𝙰𝚗𝚗𝚎 - Hello Poetry

𝙰𝚗𝚗𝚎 May 2023

it's the first time in months that i told someone
that i still love you
they asked if we're still talking
and it hurt me to say no

but this time, this love is surely different. it's my first time experiencing this kind of love. i will still love you even if you're with someone new. i will still love you from afar. i will still love you even if we're not talking. i will still love you even if i don't feel your presence anymore. and i sincerely hope and wish you're doing okay. please take care of yourself. i love you.

𝙰𝚗𝚗𝚎 May 2023

facade

it's okay
i can always smile

and people will believe i'm happy

𝙰𝚗𝚗𝚎 May 2023

how do i forget you?

maybe my way of coping
is also the way that hurts me
by putting meaning into everything
it makes all the memories difficult to forget

like how the most special day for me was when a total lunar eclipse happen, year 2022

𝙰𝚗𝚗𝚎 May 2023

knock

you don’t even have to ask
if i can keep you in my heart
you’ll always stay
here, always

why am i hurting myself at this hour

𝙰𝚗𝚗𝚎 May 2023

01:50

and when i’m feeling extreme emotions
like feeling genuinely happy or sad
there’s this unknown phenomenon where all i could think
is you
and when that happens
it feels as if the pain is as new
as how the pain felt on the day we ended

𝙰𝚗𝚗𝚎 May 2023

reality

why is it so hard to follow a dream
that society doesn't approve of?
it's either choosing to live while walking through thorns
or choosing to be dead whilst surviving,
doing the things that kills you inside

i hope one day it will all makes sense. i hope one day i could start this journey, this dream of mine that society won't ever approve of. that my parents won't approve of. i hope one day i could fully believe in myself enough to sacrifice everything just for this dream.

𝙰𝚗𝚗𝚎 Apr 2023

She

That girl carried pain and wore it like a jewelry.