I wonder when this pain will end
All my life I hung onto those who hurt me most
I could never see the light without them by my side
A temporary fix
To not feel the lonely ache
Now it's time to face the truth
To sit in my filth and stew
I held you close, so close, so dear
For I was filled with fear
Self loathing, self scrutiny
You are gone but you were never worthy
You stole my heart and left me lonely
You laid with other while I loved you so
For you are like me
You tried to fill your void
While gaping mine wide open
Now I'm numb and cold
Too tired to finish what I wrote