My heart was broken by my first love for many reasons,
yet none were sufficient enough to give me closure.
I know she will never love me again,
At least not the way she used to.
Yet despite the empty space and the vast distance between us
I cannot give up or further myself from her.
Why can I not just let her go?

The world says to me that I'd be doing us both a favor.
One last act of love. "Let her go".
Get a life, be free, be better, "Let her go".
Focus on yourself, push yourself, "Let her go".
It'll come with time, don't try so hard. Just... let her go...
Yet despite what the world will tell me,
how easy others drop and move on.
I believe it's facade, a mask covering their feelings.
Nobody but the internet knows I haven't moved on.
It's easy to put on a mask and pretend you have let her go.

But I ask of you, when the pain a year ago is still as fresh today,
how does one... actually... "Let her go"

I'm trying to move on, but my heart won't let go.

I might not be texting you, or even seeing you. But, I'd respond in a heartbeat should that notif pop up on my phone.

I may not greet you like I did on the daily, but even a year later... you're still the last thought when I fall asleep.

It may no longer be the blissful smiles, and instead be the tearful cries. But I miss you and I think about you.

You see a villain, but I see a person trapped inside.
I wear the mask of indifference, but inside I fight to be understood.
What you call ‘cold’ is a heart wrapped in struggle.

I unblocked you today,
But I didn't know what to say.
You left me 1 year ago
But always on my mind though.
I want to reach out and call
Would that be talking to a wall?
In a moment of weakness
I did what anyone might guess.
I unblocked you today,
But I didn't know what to say.

Of all the people I could be,
why wasn't a person you could love
just be one of them.

Of all the promises that we made,
why couldn't you staying with me
be at least one of them.

Of all the reasons you could choose,
why was **** out of my control
******* one of them.

When two people love each other
but can't seem to get it together
when do you say enough is enough?

Tick Tock, Tick Tock
Thats the sound of the clock.
A warning, an ending oncoming.
The pain in my heart numbing.

Ding ****, Ding ****
My love I had, no longer strong.
Waning each day, Missing you.
I guess our relationship won't renew.

Tick Tock, Tick Tock
Time passes, but we don't talk
For my own peace of mind
My goodbye letter goes unsigned.