There is a stillness
in the absence of the television’s
jarring advertisements,
lethal dramas,
and fast paced sitcoms
just gnawing away at what little time we have here.
The last hour has been a week
of the relaxation I pursue daily.
Stuck in a world where the constant
is a sprint on a treadmill,
meaningless because I’m moving nowhere,
as others move about a steady change of scenery,
I am beginning to feel hopeless.
Will I get to climb my mountain?
Will I get to trip and skin my knees on the rugged earth?
Will I get to lay on a cliff,
enamored with a view I never thought was meant for me?
Will I feel pain?
Will I feel triumph?
Will I simply get to feel?

These years are getting old.
This faith is turning cold,
fickleness growing bold.

three thousand three hundred and thirty four miles
that's the distance that separates us
somehow it feels like so much more

it hurts to know that you could be so close
in the mere matter of a plane flight
just a few hours and then we'd be together

but it seems impossible now
between my life and yours
sometimes it seems that it might not even be worth it

i get questioned about you by friends
i never know the correct answers
because i've never seen you in person

i've never held you in my arms
i've never played with your hair
i've never had pillow fights with you

and somehow i feel like
i bring you down
and it makes me feel bad

because im nothing important
im just a terrible person
and you're you

an incredible
beautiful
great
person

and if i ever hurt you

im sorry

my favourite flavour
has always been cherry
it’s just sweet and lovely

much like you
you’re funny
and bubbly

you make me smile
and laugh when im
feeling down

if i had to pick
a flower to give you
it’d be a rose

and not just because
it’s your middle name
but because it’s beautiful

and you my dear
are absolutely
breathtaking

but what does it mean
to be in love
with someone like you?

well, i’d say it starts
with inside jokes
and lots of laughter

or maybe spending time
together by watching
livestreams or videos

it quite possibly
could’ve started with
your kindness

you seem impossible
yet
here you are

you’re real
and you exist
and i’m incredibly happy

to call you
the one that
i love