Too many times I’ve fallen
And in those times I felt defeated
The weight of it all
Keeps growing and growing
And I tell myself
Is this what I deserve?

I try to grow
From all the pain
If I just sit by and let time go by
Will I regret what I left pass by?

In the end
One can only take so much

Could this be the end?

Sleeping
The bad dreams
Have me falling off the deep end
When will time resume
And kick off this weekend?

I see the planes fly by
And I just spend my time
Wishing
It’s you or I
What’s my demise
Could it be my feelings

I’ve been running my whole life
What’s the point of it all
Or are we all just dreaming?
I try to decipher this life
I try to comprehend
I try to find a meaning

But this is bigger than                                                             ­                Both you and I

I’m hurting on the cellular level
Where are you,
How are you feeling

I just want to say Goodbye
To my ****** old self
Let them rest, let them rot
They were never part
Let them fall this deep end

My eternal light
Illuminate my path
My eternal meadow
Fill my life of colors
My eternal love
Fill my heart with joy

Because without you
The night is bleak
The fields don’t bloom
And I lose hope

I know you seek warmth
From this cold world
I know you seek meaning
To this dull void
The ennui is getting old
And as we try to move along
We get bored

I grasp to reality
Like my life depends on it
I grasp to hope
So I don’t lose my composure
My mind races
Ten million light years to go
And there’s no finish line in sight

I need to breath the air
I need to feel the sun
I need to touch the water
I need to hear your voice
To bring me back to Earth

Only you
Can make time cease to exist
Only you
Can make this word small
Only you
Can bring happiness to a lonely heart
And only you
Can make the sunsets beautiful
And the stars align
But for now let’s just take it day by day
The future is an enigma
It was always meant to be kept that way

Put your faith in me
And so will I to you
Lean in my dear
For time and space is infinite
In our own world
The atoms will expand
And the stars will glow
But if we don’t make it
Past the first galaxy
Some things were never meant to be
But I’ll chase this feeling
Until I exhaust my options
And until then we will know
If Eternity is meant to be

It feels like I’m lost at sea
A sea of insecurities
Fears, and disparities

I live in the past
To not look forward
I learn to love my comfort
They way I see the days go by
Complacent in time
I drown myself within my own sorrows

I wish I had the confidence to move forward
Baby steps never hurt anybody
Or so they say
When I’m reluctant to change
Even the smallest steps
Feel like Jupiter’s gravity has pulled me away

The high seas
Keep me from looking at my own potential
I can have a million fans
Guiding me towards the right direction
But in my state of mind
I’m so fragile, I’m so weak
I forget the resilience I’ve built from the past
It’s nothing more than a distant memory

But hold up
There’s no right if there’s no left
There’s no East if there’s no West
And there’s no We
If there’s never Me pushing against the tide
It’s hard work
But there’s no change
If you never give yourself the time
It’s a zero sum game
It’s just part of life
It’s just,
A part of life

I took the time to know you
You took your time to know me
But you once didn’t exist to me
And neither did I to you

The winds always change
But the skies will always be blue
But if your world turns to grey
Remember,
The clouds will move on soon

The Earth cries in periods
It’s natural for its growth
I wish I could wipe yours tears away
But what is happiness
If you never know to hurt

Reality can be cruel
Reality can be sweet
Reality can mean anything
It’s your life for you to keep

But my reality is you
Wether sweet or sour
We might be in treacherous waters
But I’d rather fight the storms with you
Than live in ignorance of your existence
Because storms pass
And rainbows glow upon the horizon
Life goes up and down
It was never meant to be linear