I love you so..

so much that I would do anything for you

Anything for you to live the happy life you deserve.

I love you so

So much that I long to see your eyes glisten with content because you Finally got what you deserved.

I love you so

So much that I want you to be happy

Even if it is not with me.

She says that she's a beautiful disaster
But she's really just a disaster.

She knows she's on the wrong path.

She can't do a thing about it.

She's set in her ways;

With her beautiful scars
And her lonely eyes

She knows that she's a disaster,
But a "beautiful disaster" seems a little less sad.

Blackened souls & ****** wrists
Runny mascara & fake smiles

She waits for the day

Waiting for a chance to be
All that she is
And all that she was

Her chance..
It never comes.

She goes her room
And ends it all.

I couldn't help falling in love with you.

It was out of my control.

Do you think I would choose this kind of love?

Stressful and upsetting,
Lonely and sad,
Frustrating and irritating.

You honestly think I would choose this love?

Because i would.

Every single time.

Because its our love.

For every stressful and upsetting moment, there's two happy and loving moments.

Every lonely and sad moment leads to a warm embrace followed by a soft kiss.

The frustrating and infuriating moments make us appreciate when we do agree.

I would choose our love over and over again because it's passionate. It's wonderful. It's loving.

But most importantly, it's ours.

When it's there, it's there.

Firey passion
Intense love
All of it.

It's there.

But when it's not there, it's gone.

Cute mannerisms become annoying habits

Awkward silences and nothing to say become a norm

You feel lost an empty around a person who used to make you feel whole and complete.

You begin to watch your steps, bite your tongue, and hold you breath because you Never know if it's going to be a good day or a bad one.

All you can do is hope for a good day.

I always thought forever was something that was,
               well, forever.

As I grew older, I began to wonder what forever really meant.

I thought about this quite often.

More often than not, actually.

what is forever? I would ask myself time, and time again.

I sought an answer that no one had.

Still to this day,
     eight years later,

I do not have an answer.