I don't want  an apology

and I don't need your sympathy.

See I love the way you look at me

but hate the way you don’t see me.

I love it when u listen

but hate that you don't hear me.

Your confident but selfish

and Im strong but stubborn.

I love the way you hold me

but hate the way you don’t feel me.

I hate to cry in front of you

but I bet you enjoy it.

I didn't know what else to do

so I'd like to dedicate this all to you.

Well here's a grain of salt

and I'd like to say this is my fault

but it took two to play the game.

I bet you’d like me to get all the blame

but baby you brought me into this.

Its funny when I say your name

Id like to laugh in spite of it.

In spite of all the *******.

I hope you find some comfort

in this sad life you have in mind.

Baby your running out of time

running out of words.

You cant fake me into this

you really are absurd.

I don’t believe your flat out the lies.

Baby I can read u like a book

and it only takes one look.

Your not to hard to figure out

your really not a mystery.

but I guess its time to say good bye

to all of are history.

Id like to believe that you loved me

I'd like to say it proudly.

I gave an arm in leg and every thing that I was

and this is what I get from you

a bleeding heart in two.

I hope you can forget me when your lying next her.

but I hope you get the burden

and carry on the weight

that we were once something

even though its something you wish you could hate.

You can't deny the truth

you run and run and run from it

but baby its catching up.

In spite of what you've done to me

baby you are my only one.

It’s hard to live this cruel life

now that we are done

I guess to you it was all fun

and I'd like to end it with a silver shiny gun.

My love, my dear, how have we come this far?
Indeed, it only seems like yesterday.
Your light, so bright, my everlasting star,
Has reached my eyes and touched me where I lay.
No other star out there can shine like you.
Illuminate me, make me light and fair.
I need to feel your glow to make me new.
No scene of cities; buildings can't compare.
For you alone, I gaze up at the sky.
You shimmer, sparkle, send a smile to me.
You glow for me alone, I wonder why.
You're simply more than I will ever be.
     So won't you stay, my love and shine so bright;
     Forever glowing, lighting up my nights.

Hate is a strong word
that's why I choose to use it..
It explains exactly how I feel about you

A childhood destroyed
Happiness hindered

Grew up calling you mom,mommy, mama,mother
Treated you like there was no other
Showed you love only son could offer

I asked for a fish, u gave a snake
Looked for love but you showed me the stick.
Oh,How well I knew that stick
Asked for a warm bed and a pillow
All I received was a coldfloor and a Brick

But still my love for you stayed strong.. Even when told I don't belong..
Heart burnt so many times it no longer feels sore
You make it look like ****** cared for the jews more
A home with no love, a "family" of individuals..
What more could a minor ask for?

I want to fight fire with fire
Smoke blunt get higher and higher
An eye for an eye
Take your life and give up my place in the sky
But I can't,its not me.. Sure sometimes I see people get hit by cars and all I can think is how lucky they are to die

I hate you..
But I can't blame you..
As much as I write wrong about you I know I can't never right the wrongs about you..
Hate is a strong word..
That's why I choose to use it..

You need to change
.

From behind a door
Around a corner
Or in plane sight
you can't scare me
no matter how hard you try
I do not know you
Neither you do me
But yet you jump to try to startle
but fail perfectly

the wind does not howl.
the sun does not shine.
Concrete paste thickens,
and into thought we dive.
persecution of the divided ,
well managed,
we lie.

Forgetting what is forgotten
Ungripping reality
The light of laughter all but lost
In the darkness of memories
You were for me
but only in my waking sleep
Bittersweet release
of love unworned
In darkness I weep
For newly sprung wings
Awkwardly I leap
From the precipice of my dreams
Caught between the wind
The stars and the sea
You are for me
In living dreams we meet
Generously forgetting
Love unworned
Being in your keep
at once I find peace

I guess
It's my duty to express
Unpopular opinions
But
The only man I want
Leaving things
In my stockings
Doesn't wear red
He doesn't have a beard
And he's not fat
He's my Guy
With top shelf
On sale
For half price

I only know
Two things about
mistletoe
1. I've never parted
My mouth inside of
Its shadow
2. It would probably
**** to smoke

I don't need no fancy christmas trees
With lights, and stars, and hypocrisies

I've got hybrid harlots creeping
Down into the pink of
My cigarette kissed lungs

December lungs shatter by the blow of a bitter morning,
and while I’ve never understood mourning,
I’m not happy you’ve gone.

                        Pipe tobacco
                        War stories
                        Stern kindness
                        Fresh scrambled eggs
                        Read-along cassette books
                        Railroad walks at dusk

            I don’t remember much,
            but what I do…

                        I’ll hold close to my heart
                        until you meet your grandson again.

Glassy floors, alone
Sky leaks all down the windows
Still no plane docking

I will be okay
If for Christmas I get what I want,
I don't want an iPhone, those new boots or any of that infomercial junk.
I want to be together again,
I want to be a family,
But I don't think that is something Santa can bring me.
It used to be okay, I mean, it was never great,
But it was definitely better than this.
You were supposed to be family, always there for me,
You used to be there for me and I want that again,
But I don't think that is something Santa can bring me.
You haven't talked to me in over a month and I wonder,
Where are you Daddy, why haven't you called me?
Call me, Dad
That is what I want for Christmas.
Forget those neon guitar picks
Because that is something Santa can bring me.
I want you to call and be honest
Honest
And to be honest... that is something Santa can't bring me.