You used to be a dream,
A candle, tall and thin, still aflame from your previous owner and user,
your queen and your abuser,
your victim and your accuser.

I knew the roads of your past with her so well;
how could I not, when she was the air you breathed?
Your exhale was her name,
your eyes glazed at the thought of her sweet laugh,
and I was her in your arms if the lights were off and the clock had already sent the princess home. 

We never were, and now I am happy of that.
You could never have spoken my name as sweetly as you do hers.
You could never have remembered the freckles on my cheeks as perfectly as you do hers.
You could never have been inside of my soul as you are in hers. 

I think of you now and it's as if I am also a candle,
small and quiet,
the barest light,
hidden from most and content to be so.
A king will find me
and light me
as your queen did for you,
setting you on fire for the world and for love and for haste,
for youth turned to memories of candy and salt. 

Until then, I sleep.

Anxiously hypothetical,
These dreams that surround me
Are glued together with the flow of time.

They strain the conscious dimension,
Which both separates and connects
The multitudes of I’s,
To flex and bend
Until they touches themselves at every point;
Illuminating to us whispers of infinitude.

As we move farthest from the light
And sink the deepest within ourselves,
Twisted creatures aggress upon us
And glittering sirens beckon us to their embrace.

With the splintering light of morning,
A first gasp pulls you from the water
And troubled footsteps wash away
The glories and nuisances
Of that surreality whose path you walked.
Separated from the present,
by a single moment in a single thought.

I’m flooring my feet to control my balance,

my head is wrapped up in paper mache,

hiding my fears with tears,

say something to me I wanna know,

if there’s something,

you have to show me,

I’m doing just fine,

I’m still standing,

I’m feeling okay,

Not sure of my way,

or my direction,

but I,

I will be fine,

I’ll conquer me,

and all of my faults,

so just hear me out,

rescue me if I ask,

tell me secrets,

and help hide my past,

say something to me I’m trying to hold on,

I can’t help but place everything as being wrong,

my life is shattered into a million pieces,

Lord, God, help me I’m praying to you,

Say something don’t give up on me,

Give me reason,

to help me believe,

my faith is shaking,

my legs are rough,

say something,

so I’ll be fine.

Love at first sight
Wasn't for me
Until it was

Days gone bye
That I can never
Exchange
Still haunt me,
Stalk me
In the still
Dark forest
Of my sleep
Weaving ‘Tween
The trees of memory
Like late
Morn’  fog
Leaving
Trails in the darkness
Of my long
Forgotten pain
I stay lost
Blissfully
In the dark
Damp of night

In cold and bitter dark

Madness falls like rain

The muddied slopes of reason

Slowly slip away

Gentle momentum

In falling

Gains

And brings the mountain

Tumbling down

They say she was beautiful
And they regret the past tense
In which they speak
They say she was beautiful
And I try to remember
If it’s the truth
They say she was beautiful
That she was beautiful
Until she was no longer anything at all
And now I am here
And I cannot fill her place
For she walked in the sun
And the light burns my skin
And she danced on the wind
But I cannot fly
And she sang to the stars
But I have no voice
For I am just the broken home
In which she used to live
I am nothing but a shell
Empty
Because she is gone
They say she was beautiful
But now she is dead
And I am all that is left