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Samantha Schu Jul 2011
I cant do it anymore
some outside force is holding me prisoner
I feel I'm being dragged,pulled away from you
in a fit of rage and jealously I weep
All of my insecurities from my past resurface
I trust you but I don't trust, trust.
trust can destroy, terrorize, deflate.
here I am, still deflated from my past, my past of trusting.
My heart cries, emotions dwindle, tears fill my drowning eyes.
I am letting you go.
I am letting you leave, no.
I am pushing you away- I don't want to.
I am helpless, and unable to control. IT WONT STOP
Something has come over my mind, body, but not heart.
I want you, I am in love with you, but I can't trust you.
My Mind tells my heart to believe you'd break it
and I trust it, why should I?
I shouldn't.  
You'd never hurt me. Right?
Samantha Schu Jul 2011
on this night she weeps. her sorrows dwell in her mind.
every emotion peaks. She thinks about her life.
The lies, the hurt, the betrayal.
Every bump in the road shows on her face now,
he did this.
The scars after all these years, feel as if they are never to heal
the pain must stay, she believes, to live.
to be alive.
he did this.
She held his arm as a child, trusting her life in his hands.
expecting nothing but safety, she received terror.
pain in the form of needles and spears, stabbing her heart in seconds.
She fell to her knees, taking in defeat.
realizing life had taken her and had changed her.
her hero died in her eyes, he stood there as a stranger.
staring at his little girl, his daughter who now felt no love.
hatred ran through her veins, into her heart, spitting out words she had never spoken before
he did this.
in a crumbling second she gripped onto herself, slowly fading away.
Caught sight of the storm that was drifting her way and didn't move
she couldn't move. As she gasped for breath it hit her.
tearing her apart, piece by piece
the rain covered her face, the wind ripped her cheeks.
the storm raged on, never quit, never faded.
he did this, he ruined her. He made her, and he destroyed her.
No mercy, no care. She got used to the storm
The thunder was home. sunshine never showed its face
it was not welcome, nothing good in her life.
It didn't fit in.
He did this.

— The End —