Midnight

Midnight Mar 2018

If

If hearts were made of glass
Mine would have been shattered
Into a million pieces by now
Thanks to you

If lies were poison arrows
My chest would display them
While you shot at me
From your articulate mouth

If trust was a golden ring
You would have melted it down
And burned me
With its fire

If your definition of love
Actually had some meaning
Maybe, just maybe
I would have made it

#what #if #i #was #you #wanted #instead

Midnight Mar 2018

Everything

So sweet
So tender
Your hands
On my skin

Tracing
My collarbones
Smoothing
My hair

Your lips
Softly brushing
Breathing
On mine

So warm
Your chest
Pressed firmly
Onto mine

This time
I'm right
I feel
Complete

This time
I feel
The beauty,
Everything.

And this makes up for all the times I felt nothing, all the times I thought something about me was broken. I was trying all the wrong places, but this time I found the right one. Thank you for helping me feel it all. Everything.

#everything #poetry #complete #right

Midnight Feb 2018

Bad Boy

You wear leather
As dark as your heart
You speak words
As sharp as a knife

You smell of cigarettes
And sometimes cologne
You wreak of Jack Daniel's
But mostly depravity

You lurk in the shadows
And prey on the young
You desire a girl
But only one night

You tell her your lies
To trick her to stay
And then like a coward
You run away

I've been there, done that.
I was once that girl, but not anymore.

#bad #boy

Midnight Feb 2018

Nothing

Your naked body
Pressed on mine
We kissed

I thought that
I should feel
Something

Thrill, euphoria
Lust, love
Or bliss

But no
I felt
Nothing

And I'm very sorry, I don't know what's wrong with me. You are everything I have ever wanted, but for some reason touching you leaves me blank. I feel nothing. And I am sorry.

#nothing #feeling

Midnight Feb 2018

Not Me

~The problem with me
Is that I always try
To force my square self
Into your circular expectations~
*
To quiet my voice
To not speak my mind
To order a salad
Instead of a steak
Cause god forbid
I'd gain some weight
Because god FORBID
I be anything but straight
And all for what?
All for YOU
And what do you do?
You treat me like dirt
And spit in my face
You tell me that I am
A horrible disgrace
Well, maybe the problem
Isn't with me
Maybe you're the one
Who's got a problem.
Not me.

I want to live my life how it is MEANT to be

#not #me #life #lgbt

Midnight Feb 2018

Sip

You worship me
I know you do
Don't lie
You don't fool me

Late at night
You kiss me
You drink me in
You ******* sweetness

Sometimes we talk
I tell you lies
Like how pretty your eyes are
Or how you can actually dance

Best thing is
You believe me
Which makes you hate me in the morning
But you always come back in the night

#lover #drink #sip

Midnight Feb 2018

It's Fine

Her story is always the same
She tells me all her lies
She claims to think I'm perfect
And I believe her every time

Alone at night she calls
And I always run her way
She uses me for her selfish wants
And leaves me begging her to stay

I know I'm second place
But at this point I don't mind
I worship the ground she walks on
And her using me is fine

#lies #used #selfish #fine