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Dec 2012 Shanell

Victory

Dec 2012 Shanell

Bentley Webb

Victory

Let your worst nightmares come true
As you remember this is all because of you
Let you burn in the pain you have given me
Just as I used too
Let you mourn over your true love
That you pushed away
As I reign in victory
Let your words be forgotten
Just as mine have
Let you drown in the tears I have cried
Just as I do
Let your days be long and weary
Just as mine had grown
As I reign in victory
Forever I though
For me and you
But forever just ended to soon
The sun didn't shine for awhile
But now you'll see my smile
You'll be sorry I know
For letting me go
I tried so hard to make you see
You were the only one for me
But now out story
Is ending fast
Is this it?
Forever?
I'm starting to believe its true
But I know I'll never find anyone like you
But above all these things
I have wished for you
I hope you fall in love
And they leave you cold
Just a you did me
But my darkness hours are through
For now
As I reign in victory

Dec 2012 Shanell

One Day Left

Dec 2012 Shanell

Samuel

One Day Left

each breath fills me to the brim like a
    pitcher of pure sunshine

   ribs
        e x p a n d i n g

                if I do break, it will be
            with the biggest smile on my face

Dec 2012 Shanell

The Mirror

Dec 2012 Shanell

Ayaba Babe

The Mirror

She models
With nothing but her earrings on.
Gold tendrils
Dancing across her shoulders
Lost in a sea of black curls.
Her beauty
Is that of an angel.
A halo
Of sheer radiance
Glistening around her wings.
Her body
Is that of a woman.
Lost
In unmarked territory along open winding passageways that
God
Didn't even create a roadmap for.
She can fly,
He said.
The only eyes to witness were her's and God's
And the eyes gazing back at her through the mirror
Watching her model
With nothing but her earrings on.
Gold tendrils
Dancing across her shoulders
Lost in a sea of black curls.

Dec 2012 Shanell

Question

Dec 2012 Shanell

kMargaret

Question

I want a book to fall into.
I want to be a part of someone else's torment
A head congested with negativity and a distracting certainty of that which I cannot know for sure
Is in itself a truth
I want to tumble into pages
Fall between the words and hang on to a question by the tip of Q's tail
Conquer U, E, S, T, I, like monkey bars
And slide myself through "O" down the rabbit hole
Taking me far away to a land unlike this one
Where a distressed and questioning mind are put at ease
Where rabbits have pocket watches, cats grin, teacakes make you taller and smaller
And boys still want you
Forget the "N" because that would mean we've reached the end of an unanswerable question
One I'm tired of asking.

I wrote this poem when I was going through a really rough time in my life (with a guy, of course). I was anxious and feeling claustrophobic in my own skin. I wanted to do anything to escape what I was feeling and I just remember wanting so desperately to be a part of someone else’s story so that I would stop plaguing myself with these paralyzing questions that I didn’t have the capacity to answer.

Dec 2012 Shanell

What To Keep

Dec 2012 Shanell

C R

What To Keep

If I was told,
Tomorrow,
I was going to die,

If I then said,
“I’d change nothing,”
I would be lying.

I am sure
There are things I would do,
Or refrain from doing.
Things I would say,
Or keep quiet.
Moments I would embrace,
Or hide in.

Though I know,
There are some acts,
Some words,
And some moments,
I would keep.

Like,
Talking to you,
Saying three words,
And hearing them back.

Dec 2012 Shanell

Perfection

Dec 2012 Shanell

Paisley Shook

Perfection

Silver light filters down
  Shining upon nature's cool blanket
  Showing perfection that is so rarely reached
  The ground glows
  Like a promise of things to come
  Coming like the hunter stalking prey
  Leaving paw prints, destruction or art
  An avalanche of warning calls
  From sweet birds, just awakening
  Rising like the morning sun
  That slips over the horizon
  Melting winter's freeze
  Freeing the stream from ice's firm grip

Dec 2012 Shanell

C.S.N

Dec 2012 Shanell

Paige Potts

C.S.N

Concentrate. Stay Calm. No Tears.
As you admit to having no feelings for me.

Dec 2012 Shanell

Unspoken

Dec 2012 Shanell

LightfromWithin

Unspoken

Love: to be said but unspoken
A deep guttural influence over your mind’s endless power
A gift to be hermetically sealed, yet leaking lust whenever possible
A moment where fusion of energy is felt in broad daylight with no scientific explanation

A muddy sense of belonging and purpose that undulates entirely
Go on, give in.
It’s the call to the question that is answered with “this is why you’re made”

Your smile creates a double with lips and lids, light and laughter
Can I ask you how this encompasses atheism?
You’re gorgeous and talented and our opposite beings just want the one thing that’s unexplainable . . .
Once again, how doest that coincide with atheism? Question that.
But really, I can feel your truth and complete love

I just worry because you need to love yourself and believe
You can’t give it all to me.