What am I to do
With all this love I have for you?
For you are so in love with her
I can see that it hurts
Your smile, it is brighter
Your shoulders, they feel lighter
I watch as she comes around the corner
And you head straight toward her
I want you to be happy
That is all I care about  
Even though it kills me
That now I have been kicked out
She takes up all your time
She needs you every minute
Even though she swears
She is independent
So tonight I walk alone
Down the middle of our road
The solid yellow lines
Are blurry in my eyes
Because you should be here with me
Laughing like you did
This shouldn't be our ending
Nothing has been said

I walk by your house
To see you standing there
She is close beside you
You are playing with her hair
The tears they pour down
On our yellow lines
For finally I realized
You were never mine

"Why am I never enough?" She whispered. I was lying close enough to taste the beer on her lips and see the tears forming in her eyes. "What am I doing wrong?"

"Sometimes the ocean terrifies people because of the depth it carries. They dip a toe in and believe they have experienced all that it offers... And you my dear, are very much like the ocean."

Oh my darling
If only you could see
Everything I admire
When you look at me
There are stars in your eyes
And constellations make up your mind
You're lost because you want to be normal
But God gave you a different mold
And you don't understand
That, that doesn't mean
You're not beautiful
Boys have abused you
To believe a women's love might cure you
Yet you're still left feeling empty
Because what society tells you
You realize has no meaning
You cry to a God
Whose promised you love and healing
But you think he doesn't hear you
Because you believe you don't deserve that love

I listen to you talk
About all the things that hurt
And I feel myself breaking
When there is no emotion in your words

Cause don't you get it?
Can't you see?
All the love that surrounds you?
How much you mean to me?
Some of me wants to shake you
Yell at you and scream
Until you understand
The worth of your being
And yet I wish to hold you
And catch all of your tears
Help you remember
That I am always near
And to remind you
All the people who would care
If you one day decided
That you no longer belonged here

I know that it's not easy
But no one said it was
So next time you get close
To giving up your life
Remember all the angels
Who stopped you all those times
And if you think of me
Know how much I love you
So much that it hurts
And there is a God who loves
An infinite times more

Sometimes I wonder why I hate waiting so much.
I cant stand sitting around for a call from a long-distance friend,
Or a cup of coffee.
Things that I love.
It never used to bother me.
But now? It drives me crazy.

But then I realize,
It's because I went crazy waiting for you.

There is something about the rain that has never made any sense to me. The way it gracefully hits the pavement yet is capable of destroying beautiful things. I don't understand how you can dance in it or have your tears hidden in it. I often try to be cheerful in the presence of rain but it never fails to make me feel lonely and nostalgic.

I've discovered that rain keeps its company in sadness. And I have found that it's good sometimes...

To be sad.

I can taste the sandwiches
Filled with sand
I can smell the house
That I called home for a short time
The sound of the ocean outside of the window
The touch of sheets that lulled me to sleep

And your voice echoing through all of the memories.

There we were, lying in your car.
The music was playing but your eyes held all my attention.
Your smile was deafening and I was left awestruck at the way the setting sun flickered in your eyes.
Not the most magnificent of words could express the wonders of that night.

It was then I realized how beautiful it is, to just simply be with someone.

Her eyes were the most exquisite thing he had ever seen. They were a special kind of blue. They reminded him of the sky when there aren't any clouds and the sun is shining and it's the most magnificent blue anyone has ever seen and it goes and goes into all the universe unending.

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An­d when she looked at him, he was left breathless every time.

Sometimes poetry can be
Finding the right word
In the worst time

Will you notice
When I'm not there?
Will any part of you care
When you see I didn't show?
Will you feel an ache in your chest
That I chose not go?
Did you hope I would be there to welcome you?
Were you surprised when I wasn't?
All this time gone by
And I still can't look you in the eye
Every word on the tip of my lips
Can't seem to reach you
Blocked by this ****** elephant in the room
Because, yes
You still appear in my dreams
Saying the sweetest of things
But so much changed
After you walked away
I wonder if you would be proud of who I've become
Because I can't decide if I am
I wonder if you've changed
Though you seem the exact same
I wonder if these two new people
Could ever get along?
Then there's a silence
One I used to love
But now I'm searching for words
All familiarity is gone
I want to asked if you cared
When everyone but me was there
But I'm afraid the answer would be
"No, I didn't care."

"I don't let anybody help me."

He paused. He looked at her fragile body and for the first time, he noticed all the scars too. He saw the nails protruding from her heart and the barbed wire that was wound to tightly around. And though he saw the answer, he needed to hear her say it. "Why?"

"Sometimes we go through things that make it so we're better off alone. And I, my love, have been through a lot of those things."

Yes,
It's bad that you just want to hook up

Yes,
It's bad that you're in love and my body makes you want to give it up

Yes,
It's bad that you try to make it my fault

Yes,
It's bad that I'm telling you no and you wish I'd say yes

Yes,
It's bad because I am not some girl you can just "hit and quit"

Yes,
It's bad because I am so much more than you're making me out to be.

Any day could be awful
Every moment unbearable
But it never mattered because then I remembered you were mine
And everything got better again.


I miss that.