invitation, then concession
it’s the same old song and dance
we’re playing it louder and faster
louder and faster than ever before
like moths to a flame
we’re cheek to cheek
chest to chest
skin on skin
with no room to breathe
but that’s how we like it

Hush, don’t speak.
Pretty far fall, isn’t it?
It’s the risk you take, though.
Common knowledge, that.
I mean it when I said don’t speak.
Don’t ask questions.
Just inhale, exhale.
Rinse and repeated.
Anyway, as I was saying.
That’s the risk you take.
When you throw your self into something, I mean.
When you throw yourself into something so far you can only fall.
Unless someone’s there to catch you.
Because then I suppose it’s a trip.
Why do you look so scared?
I’m not gonna push you.
Not gonna make you do anything you don’t want to do, anyway.
Yeah, once you start falling, there’s no stopping it.
No no no, you can’t back away.
Oh please, we both know you don’t want to.
Because if I don’t want to, you certainly do.
Don’t you?
I knew it.
See?
I’m too smart for you, probably because I am you.
Yeah, you’ve been listening to yourself talk this whole time.
The entire time you’ve been looking over the side of this bridge.
It’s awfully foggy today, but then again, when is it not?
No one would see you if you fell.
No one to chase after you and scream as you fall.
No one to see me nudge you just…a little…closer.
Ha, I saw that.
I got you.
Scared you.
Don’t be scared, really.
You want this as much as I do.
So do it.
Jump.

i love it when you say
chrysanthemum, pedestrian
aminals, spectacles, nudist and crotch.

i hate it when you say
motherboard, adrenaline
angry, soaking, wrinkles, and rights.

it’s been too long since I heard you say
anything.

he snarls, she sobs
tears really can fall
and they fall like rain

her tender skin
brutalized
her blueblue eyes
close again

same scene
difference nightmare
she’s screaming louder
so hit me, i dare you to

i’ve been down and out
seen the worst, worse than you
hit me, I dare you to
a simple punch, a vicious word
can’t pierce these scars
can’t close these eyes

these broken eyes

kept wide shut
keep the monster away

put the bottle down
pour it out, throw it away

it’s so amusing how
in one breath
you chastise, criticize

the same behaviors
you so proudly enjoy
you’re oh so *******
you really think you’re tough?

looking down on everyone
from your throne of hypocrisy
as your bloodshot eyes blink, burning
i see you
you’re weaving, waning

if you’re looking for someone
to catch you when you fall
keep on looking, honey; sober up
and keep on looking
for whatever you need to find
cuz you sure as hell won’t find it

at the bottom of a bottle

there will be a day
when the sky will darken and
the clouds will gather and
i will take your hand in mine and
the thunder will rumble and
the lighting will strike and
the clouds will open up and
the rain will pour down and
we will laugh together and
w will run together and
our hair will be ruined and
we won’t care and
we’ll play in the puddles and
we’ll forget we’re too old for that and
our hearts will open up together and
we will finally know who we are meant to be

If I could write a million stories
about the way things used to be,
I wouldn’t write a one.
I’ve tried to forget, to forgive,
pretend you never happened.
It simply doesn’t work.
But I’ve done my crying and
I’m no longer angry.
So I’d like to say, finally,
that you made me who I am today.
For better or for worse, I let you in.
And I’m okay with that, and
have a good day, because…
I will.