i wish i didn’t do this every ******* time.

i get so attached so quickly,
you’re the only thing on my mind.

the first thing when i wake up,
and the last thing when i fall asleep.

you’re in everything i see or do.
i cant get you out of my **** head.

but,
our conversations have become rarer and more tense.

and still,
i think of nothing but you.

i can feel you growing distant,
yet i’m still becoming more and more attached to you.

you’re walking away as i’m clinging to the thought of you.

just like every other person.

i haven’t been writing lately,
but i also haven’t been feeling anything.

i’ve been numb for days,
just kind of floating along.

waiting for something to happen,
and wake me up.

today is better,
we're pretending it didn't happen.

ignoring the issue instead of solving it.

we're fine for now but,
like everything.

it will come back to haunt us.

you're like that one song,
the one that,
out of nowhere,
gets stuck in my head.

i can only remember a few of the lyrics,
i haven't heard this song in years.

i remember the beat,
the feeling,
perfectly.

and finally,
after days of having you stuck in my head,
i remember the name of the song.

i listen to it again,
after going so long without.

and i can't stop.

i have so much to say to you,

but i'll never say it,

so instead,

i post it here.