Listening to your voice gives me an 'eargasm'
Being touched by you gives me an '******' (and not just my body but also my soul)
Thinking about you gives me a 'mindgasm'
Sometimes i can't decide as to which feeling i like the best

My room is a kingdom of mess
I've been told many times to clean it up
But truth be told...
...my life isn't any different from my room
Messy,chaotic and way too much stuff going on
So now i don't really bother much with all that cleaning up
I hope that things will improve
I do yearn for moments of happiness
But with every passing day all the good things just seem like a distant dream
And slowly but surely i feel myself drifting away into a state of oblivion
I can feel myself getting ****** into a blackhole of nothingness
Each and every day i'm dying a little
I'm not sure how much more stress the old ticker can take
My mind is the verge of an explosion
I won't lie...
...of late i so crave death
But it just doesn't come
One more breath
One more day of walking on fire
One more day of being misunderstood
One more day of being hated
One more day of loneliness
One more day of my hopes being crushed
Death, are you listening?...
...have some mercy on me
You can take me to hell
I'm ready to suffer there
I have no good deeds to show
So i probably deserve it
But please take me from this world
I dread waking up now

When you have an issue with someone or vice-versa, try talking to that person and aim to sort it out...don't wait for the other person to come to you..having an ego the size of an ostrich's egg is not going to help matters...you have to abandon your ego...if even after talking to the person things don't work out then so be it...but at least make the effort.

The May rains are coming down
A smile has replaced my ugly frown
The smell of fresh earth is hovering in the air
I'm experiencing a feeling so serene and rare
What a relief from the sweltering heat!
Ah!...look a rainbow has come out to greet
The birds are taking shelter in my window sill
In a beautiful weather like this all i want to do is close my eyes,take in all of the magic around me and just chill

Grandmas are all about warm hugs,loving talks and great advice
And they invariably can cook the most amazing of meals
Growing up,i used to look forward to the weekends
For weekends were all about visiting grandma's place and having an absolute blast
Grandmas truly are special
Sometimes i feel that a person can learn more from his grandparents than he can from his parents

They all said he'd fail
Never gave him a chance
And look at them now
All queuing up like thirsty crows
Just to be a part of his success dance

Funny how some people's perception of you changes once you succeed
They start treating you differently
Up until the point you are succeeding ... i.e. your struggle period
They don't even give a **** about you
And then post your success they start acting like they're your best friends!

2 points i want to highlight i here:-
1)Never let anyone's negativity stop you from you achieving your goals..those haters can say all they want...just shut them out and focus on your goals.
2)Those who are with you during your bad times are your real friends and not those chameleons who start gathering around you when you succeed.

Criticism without proper pointing out of the flaws and suggestions for improvement
Is like telling someone that he is wrong
But not telling him as to why or where he is wrong
And what he can do to rectify the wrong

Happiness and sadness...both are equally powerful sources of inspiration for writing
Some are good with happiness
While some are champions at sadness
Of course there are those who are good with both...
...but they are a bit rare
I haven't seen or met a lot of them
But whenever i do meet someone like them, i must say...i kinda' envy them
But not in a bad way
They actually inspire me

It's been close to 6 months
I'm trying so hard to forget you
But i just can't
Your memories are stuck to my mind like a strong web
And the more i explore those areas the more it hurts
You reside in every part of my existence
And every effort to delete you from my memory is met with strong resistance
What do i do?
I simply don't seem to have no clue
I wish there was a way to ease the pain
Slowly but surely i'm going insane
I've tried medication
I've tried drinking
I even visited a shrink
But my mind just keeps wandering towards thoughts of you
Wherever go i just keep seeing you
I'm begging you
Please just leave my mind
Please leave me alone
I don't want you anywhere near me
I don't want to have nothing to do with you
Just release me from these shackles of your thoughts
Please....i beg you

I had dreamed of this day for many years
I didn't think it would happen
But i secretly hoped that it would
At last...We are finally together!!!
You ask me as to when did i start loving you
Truth be told...
...It's not just now,Darling
I've loved you since the beginning of time
I have taken many a glances at you
I have admired you
I have always kept you in my prayers
We met on a few ocassions
I often saw you at the market place
You were never really noticed me
But it's not your fault
Perhaps i wasn't competent enough to express my love for you
You see...i was apprehensive of the outcome
I didn't think i'd be able to take a rejection
What if i lost my respect in your eyes?
All these thoughts constantly discouraged me from expressing my feelings for you
But then one day i somehow gathered some courage and poured my heart out in front of you
And it worked!!!
Now that we are together...
...i feel so blessed and happy
I can't thank God enough for bringing you into my life
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me
I know i can be a bit of a ***** at times
But thanks for bearing with me and sticking by me
I would be nowhere without you

Your life is impacted not just by the things you do but also by the things you don't do.

You say that you love me
So why don't your actions suggest the same?
All you do is make me cry
And yet you put on me the blame

I don't want no gifts
I don't want no fancy stuff
All i want is a little respect
I think that's not too much to expect

Mean what you say
With my heart...don't just play
You keep hurting me every other day
And make it so difficult for me to stay....
...in this relationship

So please stop hurting me
Love me like you used to
You weren't like this before
Baby...what's wrong with you?

Every night i slip through the sands of time
And escape to the world of dreams
Only to be rudely pushed back into the harsh world of reality the next morning
And i just hate it

Be it big or small
Peaceful or chaotic
Simple or lavish
There is simply no place like home
There is no substitute for it
The feeling that you get when after a long time you enter your home and smell that familiar smell..ah..so good!
And the feeling you get when hit the bed...sheer sense of relief and joy

It's about 4 a.m.
The early morning sky is painted orange
Man...it's magical!!!
I just can't take my eyes off it
There is just that little ray of light
But the birds ain't waitin'
They have already started their morning flight
A nice cool breeze is blowing all across
Barely anyone on the streets
The beauty and energy all around makes feel so very positive
I stretch my arms and legs
Then close my eyes and take in all of the serene offerings of the early morning
And a little later i walk up to the mosque and offer my morning salah
It's one of the best mornings i've ever seen
I must admit...
...i'm not usually a morning person
But there are certain priceless joys attached to waking up early

Travelling gives you the opportunity to not only discover new places,new cuisines,new cultures and meet new people...most of all it helps you to know yourself better.

Sometimes the attitude of some people towards single persons baffles me...it's like being single is a crime!!!....The notion that a single person is a lonely person is a misconception...just because you're alone doesn't mean you're lonely or unhappy..There's certain good things in being alone.You get time to do the things you want to do, like study and plan...discover yourself....figure out what you want to do..sure you can’t have romantic candle-lit dinners or hold hands and take a walk or be physical with a person, I mean beyond a flirtationship...i'm not saying that one doesn't want a special somebody in their lives...having a special someone who loves you and supports you is indeed an incredible feeling..but it's not like a single person is doomed...believe it or not he too has some great moments in his life...may be his time for love hasn't arrived yet...and i always believe that it is better to be with no one than to be with the wrong one...a lonely night is far better than a morning of heartbreak and tears.

They say as you age you grow wiser
Things become much more clearer to you
Well..i'm not sure
In fact with every passing year i seem to be getting more confused
Where am i going?
What do i want?
Who's with with me?
Still so many unanswered questions like the above
The more i'm trying to grasp life
The more it seems to be slipping out
However amidst all the chaos and confusion...
...two changes have occured in me of which i'm pretty proud...
1)I'm a much more calmer person now..i don't usually react to any sort of provocation or unfair criticism..in fact i generally do not get angry unless and until really pushed
2)I'm now good(or at least try to be)to the people i strongly detest..it's not like they are my friends...but i certainly don't treat them like enemies

In order to experience joy and fully understand it's value
You must taste sorrow
Remember if it's sorrow today
It will be joy tomorrow

In order to understand the true meaning of success
You must fail
Remember if you're struggling to swim today
Someday on a magnificent ship...
...you will proudly sail

I sit and count the hours
Waiting for my final time to come
I ask myself-
'Have i done any good deeds?'
I'm not sure...may be some
I've mostly lived a life of sin
All i wanted was at any cost to win
I cheated
I betrayed
I stooped so low
That no longer my face i could show
It's never too late to change they said
Unfortunately when i took that decision i was virtually dead
Death was already on it's way
Now i no longer have no say
If only i had realized earlier that i was on the wrong path
Alas!...it's too late now
I shall have to face the aftermath..
...of my bad deeds
As my eyes prepare to close one final time
I just wish i had a little more time

Sometimes you realize the importance of a person in your life only when you need that person the most or when that person is gone from your life or when that person is no longer alive...that person had been there in front of you all the time..supporting you,loving you,always being there for you...all that person wanted was a little love and some of your time..but you just overlooked that person the entire time...later you feel remorseful...but sometimes it's just too late.

If you can't convince or persuade
Don't force
You have absolutely no ****** right to do that

Never depend on anyone for your happiness or success
'Coz if they ever betray you or hurt you
It can get really difficult to find a way out of that mess

Never keep a heavy load on your heart
You are depressed or upset
You feel hurt
Or bothered by something
Just let it out
Share it with someone you trust
And who you believe will understand you
There's no point in keeping it suppressed within you
It will only suffocate you
Once you let it out
You will feel much lighter
And better

Two things about me which probably make me a candidate fit for the mental asylum:-
1)I suffer from a compulsive book buying disorder..i.e. every single time i step into a book store,i simply have to buy a book..i just cannot leave empty-handed.
2)Since the year 2006,i've kept a record in my diary of every single movie i've watched in a movie theatre.

A great future doesn't require a great past.

The desert hadn't witnessed rain for ages
The camels,the bedouins,every grain of sand
...they no longer hoped for any miracle
However there was something different about today
As i was making my way across the vast dunes of sand
I could feel a certain amount of excitement in the air
I could see the skies were bringing their 'A' game on
Dark and black...
...that's the look they had
It seemed as if after ages the skies had finally woken up
And decided that today wasn't going to be just another day in the desert
Today was going to be different
Today was going to be special
Then i saw the lightning
This was followed by shrieks of thunder
And finally the skies poured their heart out
And as the first drop kissed the desert
I could feel every single grain of sand dancing with joy
The desert hadn't tasted such happiness for many years
Today i had become a part of something special
Prior to this experience i had never believed in miracles
Today as i experienced the most magnificent miracle ever
I couldn't help but think to myself-
'Sometimes miracles do occur.'

I sometimes visualize the day of my burial
Covered with white cloth
Ready to be taken to the burial ground
There lies my dead body
Only if my soul could tell how it feels right now
Some genuinely grieve for me
Others are there just as a formality
No sooner am i dead
People start dissecting my life
They start analyzing me
Discussing what i did while i lived
Some say-'look at him..he never did no good deed...it looks like he is going to hell.'
Some are kind and say-'no he wasn't a bad person...may be he might get a little place in heaven...God is merciful.'
Some say-'This guy never did anything substantial in his life...he didn't have many friends...no woman in his life...he was lonely and cut-off from the world...all he did was write and give advice.'
And then when i'm finally buried
They talk about me for a day or two
And then they all carry on with their lives as if nothing ever happened(Exception to this will be a few close persons in my life.)
For many...i will be just another addition to the dead persons column of the world
I never did mean anything to them
And that's ok
As long as i have a few persons who will genuinely miss me...
And remember me for the right reasons...
...I'm good

I was pretty sure that i was gonna lose myself in the chaos and mess of the world
Fortunately i found you
And got something better to get lost in
And truth is...
....ever since you've become my world
The world seems like a much better place
Thanks to you
My entire existence now feels fresh and brand new
My perspective towards life in general has changed
I can now see the beauty all around
I am much more positive
I've now learnt to focus on the good
I find a sense of joy in everything i do

Once the sea said to the well-
'Look at me..i'm so big and powerful..i'm grand while you're small...don't you sometimes wish that you were a sea?'

The well replied-
'It is true that you are big and powerful...but i think i'd rather remain small and stay sweet than get big and become salty.'

If you put a low price tag upon yourself
How do you expect others to value you?

We are no longer together
I know i've lost you forever
And even though it hurts like hell
There is something that i want to tell-

"In the years that we were together
I didn't just find love
I found myself
And that's the most important thing that i will have ever found
So thank you for that.."

I admit that i will miss you
Oh...how i still want to kiss you
I wish you were here to hold me on those lonely nights
But then you've made up your mind
You don't wish to rewind
Just one last request.....
.....can i have just this one last dance?
....one final moment of feeling your hands around my waist
....and your eyes looking into mine
....just this one final moment of togetherness before the sun finally sets
...while we listen to James Blunt singing...

... 'Goodbye my lover,goodbye my friend
I guess this is it...this is the end
And as you move on,remember me
Remember us and all that we used to be '

The first step towards learning from your mistake
Is accepting that you've made a mistake
Be bold enough to admit your mistakes
And smart enough to learn from them

Every face tells a story
It's just that with the passage of time one is able to teach oneself as to how to fake it

Patience is not the ability to wait but it is the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.

Ignoring or overlooking a reality
Doesn't make it any less real
If possible try and prepare yourself for the reality
So that it becomes a bit easy for you to accept it when you finally face it

When i look at kids all around
It constantly reminds me
As to what a good person i once was
Untainted by the filth of society
Uncorrupted mind
Free mind
A mind which didn't think or analyse too much
A mind which didn't try to make sense of everything
Soul intact
Then like everyone else i underwent the metamorphorsis...
...i grew up
And things were no longer the same
The society had pulled me into its ***** mess
I had lost my sense of innocence
The purity of my soul was tarnished
The devil got a big chunk of it
I was no longer a fan of light
Darkness is what started to like
Perhaps when i saw the dark side of life
It affected me adversely
And i've been trying to recover ever since
I keep telling myself that i'm better than this
But somehow i just can't seem to find my old self..
...The 'me' who had goodness in him
I'm fighting the world
I'm fighting my inner demons
But i seem to be failing
With every passing day i can feel myself falling into this abyss of chaos and hopelessness
The pressures of society
The burden of expectations
I'm a grown up
I'm expected to do the right things
I'm supposed to be sensible
I'm constantly judged
I honestly don't know how i've made it through the jungle of life and reached this far
Seems only like yesterday
When i was a small boy
Enjoying life
Not worrying about nothing
And here i am today
With a bruised and battered soul
And a fragile body
Life has virtually drained me out
I mean...have you seen the world lately?
It's a freaking circus
A heartless monster
The competition is unreal
People will do almost anything for the sake of success
Even betray and backstab you
When i was a kid i always thought that life was all good and happy
And the world was such a beautiful place
And then when i grew up...
....i realized how heartless both life and the world can be at times
At times when i look at kids
I envy them
They are in such a good phase of their lives
Sometimes i wish i never grew up
I was better off as a kid

Be careful whom you give your heart to

Unlike an object...the heart once broken

Cannot be glued back together

We are inseparable by love
Insatiable by night
Holding you in my arms and kissing you
Is such a delight

Feeling your skin against mine
Is a feeling so divine
When i'm with you
There is no relevance of time
'Coz it just stops

When the moonlight pierces through the window and shines upon your **** form
It just makes my whole body go warm
I want to taste every inch of you
I hope you wanna do the same too

Your sweet lips
Your beautiful hips
They are all driving me crazy
Your beauty is surreal
Your *** appeal is unreal
What can i say?...
...I simply cannot help but sin
When i see your naked skin

The timing has to be right between a man and a woman
Otherwise even something with potential cannot materialise

Although i had just met her
But from the moment i saw her
And later when i interacted with her
I knew i'd never meet anyone like her ever again
She was one of a kind...
...full of life
....a positive attitude towards life
....very helpful and kind in nature
...always with a smile on her face
....and mentally very strong
She didn't just capture my eyes,heart and mind
She took over my soul
With her i was having the best time of my life
For the first time i had actually met this guy named 'happiness'
It was all going well
And then one fine day
She just vanished
Left without a trace
I looked for her in every single place i could
But i just never saw her again
She left such a strong impression upon me that i don't think i'll ever forget her
And till this very day she resides in every part of my existence
I miss her really bad
She taught me to live life in the real sense
Life doesn't feel right without her
I wish she'd come back to me
Without her my heart feels like this huge vacant space of nothingness
There is such a big hole in my soul
I don't feel like living
But i don't wish to die without seeing her again

I have always loved you
Even at times when i hated you
Even during the times when i was upset with you
You would always wander around in my mind
Teasing me
Playing with my head
Running wild like a kid on his first run
We fight so often
We have had our moments of doubts
We have had tough times
But inspite of that..it's hard to imagine my existence without you
You are the constant flow of blood rushing through my veins
The beat of my heart
The force that keeps me going
The inspiration that helps me to fight
And if were to lose you
Then i would lose myself
We have made it this far
And i believe we will make it till the end of time
I promise to never leave your hand
Just hold on to me

Dear life....
...just for a day i don't wish to be misunderstood
...just for a day i don't wish to be judged
...just for a day i don't wish to be backstabbed
...just for a day i wish to be loved
...just for a day i wish to forget about my problems
...just for a day i wish to experience some moments of happiness
...just for a day i wish to feel at peace with myself
...just for a day i wish to truly live
Do you think you could grant me all of these wishes?
Or is it too much to ask?

While there is nothing wrong in hoping for a bit of luck
Bit depending solely on luck is dangerous and stupid
Work hard and try and make your own luck
'Coz there is no substitute for hardwork
While luck is uncertain
The rewards attached with hardwork are almost always certain