You'd think by now I'd fix the flaw
I'm not wasting time
I'm never minding
The falsified feelings that were spawned
I'm getting over
And letting go
I think of all the ****** things about you
Wrap them around this image
This new vision i will use
Nobody's perfect
Just because your face is flawless
Doesn't mean that you'll get everything you want
Redefine my purpose
Just because my place is haunted
Doesn't mean ill let your ghost walk through these walls
I'm getting over
Letting go
Like you think you wanted
Like you think you know
But who knows about tomorrow
You'll probably change your mind
But by that time I should be fine
Or ill just pretend to push you aside
I see you almost every single day
There's got to be another way
Another wasted phase
A rush of curiosity
So i must not repeat
The words still lurk between
Blue eyes that hypnotized me

"Can we just... Stop?"
I hear the echo
Stretch and wrap around my thoughts
These weren't words that escaped
Your lips
But they were there
Floating around in the air between us
Yes,  
I can stop.
I can stop
Calling you
I can stop
Because although it's taken me longer
Than it should have,
It's
Better
For me to let go
Of everything I thought
You could be

I've already let it go
At least that's what I tell myself
I know she's better off without me
I've always known that
I'm just selfish
That's all there is to it
I see something beautiful
And want to make it mine
Not my place
I'm waiting for the lights to go out
The wind to blow with a fury
Hard enough to make me forget about you
For a little while
The sounds of this house
numbing
The television too loud
The faces longing for my attention
So ill eat something
I'll drink tonight
Expecting to express how pathetic I feel
How pathetic I am
I won't communicate
Not to those that really matter
I rarely smile here
I'm lost in the impossible
Selfish
A fact
I wont even try to fake it anymore
Like it doesn't hurt
Like it doesn't matter
That's what she wants

I cannot stop
Every morning
You're the first thought
Today I almost
Was able
To gain some sort of control
But then you said
Hello
Every day
I'm like a mouse in a maze
Searching for a way
Past these walls
I almost gained
Some sense of reason
I almost conceded my defeat
And then you said
Hello
Hope your day is well
But it's honestly hellish
Soon as I have some hope
You go out of your way to make me jealous
I understand the circumstances
Yet I've offered to sacrifice my life
Just for a chance with
Or an opportunity to explore
But you always shut that door
As soon as I turn the ****
And rob us both of something more
But I don't know how to quit
Your my last thought at night
And this is starting to make me sick
But I don't know how to stop
Quiet my conscience
In the first morning moments
Awaiting those eyes
To pull me out of focus
Displaying your lies
For the whole world to notice
Honesty resides in your mind
But you hide it
If you're waiting for me to
Break free
Without a commitment from you
Then that's an uneven bargain
But I'm willing for you
Yet you say you're still confused
And that should tell me all that I need to know
yet you recapture me in this rapture
And all you had to say was
Hello

She sent a sharp
Question mark
Through my heart

Perhaps,
And I say perhaps
Because I truly do not know
Anymore
I expect
The coming damage
You've trained
My heart to beat to a rhythm
That is no longer
Mine to control
Perhaps
And I say perhaps
Because
It conveys the last
Moment of hope
That I have for us
Your lack of lyrics
Your lack of courage
Your lack of Compassion
Perhaps,  I should have seen this coming
Like this hurricane
That everyone else
Is prepared for,
I'm prepared for
A much worse reckoning
But perhaps,  
I am wrong
Perhaps this storm
Will spare me
Perhaps your heart
Will wake up tomorrow
And know