my grief, a calm sea
with me who's underwater
with no air, no life

hands facing the sun
slowly reaching for my ship
hoping i will float—

heavy is my loss
far from reach, ship is sinking
a retribution

my ship as my foe
and her fall is my drowning
untimely future

and time stood still for—
my ship, a broken wreckage
leaving me wading

salvation in death
i swam for survival and
no ship for rescue

people did find me
lonely hero with nothing
but my sun-dried tears

captain with no ship
grief heavy like dead body
rolling off the plank

my ship, a ghostship
where i am the only ghost
and my ship's at peace

"sorry for your loss"
how much does condolence weigh
to you—a stranger

Salvation found me.
I will treat myself better.
This time, I choose me.

You don't want to tell it to my face
But you forget that your eyes speak
And they don't say you love me
And they don't say my name
You won't love me
You won't say my name.

If you want to, I'll see you by the sea,
If you don't, I'll be waiting with cold coffee.

I hope you're okay. I hope you love what you're doing right now. I hope that you always make art. Not the stereotypical art of drawing, painting, sculpting, etc. but the art of drowning yourself in science or mathematics, the art of letting go of negativity, the art of breaking the rules, the art of reaching nirvana, the art of letting yourself get lost in the moment or just about anything that is considered art (if it's not but you love it and it makes you feel good, call it art). I hope that when you do something, you do it for yourself first. I hope that when you write about love you're thinking about yourself. I hope that when someone asks you to list down the things you love, you write your name first. I hope that when you find yourself crying, you look at yourself in the mirror and realize that tears don't suit your face. I hope that you always eat on time and don't forget about drinking water. I hope you read lots and lots of books. I hope you're always thinking about the world and its people and how it's still beautiful despite of the happenings right now. I hope you learn to say "no" to people when you need to and be firm about it. I hope you're happy and contented with your life. I hope that when you're in a dark dark place, you're not afraid to call your mom or your dad or even a friend to tell them what's going on (believe me, you can trust them to understand your place right now and never leave you). I hope that when you see people passing by, you see their story first before their faces. I hope that when you make something beautiful, you learn how to destroy it to make something more beautiful. I hope that every day is the best day of your life. Finally, I hope that you receive the warmest hugs, kisses and love from the people that matter to you and loves you back unconditionally.

F. Scott Fitzgerald said, "For what it's worth: it's never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you're proud of, and if you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start over." So live your life with an open mind and an open heart and when the going gets tough, take a moment to rest but don't ever give up. You can do anything. You're here to do it.

With hopes to see you living life to the fullest,
Sam