as the gray scale pictures appeared
i saw you bring yourself near
and the blackness so well hid your face
even with the red lights filling the space
you were in the back corner i was across the way
making masterpieces after every mundane day
with my hair in a braid clipped up on my head
and your hands in your pockets when you scared me to death
all those photos of yours, like the trigger of a gun
i held my arms wide and smiled with the sun

now you wont even hold my blank canvas eyes
and yours smile to me on the stairs every time
but you wont say a word nor make a sound
you won't even blink while my soul hits the ground
i guess all the chemicals made me insane
and my dream didn't help, you pressed to my face
in a blue plaid shirt, i see you across the room
i guess i was the only one to feel the fumes
but somehow i know that's not true

there were the days of just you and i
and the world around us-where are the lights?
i remember awaiting my pride to take form
and trying too hard and feeling so torn
and holding so tightly to the print you made
for no real reason besides the look you gave
showing off to you for no purpose at all
i know it meant nothing, just a cushioned fall

now you wont even hold my blank canvas eyes
you know yours strung me in a web of lies
you walk away when my skeleton comes around
do you see this smile? it's sinking to the ground
i guess all the negatives inverted my view
and this nightmare rewired the image of you
in a blue plaid shirt, you wore it yesterday
i guess i was the only one to see it that way
but somehow i wanted it to fade

how could you look in my eyes
and know about the scars i despise
how could you see into my heart
when i never saw you coming from the start
how could you sever that broken touch
without even asking me what i want

but today you looked into these blank canvas eyes
and yours, hidden by glass, were the first to shine
and you quoted a movie and laughed with me
and pulled me towards you, my smile you didn't see
i guess your arms are strong as the walls
the hidden room that was home to it all
in a blue plaid shirt, i see you across the room
but i still won't admit that i felt those fumes
even though you know the sad truth

There's a devil breathing down the back of my neck
Every word you say has me twisted
Where do you say we go from here?

Nothing we had will ever be mended
Don't you see the girl you've affected
and how she longs to disappear?

Where did that little boy go?
I remember, I used to know you.
But that's not now, look around.
The world has changed;
why can't I follow suit?
I've realized I know nothing about you.

Beneath this translucent skin
There's only blood, and, oh, it's thin.

I had a vision: something I never truly expected
A flash of something I wasn't sure I wanted
As I noticed the speck of green
that was you.

I saw your face against my own, no space
Between our breaths, between our eyes
Those deep brown, almost black
that are yours.

I imagined-or maybe not-returning here
Two hands entwined as they should be
One dark, one light - contrast -
that's me and you.

I swore I felt the rain against the window
In an apartment near a coffeehouse
With arms, strong, eternal, on me:
they are yours.

Then, I glanced up from my beautiful reverie
To a pair of eyes twin to mine, tossing coins
My heart, it plummeted alongside,
straight to you.

please take me away, or let me be
should i truly be asking for a release
from someone who can look in my eyes
and see the stress i'm holding in
oh my take it away please
im begging you to rescue me

and i know its a bad decision
the sight of a smile i shouldnt crave
what are you doing to me
take your eyes off me but wait
i really cant make up my mind
but it's already been made
so i'll sever our touch
although im not sure its what i want

take yourself away
my dreams are not a place for you
jealousy is a cruel mistress
im searching for answers
but i already know where i stand
i cant shake the feeling when you take my hand
it's shameful i even know that rush
sit here recalling the moments of touch
between you and i
broken worlds collide
i see you and i beg you take me away

what should be a nightmare
i find desperate longing
and the gap of time is prolonging
and creating daydreams
that a girl should never see
not a girl with ties like me

what the hell are we thinking
i know i'm watching it sinking
my heart drops to the catacombs below
a tomb for the wicked and restless soul
the soul inside my pathetic chest
hidden by a hand you should take from my neck

just take it away
you'll realize it'll collapse someday
is that what i truly desire please tell me how i feel
i can't be trusted to make that up for myself

i know that we shared those scars
that hour that seems to be only ours
comprehension mixed with apprehension
and a touch of alcohol we alluded to
i can feel the flush of my cheeks
and the breath i forgot to take
oh please take it away

proximity, it means nothing to me
on a wednesday or a sunday it doesn't mean a thing
that red on my face it doesn't mean a thing
not a **** thing to me

curl up on my floor with me
and tell me who you want to be
and wish that you and i were eternal
like we did once before
curl up in that chair with me
and hold onto me while i read
about the problem i cant rid myself of
like we did once before
curl up on my bed with me
and make me to feel endlessly
with the magical way you've taken me
like we did once before
i hate to miss you but you know how much i do

you're the only reason i even want to write
and you're the only reason i even want to try

and you know you're the reason i wake up
and you know you're the reason i get up
and you know you're the reason i'm sitting here
and you know you're the reason that i smile

but you don't know exactly how many times
you've been just stupid enough to save my life
and, darling, i love you over a billion times

it's a game of cat and mouse we play without any reservation at all
we always had nothing more than the space between us, so small
our shared breath on the frigid air spoke dreams we'll take to the grave
i so desperately wish i could for once be even a little brave
when i glanced your way i could see your disappointment in me
the armrest we shared that morning was a battlefront only we could see
i sailed a beautiful sea of blue for months in fear of freezing to death
but your arms kept me safe and every time I held my breath

take a deep breath and swallow the lump that's found home in my throat
and eventually i'll probably come to peace with the words I wrote
all those years ago

what do I do with all these memories?
one day i'll be able to set them free
oh won't you come swim away with me
for you it's way too easy

the night i chased you down forbidden corridors is burned inside
with all the rooms they should of locked where we tried to hide
i still remember the way you fell asleep in the backseat
it was just you and i, and the lights reflected on concrete
everything just feels so melancholy tonight
especially the reminder of you in my life

take a deep breath and swallow the lump that's found home in my throat
and eventually i'll probably come to peace with the words I wrote
all those years ago

what do I do with all these memories?
one day i'll be able to set them free
oh won't you come swim away with me
for you it's way too easy

there was once a crooked smile that kept me alive
and i used to adore two shining blue eyes
it was never to be
you wouldn't float away with me

what do I do with all these memories?
one day i'll be able to set them free
oh won't you come swim away with me
for you it's way too easy

i will gladly give you every word I wrote
all those years ago.