actions speak
louder
than words

you wonder
why i'm
speechless

pl ea s e

d on’ t

l e av e

m e

al on e

t oni g ht

everything i feel for you,
is a contradiction.

i hate that i love you,
my sweet addiction.

slow mornings,
soft lights.
easy touches,
sleepless nights.

steady breaths,
messy hair.
heavy eyelids,
cool air.

side-ways smiles,
delicate skin.
hushed voices,
my morning sin.

i’m afraid
when the day comes
for someone to protect my heart
too many walls of defense
will be built
high and mighty

i know i‘m not perfect,
i know i say the wrong things sometimes,
and i know i’m not always good at listening,
but could you tell me
what’s wrong?

i can try to be perfect,
i can continue trying to say the right things,
and i can be a good listener,
just please
what’s wrong?

that pain in your eyes cuts at me,
like the blade on the kitchen counter.
please talk to me.
i’m here for you.
what’s wrong?

i care about you,
i can’t see you in this state and not worry.
please,
talk to me,
i will listen.

we can go through this together,
you and i.
you can finally take off that mask that you wear.
i won’t laugh at your weakness,
and i would never hurt you.
please,
just please tell me...
                                WHAT’S WRONG?

they say they will treat you better
but this is yet to be proven

i am in love with your caring embrace,
complex mind and gorgeous face,
around you, my heart starts to race,
feelings for you could never be erased.

when we met, everything was incredible.
but nothing ever stays the same.
our loved ones always change over time.
we have only ourselves to blame.

it is never easy to move on,
and never simple to let go.
it is hard to give you up because
you are the only one i truely know.

it hurts so bad; i cannot even explain
how worthlessly empty you made me feel.
but please, let me wake up tomorrow
and find out none of this is real.

8:03am
“happy valentine’s day baby”

1:26pm
“stop texting me”

3:51pm
“don’t force love”

5:57pm
“i don’t love you like i used to”

6:09pm
“we can still be friends”

he's not going to like all of you, idiot.
you're lucky he even liked any of you in the first place.