Slippery pavements.
Icing sugar dusted.
Broken ankle.
Not so sweet.
(C) Livvi

I lie in bed at night
Hoping, praying, begging for sleep
To dream
To ease the nightmare of life
To bind the wounds tight
And forge the scars
Deep, meaningful, reminding
Times of relentless pain
A shadowed past
Overcome to feel the sting
Of a blackness that tickles my skin
Iss a warm welcome to my own mind
My own hell burning in tears
Falling down my cheeks
Tapping the floor
Such a sick harmonious beat
Only to be smothered by my footsteps
Harping in rhythm,
The rhyme of the next day
Of defeat

She can't stop
It's uncontrollable
She just wants to turn it off
She just wants a switch
Turn them off for good
All emotions...
Especially love
For forever
It only causes her pain
Unrequited love
The worst of all
"Friend Zoned"
Backed against the wall
Last attempt
Wasted down the drain
She watches it swirl down
Then drops the knife
Sinking sowly to the ground
No heart + No life
= nothing, empty
and she's finally happy

Do you ever stop to wonder,
as you go about your day,
what if things had been different
or had gone another way?

What if the Sun decided
that it deserved a break,
and instead of shining,
it refused to wake?

What if the happy rainbow
had gone a little pale,
or the grumpy rain cloud
cried tears that never fell?

What if every flower
had burrowed underground,
and every chatty songbird
didn't make a sound?

What if your reflection
couldn't look you in the eye,
and any sound you uttered
just came out as a sigh?

What if no one glanced your way
as you stumbled through the streets,
and no one had a thing to say
when you struggled to speak?

What if everything you knew
had simply gone awry,
and every pleasant hello
was a horrible goodbye?

What if every what if
was a harsh reality
that hasn't happened quite yet,
and was just waiting to be?

I left hoping you'd miss me,
but when I returned,
I was just

a memory.

It was winter;
I remember the sugary frost coating our windows, and the powdered snow piled upon our rusted roof.

I remember how each breath seemed to linger in that closeknit cab,
trapped.
We were both too shy,
so we sat together, enjoying the silence of everything we weren't brave enough to say just yet.

I remember the way your lips trembled then parted
an hour too late,
each careful letter tumbling free
with an awkward grace,
before falling perfectly into place.

I remember how your words tasted against my eager tongue,
raw like the ocean air,
but for the life of me I can't remember
if they were a confession
or a warning.

I was addicted to you;
you were allergic to me.

It took one look to love her,
two years to tell her,
three tries to ask her
if she'd stay with him forever,
five lies to realize
the mistake that he had made,
six drinks and seven pills
to make her go away.