And even death is not going to change that

Silence speaks to me more than words ever can
It speaks to me in ways words never can
The stillness of the night
The empty night streets
The open sky
The moonlight
The constellations
The first rays of the sun
The early morning breeze
The open fields
The trees
The blades of grass
...they all speak to me

Silence and me..we go a long way back
We share a very special relationship
A strong bond so to speak
Ever since the time i learnt to speak
I realized very quickly that silence was going to be my best friend
And so far it has never betrayed me

Silence is my best friend
My confidante
I share all of thoughts and secrets with it
I interact with on a daily basis
Silence is serene
Silence is magic
Silence is *******
In this chaos-filled life..moments of silence is like tranquility
Silence helps me get through the day
Silence keeps the monster within me at bay

The best things are truly said without saying anything
Sometimes a touch
A look
A stare
...says so much

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost

From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be the blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king

-J.R.R. Tolkien

When you are being constantly provoked and criticised wrongly ...it's easy to lose your temper and just burst out..but trying to keep your cool and not reacting(no matter how hard it may be)is always the smarter thing to do...don't give importance to haters and jerks,by reacting to what they say...just focus on yourself and your work and keep doing your thing.Shut out people who have nothing but negative things to say to you.

Every obstacle or hurdle that you face in life..also presents you with an opportunity of overcoming it...don't take a step back when faced with a problem..fight and find a way of countering it.

I choose to cry alone
'Coz i don't want no one to see my tears
In front of people i try and pretend to be brave
'Coz i don't want no one to see my fears
But i know that on the inside i'm fragile
I can break any moment
All it needs is a little push
And gravity will do the rest
There have been many ocassions when i've been put to the test
My soul has been pushed to the edge of a cliff
It has been kicked and punched
And yet it has hung on
But i wonder how long it will be able to do so
One slip and that's it
There's no winning against gravity

I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night*

In the light of the night
I feel this strange sense of might
Under the moonlight
Everything just feels right
The constellations guiding me
The moon shining it's magic upon me
For some reason the dark helps me to be myself
My soul is bare
All my secrets exposed
And yet i feel safe
I feel alive
I breathe like never before
The silence of the night touches my soul in a way i've never been touched before
The beauty of the night seduces and mesmerizes my heart
It's like i'm in a state of trance
My soul just feels free and wants to dance
The dark is like an inspiration to me
Without it i don't know where i'd be
The dark is a source of oxygen for my soul
Light alone doesn't complete me
Darkness is what makes me whole

Don't be so ******* yourself
Learn to forgive...learn to let go
Everyone trips and falls
So,don't be so ******* yourself
-Jess Glynne

Don't be afraid to fall
Don't be afraid to make a mistake
'Coz every time you fall
Everytime you make a mistake
You become wiser
Stronger
And much more learned

Sometimes at night i get these visions in my head...
Visions which torment me in my sleep...
Visions of a life not lived
Dreams not chased
Risks not taken
Fears not dispeled
Efforts not put in
Love not fought for
Battles not finished
Words not said
Things not done
A life not lived to it's potential

I get these horrifying nightmares
I see myself growing old
All alone withering like a leaf in the winter of my life
Not a single soul by my side
No one to care for me
No one to even bother about me
Whether i live or die
It don't make no difference to no one
I don't see no hope
Only doom and despair
This crazy sense of guilt and regret just overpowers my senses
I weep profusely
But have nobody to lean on
I see myself drowning in my tears
My soul is bleeding from all sides
Nothing can cure it now

I sometimes fear that these visions might come true
And i'd rather die than live a life like that
I want to make a promise to myself
I will do everything i can to make sure that my life is nothing like these visions i keep having every now and then
I will fight
I will survive
Someday i will flourish
Someday i will blossom
God willing...i will fulfill every single dream i have

'Life is not about the number of breaths you take..it's about moments that take your breath away.'
-Will Smith

The night has just begun
Let's go out and have some fun
Let's drive to the open fields
Let's relax and drop our shields
Let's forget about the world
And let our livers be curled..
...with enjoyment
Tonight let's not worry about a thing
Winter's almost gone..it's time for spring
It's past midnight
The time just feels right
Let the moon and the stars lead the way
Tonight with you i wanna sway
Tonight...I wanna fly
Follow the open sky
And reach where the horizon meets the earth
Tonight i wanna be filled with mirth
Every night the sky has a story to tell
The earth has a different smell
In the magic of the moonlight let us dwell
Let us dive into the cold river
And let our bodies quiver
Tonight everything seems to be in harmony
Under the sheet of stars let us explore anatomy
Nights like these are rare
Let us dispel our fears and dare..
...the dark

'In this world of shipwreck,there is hope in uncertainty.'
-Lola versus

I've tried so hard to decode you..
...decipher you
...understand you
But have failed every single time
I've known you for many years now
And yet i feel that i hardly know you
I keep learning new things about you
Each and every day you continue to amaze me
You on the other hand read me like an open book
Am i that easy to read?
Do i really give away that much?
You understand me better than i do
You know what i want to say even without me saying it

Oscar Wilde had once said that a man's face is his autobiography,while a woman's is her work of fiction
Forgive me..but sometimes i think this statement kinda' holds true

It's funny...you work so hard,you do everything you can to get away from a place and when you finally get your chance to leave..you find a reason to stay.

Beyond the world of reality
Lies the beautiful world of dreams
Every night i eagerly wait for it with a sense of hope and anticipation
I keenly look forward to it
Waiting to be swept off my feet
To travel to a new destination
To see new faces
To have a new experience
To feel inspired
To feel loved
To be mesmerised
To live some elusive moments of peace
To feel alive even if for a few moments
To smile even if for a few moments
To be somewhere where i can be myself
To be somewhere where no one questions me or my actions
To be somewhere where i have no fear
Somewhere where the world is so much more beautiful
So..dear mind...where are we going tonight?

The time between your first breath and last breath is what counts ..so make it count...do the things which you make you happy..try new things..challenge yourself every once in a while..don't limit yourself to a particular arena..push your boundaries..explore new things..don't let fear hold you back..meet new people..try and contribute to society,to your country and to the planet..don't just exist..live life..make sure that when you are on your death-bed,you can look back at your life with a sense of pride,satisfaction and achievement.

A prayer is not just the most powerful weapon...it also the most powerful medicine...believe in it's power.

Hope is the greatest source of oxygen...breathe from it as much as you can.

'So..you're with that guy now!..like seriously..he is not even good-looking.'

'Well...unlike you..he isn't a liar.'

'Does he even have a sense of humour?..does he make you laugh?'

'Well..unlike you..he doesn't make me cry.'

'How much money does he have?..does he make enough?'

'You know what the most amazing thing is..he actually loves me and cares for me..and that to me is more than enough.'

Earn to live but don't live to earn.We came empty-handed and we shall go empty-handed...the only thing you will take to your grave will be your deeds.As long as you are here,try and do some good and don't just focus purely on material gains.

She hated being all alone
She searched for true love all over the city
Sometimes in college..
..where she would always find a way to sit next to the handsome guy and she'd dream of a life with him
Sometimes at work..
..where in between her meetings she'd glance at the cute guy and hope that someone like that would come in her life
Sometimes at the train station..
..where she would wait for the train to arrive and hope that one day love too would arrive in her life
Sometimes in parks..
..where she'd witness the magic of nature and hope for a magic in her life
Sometimes in cafeterias..
..where in between sips of coffee she'd write poems about love and hope that some character from her poem would come alive and sweep her off her feet
Sometimes in bars..
..where she'd drink to her loneliness and hope that some prince would come into her life and cure her lonely nights
And yet little did she know..
..that her soulmate was in front of her the entire time..
..he was living next door to her
..they'd meet and talk everyday
..he had a receding hairline
..wore thick glasses
..would stammer in his speech
But he was the nicest person she had ever met
He was always very encouraging and supportive
He understood her like no one else ever did
And whenever she was feeling a bit low
He would always find a way to cheer her up
And so after having tried to find her true love all around
She finally realized that there was one place she hadn't looked
The one place which was truly worth looking
She went up to the guy living next door,gathered some courage and expressed her feelings for him
He had tears in his eyes
He could barely speak
He had always liked her
But was scared to express his feelings
For he was flawed in so many ways
He never ever thought that he'd find someone who would want to be with him
And yet here was the most amazing girl he had ever met..
...who was standing in front of him with her heart in her hand
They sealed their love with a kiss
The birds sang a happy tune
And the heavens rejoiced

It's funny how with time life changes....growing up we used to think that friends are gonna stick together forever...but as time goes on we all get caught up in our own lives..our goals,dreams and ambitions...later we just seem to go our own separate ways.We get busy with careers and then personal life and stuff and then no one's got time for anyone.Some friends move away to other cities or countries...they do call occasionally..but it's not quite the same.Life is quite the conundrum....in the beginning it shows us these fancy dreams and then paints before us the harsh picture of reality...one day it places us on a pedestal and the next day it plummets us to the ground.Sometimes i feel like everything is happening way too fast...and i feel like saying-'hey, time..slow down...let me just take it all in...give me a breather every once in a while'....if only things happened that way.

Fairytales are true not because they tell us that dragons exist...but because they tell us that dragons can be defeated.

What a fool i was to have fallen for you
You were ******* with me the entire time..weren't you?
I thought you were my lover
..my saviour
You turned out to be a betrayer
...a merciless destroyer
Bit by bit
Layer by layer
You shredded my heart
And decemated my soul
Until there was nothing left...
...but a big empty hole
The vultures of heartbreak are now feasting on the carcass of my heart
You hurt me so bad
That i'm now scared to fall in love again
The very thought of love gives me nightmares now
I've been trying to forget you
Trying not to press re-wind
But you just won't leave my mind
I gave you my all..
...body,soul and mind
We shared such wonderful times
..such wonderful memories
But you just destroyed it all
You didn't just break my trust
You have shaken my belief in love
It hurts to think that i had actually loved you
This agony
This pain
...it just doesn't go away
Slowly and gradually it's tearing me apart
I can't sleep
I just weep..
...tears of unbearable hurt
How do i live in my shattered world now?
Whoever said that time heals everything and you can just move on was obviously lying

Sport is the best form of reality tv.There are no scripts here...the joy of winning and the agony of losing is real.At the end of a match or a race or a competition you see such contrasting emotions...one one side..the winner is congratulated and flanked by one and all,while one the other side is the defeated...hanging his head in disappointment and dejection..sometimes he is all alone..while at times his family and team-mates are there trying to console him...but defeat is never the end of the road.Sport just like life is such a great leveler...one day you could be on top of the world...the best in your game and the very next day you could look like an amateur.Sport is beautiful and one of the best gifts life can give us..it teaches us so many valuable lessons like integrity,dedication,the ability to bounce back and team-work to name a few..but the most important lesson sport teaches us is that..one should never give up and keep fighting till the very end..you never know when the tide might turn in your favour.Play sport to learn...but most importantly to experience...sure you want to win and you should try your best to do that..but winning is not the only thing..there's much more to it than that...see this as an opportunity to know and discover yourself..to know people..to know places..to know life.Sport doesn't just bring people together...it brings nations together.It bridges the most widest of gaps.

'I think there should be laughs in everything..sometimes it's a slammed door,a pie in the face or just a recognition of our frailties.'
-Alan Rickman

We're tricked by society into believing that we should change instead of being encouraged to accept who we are.Accept yourself for who you are..nobody is perfect...it is your imperfections and flaws that make you who you are..embrace them..you are unique in your own way..there's no substitute for you...be yourself..love yourself..be proud of yourself..no matter what anyone says.

'The only thing worse than being blind is having sight but no vision'
-Helen Keller

In this world filled with hatred and lust
It is difficult to hold on to your principles and do what is just
If war doesn't **** you
Then intolerance must

We live in a world where everything we do is judged
Where the colours of peace are smudged
Where the poor continue to live in their misery
While the rich continue to be engaged in their revelry

We live in a world where governments are hell-bent on showing their might
Even it means curbing a citizen's right
The constitution today has become a joke
Dear policy makers...light it up..
...let everyone see the smoke

We live in a world where falsity and corruption walk hand in hand
Where the truth is stifled
And most are afraid to speak out and take a stand

We live in a world where the youth is consuming drugs
Where poverty and unemployment compels them to become thugs
Where each and every moment there is the threat of violence lurking
Where kids are forced to spend their childhood working

Everyone i meet keeps asking me..
...where is the love?
...where has it disappeared?
And just like the others..
...i simply don't have an answer
Love and peace it seems have become rare commodities now
We mostly find it in books and movies
I find it most in poetry
For unlike the world...poetry doesn't discriminate
Poetry is fair
It gives everyone a chance to shine
It knows no barrier
It knows no borders
It knows no boundaries
It knows no limitations
It aims to please
It aims to entertain
It aims to arouse
It aims to awaken
It aims to inspire
Poetry is what makes life so much more beautiful

I'm but a sailor in the sea of your love
And i'm helplessly and completely drowning in it
I must confess though..
...i haven't seen anything so serene and beautiful ever before
I have never ever felt so much at peace
My heart feels different
It's singing a different tune
My mind feels intoxicated with these flavours i have never tasted before
My soul feels enlightened
My stomach is experiencing a strange tingling sensation
I can feel this rush of incredible energy surging through my veins
For the first time i have truly felt alive
Each and every quality of yours blows me away
Your touch fuels my soul with this uncontrollable burning desire
Your words fill my heart with joy
Your kiss engulfs me with extreme lust and passion
There's so much more of you that is worth exploring
So many facets of you worth knowing
And i intend to do that
But i will take it slow
No need to rush
We've only just begun
For me time will never be a constraint
I'll love you beyond the depths of time
...beyond the barriers of life
...beyond the limitations of existence
...beyond the boundaries of society
I'll love you till infinity and beyond
I'll keep loving you even after i've gone

I wish i could make it easy for you to love me
I know this is a testing time for both of us
I know i'm not an easy person to deal with
But believe me..
...i'm trying for our sake
...i'm trying to make us work
Just bear with me
Please don't give up on 'us'
We've made it through many storms before
I'm sure we can conquer this hurdle as well
Just stay with me baby
Just trust me
I promise i won't let you down
I'll do whatever it takes to keep 'us' going
Just hold my hand and have faith in me...
...that is all i ask

You live long enough in the shadows
You forget what sunlight feels like
Leave the dark behind
Get out in the sun
And bask in it's glory
Feel it's power
Let it warm your soul
Scorch all your insecurities
And burn your fears
Embrace it's energy
Feel it surging through your veins..
...like an intoxicating drug
Let it heal all your wounds
Feel yourself burning with renewed vigour and motivation
And a new desire
You are now a part of the sun
Learn to shine like it
Don't let any darkness stop you
Pierce through the clouds of gloom
And shine a light of hope
A light of audacity
A light of courage
A light that never gives up
No matter how adverse the situation

There is no love in this world which is as pure and powerful as a mother's for her child.No one can ever know a person the way his or her mother knows that person...a mother takes care of her child in a way only she can...a mother is unique in every single way...love her,cherish every moment you spent with her,respect her and try not to judge her...take her blessings..they will take you ahead in life.

When there is a storm and you stand in front of a tree,if you look at it's branches..you swear it will fall but if you watch the trunk...you will see it's stability.
-The Revenant

'So..you're physically weak,you're not good looking,you have no friends,you don't own a car,you ain't got much money either...well what do you have then?',X asked

'I have got something which is priceless and more than makes up for the lack of the above',Y said.

'Well what is that?',X asked.

'A non-negotiable soul',came the reply.

As vibrant as the rainbow
As nurturing as a mother
As powerful as the sun
As beautiful as the moon
As brave as a soldier
As resilient as a spider
As soothing as the sound of waves crashing against the shore
As serene as dewdrops falling from the morning leaves
As  sweet as honey
As powerful as death
As bright as the constellations in the night sky
This is how i picture love
Love…it’s not just a four letter word
It’s a way of life
It is what we live for
It is what we hope for
It is what we all want
In this polluted and corrupted world
It is the one of the few sources of oxygen
It creates an impact so powerful that the soul feels alive like never before
True love never gives up…
It fights till the end…
So if you truly love someone
Express it to that person
If you are having any problems with your partner
Work them out
Don’t let them destroy what you have created
Fight for your love
Don’t let it get away
It's the best gift life can give you
Cherish it
Treasure it
Protect it
'Coz it is the only thing that will always stay with you and support you regardless of anything

Virtually all of us judge people.We judge people on the basis of their appearance,nationality,sexuality,financial status,religion,the lives they lead behind closed doors...but just think about it..when we don't want ourselves to be judged..why do we judge others?...in the eyes of God,we are all equal.We all bleed red,we all suffer in some way or the other,we all cry,we all have moments when we feel weak and helpless,we all have moments of bliss...we all are different in many ways but also similar in so many ways...Judge not lest ye judged.

Once more into the fray
Into the last good fight i'll ever know
Live or die on this day
Live or die on this day
-The Grey

Sometimes I wish I could revisit my childhood…….back then things were so much simpler.I didn’t have to worry about career,job prospects, pay scale, having that someone special in my life, dividing my time between friends and family. Back then I didn’t have any pre-conceived notions about life. I just took each day as it came.I lived in the present without worrying much about the future. My favourite ice-cream or toy would make me happy….playing cricket in the field for hours or laughing and fooling around with my friends made me happy..watching ******-dooby doo or Tom and Jerry made me happy..listening to stories narrated by my dad made me happy…now life just feels so crazy and monotonous…those days of fun and frolic have long disappeared…i am constantly being misunderstood…each and every step I take is constantly scrutinized and questioned..it’s like I’ve lost all freedom…the burden of expectations and the pressure of life at times just gets to me…I feel like screaming my lungs out and drowning in the ocean.I sometimes look in the mirror and can’t recognize myself…who am i?..what have i become?..i miss my old self...the person i once was...I so miss my childhood.

I want to be your canvas
A canvas made of flesh and blood if you like
Paint me with your love
Fill me with the most exquisite of colours
Smear me with your kisses
Streak my skin with the colour of your skin
******* lips
Then move over to my hips
Play with my hair
Tease me
Spread your aroma all over me
Make me forget myself even if for a few moments
You have done many paintings before
But tonight i want you to make me your masterpiece

It's funny how you really get to know someone when you're alone with them.It's like you lose all your fears and are able to interact with him or her in a more personal manner.Quite often among other people you don't quite get the opportunity to have a proper conversation with someone.Also many a times the person isn't able to be himself or herself among a crowd and when you're alone with him or her you get to see a new or unknown side of his or her personality which surprises you.

In life you will come across these dark days
But don't be scared..
It is just a passing phase
It will test your resolve
In a solution of self-doubts it will try to make you dissolve
You gotta be strong
And prove your problems wrong
These dark days will make you wanna lose hope
But you've got to hang on to the rope
..of faith,hope and belief
'Coz that is what will help you get through that challenging time
For losing these three attributes and giving up is truly a crime
Remember after winter..there's always spring
So don't let any obstacle stop you...
...fight it out and keep doing your thing