there's a bucket in the corner
where all my love is stored
drawn down blinds
reveal the times
i screamed
and cut the cord
harmonica tears
metal burns
when you're near
cold and calculating
the tide goes out
the audience recedes
to leave their seats
facing away
by the time
the bucket
boils over
you're caught
caught in a wave
it's me
standing
shivering
on
the stage
your mother called last night
saying
"sweetie, please come home"
"the walls are caving in
but the corners,
they've only grown"
call your friend
don't talk to me
keep it quiet
it's so loud
so loud
honey, keep it down
baby, shut your mouth
in here it's so so loud
and i'm trying
so hard
to sleep
dollface aren't you drowning
cutiepie cut your shouting
i can't
get no
no peace
nurse says im gonna flatline
heart humming to the bell chimes
can't see the vertices
and i ain't
ain't got no time
empty room swimming sideways
harmonica waterlogged in
chords collapsing on a tailfin
won't even
can't even
blow it a kiss
and even if it could reach
even if i could speak
would i ever
ever be missed